Saturday, February 4, 2006

"Even if your thoughts are primarily on your home and private life on
Friday, there are bound to be some obligations that you'll be expected to
deal with in the outside world as well. But spending a little quality time
with someone special could pay big dividends this weekend. Try to get away
on some kind of romantic escape if you can. If you're available, you could
be encountering an intriguing foreigner."

Sorry horoscopes always intrigue me. So me and Brenden were supposed to go out but the original plan wasn't gonna work out so I decided I should just stay hope because I was exhausted. But also I was a little peeved at him. We're good now but.... well during the day he had asked Kat to ask me where we were in the relationship and what not. I was a little perturbed but we talked a little after school. He said something like "Yah I don't know what was up with me today, but I need to get over it. It's like an inferiority complex or something". And I had said "I make you feel inferior?" You know what he said? "actually you do sometimes, you just seem out of my leauge.". What surprises me though is that he can ask me out during my photography class (Which he isn't even in) and ask me out in front of Abbie, Sam, and Joe, but not even ask me about our relationship. I didn't know I was that intimidating. But anyways.... He did the sweetest thing. He drew this picture of me and him looking up at the stars together. I wish I could scan it and post it but first of all i don't have a scanner and second I wouldn't know how to put it on the website. Anywho though... I still don't know what I'm going to say if he asks me if I want to go steady with him. I do like him but I have to find my emotions....plus the boy who I really used to like is giving me questionable vibes he likes me. UGH!!!!
I should go.
lots of love
Nicole
P.S. I wathced In her Shoes to night (awesome movie by the way) and read this poem that was in it, it makes me want to cry a little because it's so sweet.

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings