Saturday, November 25, 2006

   Thanksgiving Was Good^^
Hey there^^. Sorry I didn't post but you know how Thanksgiving is. Well my family invited my boyfriend's family over for Thanksgiving to eat. We made so much food!! I mean MAN!! My dad cooked everything and I've never eaten a dinner where EVERYTHING tasted SOOOOO GOOD!! I'm going to have to start working out and get back into shape. Yea, I'm one of those natural athliets so working out is more of a habbit that will bug me if I don't do it. My brother, David, and I played a lot of different things. It's like a tradition between my brother and I to play video games during Thanksgiving and to carry it out throughout the Holiday season. So everything was awsome^^ I had a great time! I hope you had a good time as well.

During the time that I wasn't posting quite a few things happened. One was looking for a new college to go to cause I hate the one that I go to right now. I tried going back to the college that was back in Georgia that Edge and LegacyOf go to, but then I found out that I have to pay out of state payments instead of instate payments which is about $5,000. So with that in mind and the fact that my family can't afford it do to the fact that they have a to pay a morgage the first time in 16 years, I've decided to stay here for a while longer. The only way I will get out of this college that I'm going to is to go to another one. My mom helped me find a good college that is cheap and where I'll be able to stay in dorms. I'm actually excited about this cause I'll be on my own for the first time, but I know that I'll have to be responsible and study. So about the post from Nov. 2nd, thanks for helping me out Edge and LegacyOf. It really ment a lot for me, but it looks like I'm going to head back anytime soon.

Another thing I did while I was out was go to an Anime Convention called Anime USA! IT WAS AWSOME!! It was my first convention that I've ever been to and MAN I loved it!! I didn't get to cosplay sadly but next time I will! The whole thing was awsome! I got an original Mobile Sout Gundam poster for my dorm, and a Rock Lee shirt! Rock Lee is chibied! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! AHHHH!! SO MANY PEOPLE COSPLAYED!! I WANT TO COSPLAY FOR MY NEXT CONVENTION!! I want to cosplay as Talho from Eureka seveN! YEA! The best thing that came out of this convention was that it helped my relationship out with David a lot. For about a week before the convention a deep depresion set upon me to the point of where I was having second thoughts about my relationship with David. I was crying and everything; all I wanted to do was to brake up with him, but once we spent the day at the convention I fell inlove with David again and felt better about our relationship^^. SEE! THAT'S WHY ANIME IS SOOOOO GOOD FOR YOU! YEA! When I get the chance I'll post a picture of my Rock Lee shirt and my new poster. I'm still looking around for more anime posters for my dorm room cause it's all going to be anime!

Well that's about it. Hey, if I could ask Edge to help me out with something^^ I'm looking for my favorite song of Sr-71 for my site. You know which one it is, so if you could be so kind as to help me find it and put it up to my site, I'd really like that^^ That's it. I'll talk to you later!
~Love All Around
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Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Can You Believe That I'm Freaking Back?!?!!!


I'M BACK!!! HAHAHAAA!!! I TOLD YOU THAT I WOULD! I'D NEVER LEAVE MY FRIENDS^^ Well as you can see I'm back and in a whole new style too! I am know into Rock Lee!! I love that crazy, fuzzy eyebrowed, scary when drunk, ninja! The reason for this is because I've been watching Naruto (in japanese, what else?) on YouTube and saw the episode that shows Lee's past and how he came to be. I fell in love with his determination and hard work to achieve what he wants! I can relate to him so much when it comes to that cause I'm one of those people that has to study for countless hourse and do all of my work to get a good grade. That's why I look up to people that are like Rock Lee! I want to work hard just like him! So that's why I've changed my theme to Lee!! YEA!! But other than that, a whole lot happened but I'll tell you guys tomorrow which is my first day of Thanksgiving vacation^^! But I have to go and work hard on my school work for today or I'll never get it done through this vacation!! I'll seeya later!

To celebrate my coming back to Otaku, I've put up this video of Lee all drunk! It's funny! Enjoy!

~Love All Around~
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Wednesday, November 1, 2006

Please, Do This For Me...
I can't talk right now sadly but I do want to ask my friends Edge and LegacyOf to do me a favore. I'm asking you two because you two are the only ones that I know that are attending CSU. I need for one of you to ask anyone, I don't care who about the next date for addmission. If you find someone then please ask them for a website that may give me some information over all of the neccessary details that I may need. Then if you can PM me the information and website to me. I know this is asking a lot but remember that I'm not there and their site isn't exactly very helpful. Please, do this for me. And for everyone else that read this, I'm not going to be on for a good while. Why? I've got a lot of things to settle over here, plus I need a lot of time to myself to think over things. I'm still struggling which is affecting my judgment so I have to think things over very carefully before making a decition. I just need some time to myself. Sorry. Don't take me off of your friends list till I come back. I don't know when that will be but I promise that I will return. I love you all and I'll miss you...
~Till Then~
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Monday, October 30, 2006

Finally I Get To Post / Naruto+Hinata Comic Part 5
Oh man! I'm so sorry that I haven't been able to post for so long. I'm also so sorry that I haven't been able to visit almost anyones sites for the past few days. I just haven't made the time to really site down on the computer at all. *bows* Please forgive me in this hard time that I'm going through. *bows again* I promise that I'll be more diligent of visiting everyones sites.

Well I had a pretty good weekend again. First my work schedule was changed for this last weekend where I had to go to work on Friday, was off on Saturday, and work again on Sunday as usual. So another slow day went by on Friday. I didn't think I was going to have a very good day at all but I was looking forward to the next day where I'd be able to spend the day with DL^^. Then that at like around 6:15pm DL called me up and invited me to go with him and his father to watch the movie "The Prestige" that started at 7:30! My parents just about flipped about this last notice. But luckely for me it was all DL's father's fault and DL as well cause his father came up with it at the last minute, and DL didn't know when I got off work. Plus, DL wasn't supposed to invite me cause it was supposed to be a boy's night out with him and his father only.lol Oh well, I still love him anyways. If you want to get out and watch a good movie, got watch "The Prestige" I'm telling you this is a great movie. Highly recommened! You out and watch it!! It keeps you thinking throughout the entire movie!

On Saturday I was hurrying as much as I could to get ready for DL's arivale to my house. I was blow drying my hair at the last minute and doing other things right when he got there. But after that, we went to the basement and watched some more funny movies. One movie that we did watch was "Kun Fu Hussel" (i'm sure i spelled that wrong). Oh Man!! What a funny movie! I know it's not exactly the newest movie or anything but hey at least I got to watch it! If you haven't seen it, you should!! Then on Sunday we did the same: go to church, eat out, make fun of each other (DL and I) and I headed off to work. We were also talking about what we should do for Halloween. He told me about a festival on the army post that we could go to. Know my family has NEVER celebrated Halloween so I knew this would be a hard one to convice my parents. And just as I though, I ended up in an arrgument with my parents including with my mom but this time it wasn't pretty. I told her that I was getting depressed with this place and that I would go out and have a little more fun. Then she said "Well you made the decition to stay here so you should SUCK IT UP!" The only thing going through my mind was that I'm old enough to make the decition on where I can stay so I don't have to suck it up! I yelled back, "THEN SEND ME BACK TO GEORGIA! I DON'T HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THIS!" Before all this I had a feeling as if God was telling me that I was needed here to help someone but with all of this happening I'm just about to say F**K IT and do what I want. The good thing is that I was given permission to go to the festival but only on the grounds that I'm getting older and it's going to be harder to controle me. So I'm going to be a Vampire on the very first Halloween that I celebrate^^ I know it's nothing new but it is for me! I can't wait!

Well that's it. Sorry for the long post. I'm going to do what I can to get to your site and everyone elses but if I don't it's because I'm looking around for the custoom. Here's the last part of Naruto's comic and remember that I said this comic is my relationship with DL in a nutshell which means that yes, my family is just about to do this with DL. No joke. I don't get it either but oh well. This all will be over with when I get out of this house. Enjoy the last part of Naruto+Hinata^^



~Love All Around~
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Thursday, October 26, 2006

Naruto+Hinata Comic Part 4
Hey, thanks for your comment^^ I'm getting more comments on my site then ever! Thanks for being my friends, I really appreciate it.

Nothings going on at all really. I'm just thinking about life and the out comes that may happen. I've also been wondering what my life would be like right now if I would have stayed in Columbus, Georgia. I know that I would be rather happy with my friends so close by, but would I be happy to be on my own? I know that I would miss David, there's no doubt about that. Also would I be doing alright in college? Would I have picked up some bad habbits again? Only God knows what my life would have been like. Thinking about that made me want to move back to Georgia for at least my last 2 years of college. But then my brother brought up many good points. He said that the college that I'm going to is designed to assist students that are going to stay in the state (i'm going to a Community College). If I were to transfer to CSU in Georgia then CSU would not except almost any of my classes that I took since the classes are so different over there, so I would have to start all over again as if I never went to school in the beginning. Another point he made was that if I did tranfer then my parents would have to pay out of state tuition which is about $10,000 more than in state tuition. My family doesn't have that type of money due to the payments of this new house plus more payments of different things. I was told that I should go to the college that my brother is going to called George Maissen University (i don't think i spelled that right). But I really don't want to go to that school at all. I have checked out the place and it's just not for me, not my type of college. If I want to go to CSU then I have go this next semester to guarantee the in state tuition and to not fall too far behind since they wont except any of my credits. AHHH!! I'm getting depressed again just thinking about it. I'm going to have to pray on this. Who knows, maybe I'll head back? It just depends on how much longer I can put up with this place. Thanks for reading. Here's the 4th part of the Naruto+Hinata comic. Like I said before, the other parts before this is right under this post in seperate posts. There's only one more after this so enjoy^^


~Love All Around~
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Monday, October 23, 2006

   I Feel Like I Can Fly!! / Part 3 Naruto+Hinata Comic
*skips in while doing little spins of joy and is singing anything happy that comes up to mind* "I'm So HAAAPPYYYY!!!" *stops in mid-skip and song relizing something's wrong* XD "What day is it today and how long has it been since I've post?" *takes out cell, flips it open, and looks* "OMG!! I HAVEN'T POSTED IN 4 DAYS!! Oh man they must think that I left! Ahh, they must all hate me or worried!! I've got to go post!! *run so a computer as fast as possible*

Oh man! I'm SOOO SORRY!! *bows* I didn't mean to forget to post. Well, it's not that I forgot, it's that I've been so busy that I haven't had the time to post and so that lead to me not relizing how long I haven't posted... that was grammaticly wrong wasn't it? Anyway, what I've been busy with was being happy, henst the skiping all happiely thing. After I posted last, I pulled out my old N64 all in the mood for some old school. The only game that I haven't played was Banjo-Tooie that my found for me for Christmas about 2 years ago and I LOVE IT!! The kid theme to it is really annoying and I'm surpized I haven't bashed my head in the wall because of the stupid music stuck in my head, but the happiness and the bright colors keep me playing. I mean it's meserizing! Also I was able to spend all weekend with my David^^ *hugs David like a teddy bear and says like I'm 6* He's my big teddy bear^^ REALLY BIG TEDDY BEAR! I MEAN I'M ONLY 5'3 1/2" AND HE'S 6'!! Anyways, my weekend went like this:

~Thursay~
After going to my Math class in the morning (only class of the day) and finishing my work in the library I got home to a fun and energetic house that finally had my parents back in. It's awsome how sometime appart does to a family when they get back together. After tonting and making fun of each other the whole day my mom and I were able to have bonding time together by going to the mall for boot shoping. We wanted the latest style of boots but in the 2 weeks that I last saw them, all the good boots were out! Dang! But I had so much fun with my mom^^

~Friday~
Sleeping in is great! I love waking up to the sun warming up my face through a crack of my kertenes. With my hair washed and some 64 gaming time to myself done, I headed out and spent sometime with my David^^ He cooked me up some home made Tortia Chips that were so good!! I was then able to spend some alone time with him (finally!). Oh and my brother headed out to a Roman Reanactment! Yay^^

~Saturday~
I woke up to my mom telling to that I was sleeping in way too late. It was going on to 10:30pm so I got up. David called me up and invited me and my dad to eat at Cracker Barrol. Since my dad already ate I went by myself. I love food^^ After eating I had a plan on inviting David to go with my family to a really cool furniture store called IKEA! My mom was feeling sick and my dad had to go somewhere else so after dropping off a present for my mom at the house (we had an argument before i went to eat with David but i felt bad and got her a really nice sented candle) we headed out to IKEA. That store is HUGE!! I mean it's like an air port when you get inside of it with signs pointing you in different directions and arrows on the ground. We looked around and started saying that we wanted different things. IKEA is a European furniture and home accessoie store that's just amazing. David had such an appereciation to all the models since he lived in Germany for 3 years. David even started saying pointing at different things, "When we get married we can get our room to have this type of style^^." When he first said this I just looked at him like O_O Huh?!! Well, we have been going out for over 10 months and have surrvied a relationship that started off at seperate ends of the Atlantic Ocean (he was in Germany and I was in Georgia), and I love him with all my heart! So I wouldn't mind... NO I would LOVE being with him... once we get enough money that is. But after finally finding the squigly mirror that I wanted we headed off to the end of the the HUGE store. And when I capitalize something, that means what it means to an extream. I mean it was to the point of where we started asking each other, "HOW THE HELL DO PEOPLE SURRVIVE THIS?!! WHY WONT IT END?!! I WONT BE SURPRIZED IF WE MEET UP WITH SOME OLD MAN SAYING THAT HE'S BEEN LOST FOR OVER 15 YEARS IN THIS DAMN STORE!! Finally out of the store and after going though a costume shope, we went to my house. My bose Imran called me up not too long after I got home saying that it was slow so I got the day off. With Saul in another state playing Roman Soldiers and the day off, David and I were able to watch so many different funny movies together which included "Office Space" the anime movie "Memories" (recommened!!) and our favorite comidian Will Faral in "Elf."^^ This was all in the basement where we were able to cuddel while watching everything^^

Well that was about it^^ Sorry that it's so long, I guess that's what I get for not posting in time. Sorry about that. I'm just so happy for this weekend!! THANK YOU GOD!! PRAISE THE LORD!! Here's the next part to Naruto:



For those of you that just got here, the first two are right under this post in seperate posts so check it out. This is what I call my relationship with my David in a nutshell. There's only 2 more after this so enjoy^^

~Love All Around~
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Thursday, October 19, 2006

   Naruto Hinata Love Comic - Part 2
Well nothings happened once again. The only thing is that my U.S.Government teacher SUCKS at being a teacher cause he doesn't even teach!! I mean he does but he speaks so slowly with a mono-tone voice that just makes you so bord the second he starts talking. And the way he tells his jokes are just... I mean he takes SO LONG with telling the joke cause of the slow way he talks that I have yet to hear the end to any of his jokes cause I always end up daydreaming out of bordum!! Then last night he reminds the class that we have a Mid-Term Exam next week and I'm like, "How the Hell do you expect any of use to even know anything if you don't teach?!?!!" But like he said it's all in the book so I'm going to attempt to do something that I've never done and dreded: read the text book!! DAMN IT ALL!! Oh well, as long as I get through his class then I'll never have to go through that torcher (i couldn't find out to spell that correctly, someone tell me how!) anymore! Other than that I've been a lot better^^ So no need to worry about me anymore^^ And that's it. Here's the second part to the comic so for those of you who missed it, I left my last post up so you can just scroll down and check it out. I also called it the Nutshell of my relationship between my boyfriend (Dead Leaves) and I. There's only 3 more left till the end so I hope you enjoy it till then^^



It's kinda funny cause the same thing happened to me and Daivd. I was talking about being in college and he kinda slumped over and said that if only we could have been in the same grade level. And the fact that I don't have to get up early everyday. I did feel bad like Hinata did.
Seeya
~Love All Around~


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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

   I'm Okay^^
Well, nothings been happening around here really. My parents are still out in Puerto Rico but are coming back tomorrow, then I'll finally be able to talk to them about the hard time I've been having trying to get used to this place. I've been okay with school so I'm happy about that. Oh and I got back my test in Math that I took last Thursday. I got a 90 on it!! YEA!! At first I got an 87 I believe it was but then I showed the teacher that she marked off something that was right and she corrected it so I'm happy^^ I have been feeling a little better mainly because I've been keeping myself busy with different things like cleaning the house, taking care of my dog who's age has finally cought up with her mind (poor thing, but I still love her^^), working with school work which I've still got a way to go to catch up with, and other little things really. Umm... it's raining today but I love the rain so today I feel very relaxed. Other than that, I really don't have anything else to say... oh well. Oh I've got an idea! I'm going to put up a comic over Naruto and Hinata when they are older going out. It's about 4 or 5 comics long so I'll be posting it every other day so that everyone can get a chance to read it. This comic of them is almost exactly like the relationship between David and I in a nutshell. Hope you enjoy. I'll do my best to get to everyones site's today.



~Love All Around~
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Saturday, October 14, 2006

   Who Said Fri. 13th Had To Be Bad?
I can't believe what a different day yesterday was. I know that in my last post I said that I was a real bad depression which I'm still dealing with, but yesterday turned me life from painful to hopeful^^ Yesterday was Friday 13th and I've never been a superstishus person so Friday 13th's have never bothered me so completely not relizing it, I started off my day waking up late like around 11o'clock. I remembered that I was supposed to meet up with DL so I went up stairs and took a shower at around 2 and washed my hair. After the long, hot bath, I blow dryed my hair and notice my cell's light blinking. After listening to my voice mail's and calling DL he told me that his sister was there so I could come over earlier. I quickly got ready and headed, putting on my HomeComing heals, some nice pants that has lace down the legs, and a tight black long sleave shirt, just so I would look pretty for DL *winks*. Once at his house I was so happy playing around and making each other laugh^^ EEEEEEE!!! He makes me feel so good!! I even got a compliment, well after he told me that I was a crazy driver cause we got to the house at the same time, from his father at how pretty I looked. Actually it went like this:

Mr.Dugal: You look prettier ever time I see you^^
Me: =3Well thank you so much=D
Mr.Dugal: I was talking to my sonXP
Me: Oh (I looked at DL with a XD look on my face)
DL: Yay=D I'm pretty!
Mr.Dugal: *chuckles* I'm kidding, I was talking to you my dear^^ *walked up stairs*

After waiting for DL's mom to get back home, we (including his older sister and her husband how's really cool^^) went out heading towards a really nice resterant. DL and I had to go in my car cause of the number of people that were going but while I was driving DL says, "When my dad said that you look prettier ever time he sees you I was thinking to myself 'DamnXD he's right!'" X3They're so great! Once at the resterant I found the place to be even better looking than Olive Garden! And more fun too cause they put a really nice type of paper that covers the whole table and you can draw on it with crayonsXD! We had a blast drawing on the paper making funny faces including the faces DL draws that includ a Domo looking one, and telling stories of how we used to wonder off when we were younger. The food was delicious! After that we went to the mall and looked around the store that has anime merchandise straight from Japan and EBGames. After that I had to go but notice once I walked out the door how beautiful it was all nice and cold out under the dark sky=3.

Thank you all for the ones that commented and gave advice in my last post. To those that didn't comment thanks for reading and doing whatI said^^ I really appreciate all that you guys do^^ Because of you guys keeping me in your thoughts and prayers, God gave me a wonderful day^^
~Love All Around~
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Friday, October 13, 2006

I finally hit the bottom. I actually didn't think that I ever would drop to the ground again, but I guess I was wrong. I've hit a horribly deep depression just resently and it doesn't seem to go away or even lighten up. I've been feeling so anxious, angry, and sad for the past few days. For those of you who know me, you know clearly that I'm not a person to dwell on such a horrible emotion, I mean I'm too ADD to dwell on the same emotion for more than a day, but for some reason this place has sunk me to an all time low. Ever since I got here I knew it was going to be hard to get used to this place because it's so different, but I never knew that I'd feel this way. Being an Army child I've moved around a lot in the past but this last move from Georgia to Virginia was the worst I've ever had to go through. This place is so hecktic that I feel anxious, and stressed all of the time. I've also been fighting with my mother and have been on bad terms with the rest of my family for a few weeks now saying that I don't spend time with them. Well I would if they would do more than watch TV. They even keep me away from DL saying that I spend way too much time with him which is NOT ture at all. He's the only thing that keep me happy here. Having all of my closest friends in another states doesn't help either. With a hecktic and impersonal place, constantly fighting with my family, not being able to spend time with my boyfriend, and all of my friends miles away, I start to wonder why it was that I decided to leave Georgia in the first place? In the 2 months that I've been here I've cryed more times than I ever did in the entire year when I was back home in Georgia. One night I cryed so hard that I hid myself in my room, layed on the ground next to my bed all curled up on my side, and with my arms around my head I just cryed. I'm not a person who gets depressed at all, you can even ask HardLuckWomen and Knights Edge. I've been talking to a lot of my friends back home like LegacyOf, HLW, and Edge which all helped me out but all it made me do was cry while talking to them and miss them more. The one thing that really got to me was what Edge said to me right before I posted this while he was helping me put up this new song:

Edge:
Somedays I truly wish you were still stuck here with us.
Me:
You have no clue how much I wish for that right now
Edge:
I do have a clue. You have to remember I do read your post when you post.

No I haven't told my parents this because right now they've been in Puerto Rico for the past few days, and I just don't care for them to know cause I know what they're going to say anyway. DL is not completely aware of my feelings, I guess it's because I don't want him to feel bad, but he does know that I'm going through a hard time and is doing what he can to make me feel better. I love him and all my friends for helping me out, but no matter how hard I fight, I feel as if this place is getting the best of me. Like I used to smoke but stoped a while back, however this doesn't stop the cravings. Whenver I would even think about smoking again I could see and hear DL telling not to and that he loved me, so I would always turn away. But just the other day as I was prepaying for gas I noticed myself stairing at all the cigaretts behind the counter, looking for the cheepest one, adding the prise of it with the lighter, and wondering where I could hide it in my car. I didn't even think about DL at that time.

I know this was depressing and long so I'm sorry about it. I just had to share it, I couldn't keep it inside of me. You don't have to comment, actually I would prefer if you didn't cause I don't want to get edgy because of someones comment including in this mood that I'm in. I'm going to do what I can to get myself to feel better. Pray for me, keep me in your thoughts, I need it. Sorry if this was way too dramatic for you, I'll try not to do it again.
~Love All Around~
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