Tuesday, June 20, 2006

So.... I cut my hair! I donated it and it's super short! I like it I just don't know how everyone else will like it, it's definently a different look. but aside from that happy note, I've been sort of avoiding josh... I'm just confused and feel like he's expecting too much from a relationship with me and i am unsure of how much i really like him. I gotta go
Nicole
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Sunday, June 18, 2006

   the date
so I had my date with josh and well... it was really fun except when it came to the part where he walked me to the door. we hugged and he started to lean in as if to kiss me but i backed away and said goodnight. I felt bad but i chickend out! more later
nicole
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Thursday, June 15, 2006

   i'm taking my math B regents at noon. It's the last regents i'll ever take and hopefully I'll pass it. Either way I still graduate which is a plus. I have my first date with Josh tomorrow night. I'm excited yet nervous. I almost thought he was going to kiss me the other day when he came over to hang. Why does this whole kissing thing freak me out?! oh well
i'm gonna do some last minute studying!
toodles!
Nicole
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Tuesday, June 6, 2006

bleh
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bleh
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Sunday, May 28, 2006

   yesterday and Josh
So I won't go into complete detail about yesterday until I write Kyleigh but all I can say is it was the best day of my life! I did tell him of my feelings and his are mutual for me. Now all we have to do is wait it out and see what his decision is to do. It will be hard but i just loved every second of it! He had turned to me and said "I just want to say thank you for today. It was the most fun I've had in a long time." It's like something out of a movie or something. Neither one of us wanted to leave. So When It was time to go and my hand was near his chair he had grabbed it and clasped his hand with mine. I wanted to hold his I really did but We couldn't so I took it a way and told him it wasn't right. If you could have seen his face! He looked hurt, and so was I, but I would feel so shady if I did give in.
ttyl
Nicole
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Thursday, May 25, 2006

   i'm hangin with josh on saturday!
who knows what will be said...maybe I might come clean earlier then planned
nicole
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

i think i'm gonna tell him right before we leave for NYC next weekend on friday....
say prayers for me
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Monday, May 22, 2006

continuation on last pondering
I found that I for sure really like Josh. Which sucks. I know he still likes me and I wish I could just tell him but I can't do that to Bridget. I can just tell by the way he acts and also his comments and what he put in my yearbook, that he likes me still. But my timings off just like his. here is what he wrote: This is a year i'll remember for a long time. And hey, sorry for springing my "feelings" on you (I Have stupid timing. [...) I'd really like to keep in touch ! I'll definently miss hang everyday with you when We're in college. I hope you know I care. with love, Josh.

Don't you see it? sigh
A diffrent subject and another boy. A boy from general brown likes me names justin. I found out from Bridget and I told her to talk to him for me but at the time at prom I wasn't sure I really liked josh. But hey he's taken so I have to move on again like last year whe I liked him.
UGH!
night nicole
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Sunday, May 21, 2006

Untouchable face
think i'm going for a walk now
i feel a little unsteady
i don't want nobody to follow me
'cept maybe you

i could make you happy, you know
if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things
and i do

tell you the truth i prefer the worst of you
too bad you had to have a better half
she's not really my type
but i think you two are forever
and i hate to say it but you're perfect together

so fuck you
and your untouchable face
fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch
who am i
bet you can't even tell me that much

2:30 in the morning
and my gas tank will be empty soon
neon sign on the horizon
rubbing elbows with the moon
safe haven of the sleepless
where the deep fryer's always on
radio is counting down the top 20 country songs

out on the porch the fly strip is
waving like a flag in the wind
you know i really don't look forward
to seeing you again soon.

you look like a photograph of yourself
taken from far far away
i won't know what to do
i won't know what to say

so fuck you...

i see you and i'm so perplexed
what was i thinking
what will i think of next
where can i hide
in the back room there's a lamp
that hangs over the pool table
and when the fan is on it swings
gently side to side
there's a changing constellation
of balls as we are playing
i see orion and say nothing
the only thing i can think of saying

is fuck you...


this song is sung and writen by Ani Difranco. I just love this song!
So last night was extremely fun, It was my first and last prom. Everybody loved my dress and i actually felt really attractive, which is rear. I only get a few of those moments. i was nervous at firrst going with nick because I didn't want to lead him on but it wasn't that bad.
Question though...: Is it possible to like more than one boy (in my case about 4)yet still be extremely good friends.
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