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• started watching sailor moon
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Monday, July 24, 2006

   Unexpectedly I realized....
Lately, I have noticed many things can happen unexpectedly all at once. Sometimes good and sometimes bad. Recently though, I have come to the realization that though they mostly seem unexpected to me, they really shouldn't be. Here I was, thinking and saying to others "What did I ever do? I never did anything to cause this drama, so why is it that everyone seems to have a problem with me?", when really, I (as in ME), was causing problems. Maybe not physically, but verbally. Not in hurtful words, but the way I exressed my feelings. Granted, I've always said not many people understand me and my personality, which truely no one does, but, maybe I should try to express myself better. Maybe instead of complaining I should make an effort as well as not be SO scared of what others may think. That is one of my biggest problems. My other problem is being too realistic. Maybe once I would like to act out without any doubts and just DO IT. Just anything. Just act upon an urge. Sure i did that with Josh but, it ended badly, or really, just didn't feel right... I want to act on something for once and not have a single regret. I just want it to be a positvie experience. I don't know. I'm not even in one of those depressed moods. I can't explain it. I just felt I needed to type this all out so it's in front of my eyes and I can see what I need to work on, as well as, just... DO.
I'll post in later I guess.
Night

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