Tuesday, October 18, 2005

whew
i don't really know what to say but i felt like i needed to post something new i mean i haven't been keeping up like i used to... umm... i am out of the hospital now (woohoo!) and... oooo i bought a new car! it a 2004 silver chevy cavalier. small and secksie just what i wanted. umm... i'm not in school. i was supposed to go and take my ged test the day i went into the emergency room and i haven't went back and talk to the ged ppl since so iunno what is gunna happen with that. sooooo... iunno ask me a question quick iunno what to talk about!...
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Friday, October 7, 2005

   sick is whooy
just very very sick. auston spent like almost 2 weeks at my house before my mom finally made him go home last night and now she wont let me go and see him cause she says i can't drive when i'm taking medication (which i am taking lots of). so i am sad and sick and very tired. so i am going to sleep now
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Thursday, August 18, 2005

   woo i have been busy there has been like eight extra people staying at my house like every single night (including auston) and so it's been a little hecktic around here but it's cool too. i know when i was younger somethin like this would hav e really been scary for me so it's kinda cool to know that i can be social now. but anyway stuff has been pretty good with auston and everything except my mom. see i've been changin and so now i can see where she is kinda messed up in how she does things and i've been calling her on it and i think it is pissin her off but i'm not worried about it she doesn't know just how stuborn i can really be mwahahahaha. aww and joe has been upset with me like he really wants to go back out with me and i told him that i wouldnt do it but he still keeps calling and tellng me how he misses me and i told him i wont go back to him cause he didn't treat me right and i know that he wont be any different if i ust go back. he seems a little hurt though i feel bad. so iunno if he's gunna be ok i'ma go and see him with his little brother this sunday and i guess i'll just have to wait and see what happens....
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Monday, August 8, 2005

   got my laptop back!
i'm excited now i can use a computer that isn't slow as all hell... yey!!! oh and so much has happened... let's see me and joe broke up but really it's no big thing it was mutual we both seen it coming and so it really wasn't that hard to do and it's been really good for us both as individuals. oh and so now i am going out with auston (i didn't get much of a chance to be single but i guess it's cool). everyone is like "oh i knew you guys would go out eventually" and i'm just kinda like "really?" iunno i totally never seen it but i guess everyone else did. but it id working out really well i mean we've always been able to talk very very openly with each other and he's my best friend so it's really good it's only been 2 weeks but you never know it might be really good. i was with joe for ten months and he was my first boyfriend so i've had a little bit of experiance now and this one might be even better and the first one was really really good. plus i've become a stronger person so even if it starts to go bad i've gotten strong enough that i can tell ppl that they can't treat me badly. it's a pretty cool power. and it's cool cause me and joe still talk quite a bit so i know that he's at least doin alright but anyways i am extremly tired i'ma go to bed now
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Friday, July 15, 2005

woo it's been a while
ok well like... my laptop is broken.. so it's hard to get online on the desktop cause then stupid thing is so freakin slow *grrrrs* but anyway what have i been up to? well i went and bought 6 icp cds... oh and finally figured the story behind the butterfly.... it was kinda weird that story acctually meant a lot to me (if ya want i'll post it.... even if you don't want i probably will anyways just cause i like it) and umm ya know hanging out with auston... oh and rena... i get drunk with her sometimes it's pretty cool. umm oh! it was kinda funny i was driving into town (i life way out on a dirt road) and like for a split second i went off the road... just barely!!! and there was a rock right there waiting for me and i cut my fuel line and spilled nearly a full tank of gas on the road... it was crazy that rock just knew i was comin... but anyway i'm go into town and probably find auston now. oh wait first... i have decided to get a tattoo... and icp tattoo i'm thinkin of getting one that looks like the cover of the calm cd... just cause it looks cool. if i find a pcture i'll post if but anyways yeah i'ma go now.
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Sunday, July 3, 2005

   wooo i can't believe we made it home alive
i finally made it back from going to fallon to visit joe. te trip there was crazy my car broke down and me and auston sat on the side of the road for 5 hours and then i missed our exit and we ended up in reno rather then fallon. but we made it and it was great for a week and a half. i can't wait to move there now i like fallon a lot better then winnemucca. and i already have friends there yey whooy. me and joe have already started talking about me moving down there before the next school year. lol oh and me and auston delievered otter pops to delivery ppl (lol we pulled up beside the pizza delivery ppl and handled them otterpops while driving down the road) it was great funlol but anyway i'm tired so i'm go and be lazy in front of the tv now. joe i love you and i miss you already see ya later secksieness
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Thursday, June 23, 2005

   yey for war... the game not like seriously eh whatever
hmm... iunno same kind of thing goin on. i stayed in town with auston last night and we just stayed out all night. lol we went to the model t and played war (the card game) for like 4 hours, and then we sat in my car in the parking lot for like 3 hours and talked and shuffled cards until the security guy told us to leave. i'm probably going to fallon again for a few days and i'ma take auston this time. i'm glad don't have to drive by myself again, it's really not that bad but it's kinda hard to hold a conversation with myself after a few hours.it never really hard to keep a interesting conversation with auston and eventually auston tells me stuff that i would never tell anyone but i'm just a secretive kind of person. or well i guess i'm not as secretive as i thought i was, i told auston somethin and he saw right through it i was just like damn no one is supposed to be able to know stuff like that i think i am not as... well hidden as i thought i was (not for lack of trying). i didn't tell him that he got me exactly right buti guess i kinda didn't need to. bleh anyway i am just rambling i better stop now.
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

   bordum... but i got my car fixed!
or however you spell that iunno. anyway i am bored. lol it was crazy last night when i went to town i was just drivin along minding my own business and all of a sudden the guy runs out into the middle of the road so of course i hit the breaks right. well then he tries to open my door and i'm like "AHHH!" and then i looked over and it was auston. but he scared me it was crazy. but yeah then after that he wanted to meet someone at the mineshaft (a bar) and i was like "there's no way i am going into a room full of drunk guys." lol but i ended up walking in with him but he like had me on his arm like he was my escort or somethin. but yeah sure enough when i walked in the guy we were meeting was like "don't take this the wrong way (talking to auston) but honey (talking to me) you are hot!" it was awkward. lol but it was kinda cool cause i had auston to like save me. and then we called and talked to joe for a while. so yeah it was a cool day but now i am bored...

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Saturday, June 18, 2005

   iunno
last night at like 1 in the morning my brother came in my room and was like "hey you wanna go to leonard's with me?" and i kinda felt bad cause i really really wanted to go cause i never get to hang out with anyone. but i didn't wanna go cause leonard like has a big crush on me and so that makes things really weird cause whenever he's around he;s like "so are you still going out with joe?" "yes" "damn... oh i mean that's cool" and just things like that makes it awkward, i mean i really like leonard as a friend but it's just like ahhh stop it. so anyways i went with him and stuff and we were all just playing halo2 so it wasn't that bad but iunno i feel awkward about it. cause i don't wanna make leonard think i like him cause then when he finds out i don't it'll hurt him (i broke a guys heart doin that once and i have never forgave myself) but then again i kinda want leonard to go on a road trip with me cause i don't wanna go by myself and i cant find anyone else and he offered to go but iunno if its a good idea.. grr boys make thing difficult. oh and i smashed my cell phone in my car door and so o iunno if joe has called me or anything and i can't remember his number and i cant find where i wrote it down.... grrrr
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Thursday, June 16, 2005

shh i'm procrastinating
lol i talked to joe on the phone yesterday and he sounds all goofy. i guess his tounge must still be swolen cause he sounded so funny i kinda felt bad for laughin but he didn't seem too offended. he wa headed out to hang out with that danny cool kid that freaks me out just a little. but anyway i am supposed to be headed to carlin but i don't really wanna go so i'm procrastinating. i think i'ma wait for someone to get off work or to call me back and i'll go with them cause i don't wanna go by myself. i mean driving to fallon alone is one thing cause i've done it tons of time but i've never drove to carlin alone so i think i'll just wait... hurry someone call me!!!

^^^ that has to be my all time favorite song. it's under the moon by icp
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