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Mood: Calming self and cold
Music: Numb Disturbed
I have so much that I can say, but I don't know that I'll get to them all because truthfully I probably don't remember it at this time. To start out, I've been thinking of showing the pictures I have of the twins, but I decided to wait until they don't have so much stuff hooked up on them...e.e; In other news I found out that one of my grandpas had a stroke the other night, but my parents didn't bother to tell me until they were leaving to go to see him.><' Ugh it annoys me how much my parents don't tell me things that I need to know. Like my mom always pre-scheduling days for me to babysit really gets on my nerves because she never asks if I had anything to do on those days, and a lot of the time I don't, but with a few I've had to cancel out my plans for the day..;-;
Hmm I was very hyper at around 10:00 p.m. that's why my mood says 'calming' o.o I'm a scary person when I'm hyper...@.@'' I can make scary sounds too....>->' One person thought I sounded like a gremlin..O.o'' Lol, but that's because I was just acting weird, crazy, and hyper. For myself to calm down though I have to read lyrics.@.@'' I don't know why, but it calms me down.
There's so much that I can say, I just don't know what to say. It's all jumbled up and I can't find what it exactly is...If that made any sense..e.e;; Yeah, but lately I've been feeling a little unkindled, (Put out). Dun know why, just am, it's just one of those things I guess..e.e; And I don't really tell people, I just try to act like I'm fine even though on the other end I'd be crying..e.e' I mean, I've done it many times before...I do it because I don't like making others feel sorry for me. There's a thing about the word sorry I don't like, and it's just that I don't think that many people really mean it and just use it when they have nothing else to say. I think I'd know because I sadly do it too, but most of the time I don't mean it, and then there's sometimes where I'm just being sarcastic, and there are times I mean it...The word sorry is just so over used now a days. Okay, I'm getting carried away...x.x''
"Numb"
Bleeding now I'm
Crying out I'm
Falling down and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Laughing now I'm
Stopping now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Feeling nothing
Yeah, you have created a rift within me
Now there have been several complications
That have left me feeling nothing
I might say, you were wrong to take it from me
Left me feeling nothing
Crawling now I'm
Beaten down I'm
Tortured now and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Hunting now I'm
Stalking now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Killing nothing
I can feel you ripping and tearing
Feeding and growing inside of me
I want this, more than you know
I need this, give it back to me
I can't think of any of the other things that I wanted to speak of, so I'll just depart for now.
Ending mood: Dunno
Ending music: Niki FM, Hawthorne Heights
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Randome day.
