Monday, February 5, 2007

   BEST DAY OF MY FUCKING LIFE! (long post)
Dir en grey concert at the Roxy in Atlanta, GA.


I'm still dreaming. It can't be real.
I'm still in disbelife.

My heart is still racing and only now do the
tears come foward, staring at my Dir en grey
wallpaper and realizing I actually got to see
these gods in the flesh...
I really saw them, for real, yet, it still seems
surreal, like a dream I have yet to wake from.

The entire time felt like we were living a dream,
as though we'd wake up any second to find we
had been daydreaming while watching one of their
music videos.

The only thing that keeps reminding me it's real is
the pain. Every muscle in body is still sore... Legs,
throat, neck, back... though it is the greatest pain ever!

The trip there, I rode with Shanna, while Sam and Meme
rode together in a seperate car, but we talked to each other
via cell phones.

Shanna and I went to the mall first and of course stopped by
the Hot Topic and I was SO happy to find they had the issue
of Cure with AnCafe's Miku on the cover! ^o^
It even had a thing in there about Diru's American tours! XD

Then, after a short visit at Shanna's grandmother's, we were
on our way! When we arrived... Oh, me fucking Kyo, man!!

First person we see is this awsome chick with purple, pink
and black hair, in a red plaid outfit with red fur, fishnet, Kyo
pins, safety pins and a picture of Dir en grey pinned to her
skirt and a cheetah patten scarf.

We were like, "Yep, this is the place!" XD

And best part...! We stood behind that very chick! She was
so damn fucking awsome! Her name was Mercedes, age 16,
she's mixed with black, white and hispanic, but was so pale,
no one ever guesses that! XD She was so fucking cute, we all
glomped her! XD

We told her we loved her look and we just all started talking
and never shut up the entire time. XD

She's a Kyo and a Shinya fan, so, her and I would have random
Kyo-fangirl moments! XD We all would squeal or scream and
Merecedes said, "I think the people behind and infront of us want
to kill us." XD

The people behind us were talking about how God masturbated
and the world was created. o.O;; XD

She said she drove 6 hours from Kentucy that morning to be
there! We told her it took us 3 hours, that we where from Alabama.

Shanna and I were there first and we talked with Mercedes, her aunt,
and her friend, who wasn't a Diru fan, but she dressed her up and
dragged her along, anyway! XD

There were people from Japan taking pictures of us! We said
how awsome it would be to open a Cure and see Mercede's! XD

We laughed when everyone behind us was screaming and hollering
at the camera and Mercedes muttered, "They're taking pictures, not
recording, you jackasses." XD

And oh, yeah, she ended up parking beside their tour bus!!! She
also is a TRAX fan, was sad when XMas and Rose changed their
look and when Rose left and she knows about Ayumi Hamasaki
and kept saying she also badly wants to go to a D'espairRay concert! ^o^

Her and I have both been to indie band concerts, but never a REAL
band, so for both of us this was our first REAL concert! Diru broke
our concert cherry! XD

I kept calling Meme and Sam, but omfg, Meme always has to
fucking yell in a high pitch, country voice at 90 miles an hour,
so, I kept hanging up. xP

I was telling them, "Find us!" Merecede's said, "Tell them to
look for pink and purple hair." XD

They finally found us and also found a friend, lol. Her name was
Stephanie: Pretty average; long, dark hair in a ponytail, a Dir
en grey shirt and blue jeans, but cool.

Shanna doesn't like her, because she told her the band's name
is pronouced "Deer" not "Dur" ...Um, Japanese and American
pronuciations are different, so, they are both correct. Dur. ;P

I liked her, we'd both make smartass/funny comments and
end up laughing on each others' shoulders, lol.

We would jump up and down to keep warm, and the entire time
I had Dir en grey's "Umbrella" stuck in my head, so, I'd sing it
and it helped with bouncing. XD

Mercede's aunt and friend left to go get milkshakes, but she
refused to leave and stayed with us, claiming that no way in
hell was she leaving that damn line! XD

The people infront of us had lit a bunch of stuff and started a
mini-bon fire, lol. We all huddled together, but the guy with us
was like, "What about me!?"
Mercedes said, "You're wearing grey, not black."
He said, "Yeah, but... Its... Dir en... *grey*..."
Even he realized how lame that joke was. XD

There would be random waves of screams for no reason to the
front and back and we had no idea why, lol. We screamed every
time we moved a step closer. XD Or just got excited. XDD

We'd start chants of "Dir en grey!" and "Let us in!" and we could
HEAR the bands warming up inside! It was such a tease, especially
since we still had an hour and 30 minutes to wait! XD

We'd look at how the line grew so long that it wrapped around in the
parking lot and laughed at the girls in lolita... Uh, hello. Die and Kyo
even said they HATED lolita.

We agreed Gothic Lolita is awsome... Just not at a Diru concert.
Mecedes would point to people at the end of the line and proclaim
that they were not REAL fans! XD

And we saw this woman with this HUGE afro and Mercedes wanted
to bounce on it, I said we'd probably lose her, lol.

Sam found two people she met on MySpace, a black girl with the
coolest fucking messy, spikey red mohawk and her girlfriend, a
white girl with one half of her hair in lilac braids and the other half
spikey and blonde.

They had people signing their asses, lol. They wore neon-green
felt skirts for people to sign. x3 They were great looking. ;D

Two members of one of the opening bands, Bleed the Dream, were
outside... at first I thought they were just fans in line, then they gave
us free stuff, like stickers and guitar picks. XD

Poor guys! They looked so intimidated and must of felt stupid out there,
because they were like, "Hey, we are one of the opening bands... We
know you aren't here to see us, but have some free stuff." x3

We were all standing infront of these parking spaces and they kept
having to part the line so people could park, but at one point, we all
squished foward, screaming, "We aren't moving back, hell no!" XD

We said that this should be a Religious holiday, that this was Mecca
to us, and our little group agreed that we were all now family, sisters!

When the doors opened, we all cheered, our group all held onto each
other, so we wouldn't lose anyone. I was holding onto Stephanie, who
was holding Mercedes and I joked that we should all use our chains
and hook ourselves together. XD

Omg, some people got fucking BORED and wrote the funniest shit on the
walls between The Roxy and the building beside it. XD
Things like:
"We want Kyo's penis!"
"Kyo needs his penis! D:"
Doodles of what Dir en grey fans looked like, doodle of Diru, just shit
we were all dorky enough to cheer for as we passed it. XD

Shanna got a picture of the "Kyo needs his penis! D:", but because
her dad was rushing her, that's all she got. Still funny. XD

(Omg, the grafitti becoming legendary, especially on JROCKHUMOR. XD)

When we walked in the door, we all threw our fists up and cheered
for the poster of Diru outside, lol. There was this table full of cheap
Diru merchandise outside, Shanna stopped, but I grabbed her arm
and said later, we wanted a good view and had to catch up with
Mercedes and Stephanie, who ran ahead.

The first band to open was Bleed the Dream, and even though out-
side we had joked how funny it would be if no one did anything but
stand there, they had us all jumping up and down!

They weren't half bad, I kinda liked them. They had a great sense
of humor and not a big ego to realize who we were there for, really,
lol. The vocalist screamed, "HOW THE FUCK ARE YA, ATLANTA!?"
Then he asked, "DO YOU WANT TO SEE DIR EN GREY!?" and
AHH! Loudest scream of all, even he laughed. XD

But as good as they were, you could tell the audience was distracted,
because we were all turned to the right, staring up to this yellow-tinted
window on the side of the stage. XD

Why? Because people kept popping up in it! LOL!

Everytime we saw a head, we swore it was someone in Dir en grey, so
the audience would scream, lol. Each time I saw the window shade go
up, I tapped Mercedes on the shoulder and pointed up, which also got
Stephanie's attention.

Someone was like, "That might not even be them."
And we were all like, "We don't care!" XD

I saw a short person bounce to see, and I leaned over to Mercede's and
said, "It was a short person bouncing to see, it might have been Kyo!"
and we both laughed, squealed like fangirls and bounced. XDD

The second band... Fair to Midland... SUCKED. Seriously.

It was so funny, though, the second they came out on stage, the enire
crowd yelled, "Dir en grey!" and they walked offstage! XDD

They were so damn fucking boring it was painful. The crowd just
stood there looking completely dead and lifeless. All they got was
a lot of "You suck, get off stage!", people demanding for Dir en grey
and even a few people flipping them off. XD

We were falling asleep from boredom of them. Mercedes even rested
her head on my shoulder and I patted her head sympathetically, lol.

BUT! We did find amusement in the vocalist! XDD

Omg, he was jumping around like he was having a seizure! I kept
yelling, "Call 911! He's having a spazz attack!"
Mercedes later said, "I think you're right; he needs medication."
I pointed to the shirtless, pale, ugly, skinny guitarist with the
nastiest white guy-afro ever and asked, "What does he need to take!?"

And the vocalist had two bald spots that we kept laughing hysterically
at! XD I laughed so hard even one of the guitarist stared at me like wtf!? XD

They were so lame, only the guy in the grey jacket with us liked them.
Then again, he was a pothead.
He was WAY to into them, jamming like whoa...

He said, "They were awsome! I hated the first band, they were too
Panic!At the Disco and 30 Seconds to Mars!"
Even Mercedes mom told him, "I'm sorry, but the first band was
good, but that second band SUCKED. Girls are always right." XD

Stephanie said she was going to yell out that Kyo was kawaii.
Mercedes said, "And when he jumps off the stage to attack you, I'm
going to step aside."

We both said we'd point her out, lol. Stephanie held Mercedes's hands
and said, "Just remember I died happily and with Kyo ontop of me!" XDD

Mercedes's friend asked her and I such a funny question:
"Will there be yelling?" XD
We were like, "Mmm... Maybe just a bit." XDDD

She said she was going to exit the crowd early once the moshing
and shoving began.

Then... OMFG, the slow tease of drawing Diru out, finally!

Mercedes excitment kicked in and she grabbed both my hands and
we just stood there, clucthing each others hands, hearts ready to jump
out of our chests.

We knew that when they would come out, all Hell would break
loose, but it would be GREAT! XD We both had to pee from the
start but had said our love would keep us strong and it would
also make all the pain to come worth it!! XDD

They pulled the black sheet off of Shinya's drumset and like dorks, the
entire crowd cheered for this empty drumset! XD

And making fun of ourselves, we all started yelling, "That is the sexiest
drumset ever!" XDD And mentioned how Shinya's was bigger than the
ones the other drummers used. XD

Mercedes told me all she wanted was to see Shinya.

They brought out Toshiya's bass and Shanna FLIPPED. Like, "OhmyGod!
That's Toshiya's bass! That's his bass!!" and also flipped out over Die's
mic stand, with all its red guitar picks.

And some people yelled at an Asian roadie, "TAKE IT OFF!" XD

It seemed like centuries watching the crew set up and watching the
screen in the back flash the name of the tour. The crowd would randomly
start to chant the band's name, ending with loud screams.

This was also when the waves began. People swaying so heavily that if
you don't brace yourself, you can fall and be stepped on.

We all put our arms up, Mercedes warned everyone that if they
weren't always braced that it would be dangerous and we all made
a pact that if someone fell, we'd help them up.

The crowd behind me shoved me hard, Sam pressed against me,
I was trying with all my might not to press against Mercedes, remembering
how her aunt said she couldn't be compressed and she forgot
her inhaler. So, I tried to keep all bodies off her as best as possible.

We let two very short girls infront of us, to our side, where we
gathered a group of short people, like Meme, so they could
see.

Shanna and I even started a chant by ourselves!!

It was quiet and I looked over at her and whispered the chant, she
joined in, then, our friends joined in, we got louder and louder until
everyone in the palce was chanting! It was great!!

Then, the lights darkened... The stage lights lit up and that pulsing
music you hear at the beginning of every concert that sounds like
screams of "Kyo, Kyo, Kyo!" began, the crowd all pumping their
fists and chanting along!

Finally, Shinya appeared, the crowd went wild, fangirls screamed
how "kawaii" he was. Then, one by one, they all walked out...
Die, Toshiya, dorky Kaoru, throwing his arms up, demanding more
yells, which he got!! XD

Then... AH! KYO!! OMFG, I-- I couldn't believe my eyes! He was
so gorgeous and really there but for the life of me I couldn't believe
it was actually him... or any of them!!

The waves began to rock REALLY hard, to the point where we were
falling over, like dominos, but we'd fall on each other and push back
up. Mercedes, who had been at my side, instantly disappeared in
a flash as the wave pushed me foward.

I looked around and we were all lost in the crowd. At one point, Meme
was pushed up to me, but the next second was lost in the crowd, again.

I remember that before we lost each other, Mercedes had told me it
is better to stand sideways, so, that when the crowd does a wave, you
can squeeze yourself through people to the front and you aren't
so squished.

So, I turned on my side, arms braced, though one arm always in the air.
I was eventually pushed farther and father foward.

I had a GREAT view of Kyo, but especially Die!

Omg, he was so close, I could see his eyes, count every pick on his
mic stand... Shanna was the only one who managed to stay near me.
She'd be behind me, then end up beside me.

It was so hot, my body was soaked in sweat, my cloths damp, my hair
clinging to my face and dripping of sweat.

I was pressed so tightly between people... My boobs were being squished
by shoulders on each side, a guy was holding my shoulders and the back
of my shirt, I was being pressed into some short girl's ass...

At one point, this very short Asian boy was infront of me and the crowd
shoved foward... He was already being pressed into this tall white guy
infront of us and to keep from squishing the poor dear, I held one hand on
his back, while pushing the guy infront of us back, pushing him foward,
trying to give space between us for the kid.

I also ended up with his overly sprayed hair in my mouth. x.O

The only person that got on my nerves was this one punk that jumped
like a rabbit jacked up on crack when NO ONE else was jumping.

He stepped all on me, was jumping all on and infront of me and when
he stopped, he'd lean back on me. I'd push him away and every time
he came back, I just pushed myself infront of him.

We were all meshed as one... Literally. I was pressed from front to back,
side to side so tightly that it was had to breath, hard to even move my arms.
My elbow was resting on the guy's shoulder behind me, I had people resting
on me... The black girl beside me was reaching to Kyo and grabbed my wrist.
She didn't do anything but hold my wrist.

We were packed so tightly that one girl had to be pulled out of the crowd
by one of the security men and several people were squeezing out,
because they couldn't breath.

But I was so into the moment, none of us cared.

When Kyo raised both hands, I did the same, singing along. Sometimes
I would scream, scream at the top of my lungs... Other times, I just
stared, not even believeing with my own eyes this was real.

It looked like a video! Like all the lives I watched and dreamed at being at!
They were so perfect, so beautiful... so... amazing!

And Die... Oh, sweet Jesus... I was only three people away from him!
People I tried desperatly to shove pass!

I never imagined this luck! To be so close up front! I always thought best
I'd ever get was seeing them from a back row, hardly able to make them
out! But no!

I climbed ontop of the people infront of me, screaming, my arms in the
air, desperate to catch his attention, then... He looked my way, I smiled.
He smiled!

I. Fucking. DIED! He looked at me and smiled and no matter what
anyone tells me, they can NEVER take that moment away from me!

The whole night, I'd catch his gaze, wishing so desperatly to just
reach closer, but the people wouldn't budge! >.< (Can't blame 'em).

And Kyo... UGH! He took his shirt off during the first song, girls
screamed bloody murder as he revealed his flawless, beautiful
body... and showing us all his Clavin Klein underwear peeking
at the top of his jeans! XD

One dude infront of me, in a leopard print shirt, had his arm rested
on his head, making it hard for me to see Kyo! I was pissed and
kept shoving pass him! XD NO ONE BLOCKS MY VIEW OF KYO!

I screamed Kyo's name whenever it was quiet, or even loud (Meme
says they think they heard me in the back XD), I sang with him with
all my heart... I joined the people around me, as we all headbanged
along with Die until our heads were in danger of falling off.

He was so sexy! Rubbing his nipples, pretending to cut himself,
rubbing his crotch, WHICH, by the way, I did NOT miss the
perfect opportunity to stare at his marvelous buldging crotch that
is so infamous... and yes, he really has a big buldge! XD

He smirked whenever we sang, even in Japanese. Someone
pointed out that the Japanese guys in the audience was
laughing at everyone screaming in random Japanese. XD

When they played "CLEVER SLEAZOID" Kyo only sang like
the chorus, the rest of the time, he stood there, smiling out
at us as we shouted the lyrics proudly.

He even did this thing, where he hooked one side of his mouth,
then flicked saliva at us, then the other side, then both! XD

The song set list was a blur... I know they played Clever Sleazoid,
Obscure (with the screen flashing images from the video, like the
zombie geisha's boob XD), The Final and Ryoujoku no Ame.

Shanna and I got our wish. They played older songs and Kyo didn't
scream that much! He even got emotional, did that thing when the
lights lower and all you see is a gold light on him and he makes
crying-singing sounds... It was beautiful.

Kaoru was a total dork! That made my LIFE, man!!! XD

He came onto the edge of the stage on our side, did his signature
lip pout and motioned his hands like, "Come on, baby, show me
the love!" XD

We were all crowding to that side of the stage, screaming, I was on
people's backs reaching out to him, screaming my heart out, lol.

Toshiya even gave his "hur hur" laugh-smile (I think they were all
laughing at us XD) and at one point, I was REAALLY close to Die
and the front of his stage, but then Die threw his water bottle and
the entire crowd fell right, trying to grab it, and I was pushed back,
yet held my spot as others tried to push me back further.

They threw water on us, I got hit by Die and Kaoru's water! It was
SUCH a relife, I was dying in that heat. I could just feel cool air
run over my finger tips when I held my hand up.

Kyo... GREATEST FUCKING MOMENT EVER!
He grabbed a black bucket, poured all the water over himself,
then put the bucket on his head and in white letters it read:
"RAPE ME" XDDD!

YES GLADLY, BABY! LMAO!!

I sadly didn't catch any picks, water bottles or drumsticks and we
were all PISSED at this one crew man! He took all the picks off
Die's stand and instead of THROWING them out to us, he
HANDED them to some people on the front row!

Shanna's dad, who was up in the top, sitting balcony kept
CALLING her, while we are squished like damn sardines!!

What was hilarious as fuck, though, was she lost her pig
phone keyring and was yelling on her phone, "I LOST MY
PIG!" and EVERYONE around us was turned staring at
her like 'WTF!?' XD
I said, "Shanna... Hang up the phone." XD

Oh, and we got no footage or pictures, because they said
no cameras allowed... Even though some people still tried, lol.

And PLEASE, if you go with a boyfriend or girlfriend, don't
do like these moron couples and CUDDLE! Its a fucking
rock concert!

There were guys hugging their girls from behind, even as we
were being packed together. I wanted to hit them.

But... That show was already more than I could have ever asked
for. I never even expected THAT much!

When we all piled away, none of us really wanting to. I tried to
find Mercedes, or at least someone from our group, but with
no luck. :(

I at least wanted to say bye to her, ask her if she got to see
Shinya like she wanted... At most, I wanted to keep in
contact with her, because she was just so damn cool.

We saw the guy with the grey jacket, again. My hair dye
had dripped onto my shirt and he pointed at it, gawking,
thinking I had got hurt and was bleeding. He sighed with
relife when I said it was my hair, lol.

Only injury visible I have is a bruise on my upper arm. ^^

I called Meme's phone, trying to find her and Sam,
especially since she had my hoodie tied to her waist, but yet
again, she was yelling in her high picth voice, in such a country
accent I couldn't understand a damn word she was saying and hung up.

Got outside, two guys from Bleed the Dream were standing on chairs
and tables, still passing out free stuff. Shanna's dad was pushing us
to leave so quickly that we didn't get to buy anything and the
offficer wouldn't let people outside go back in. :(

But, we saw Sam and Meme outside and Sam handed me a
Dir en grey t-shirt she bought and said, "Merry late Christmas."
I SCREAMED and glomped her!! XD

They said that both of them got shoved to the back of the crowd,
Sam mostly because she was crazy enough to wear SANDALS
and kept getting her toes killed.

They said they only SAW Mercedes leave. Damn. >__<

All the ride home, all Shanna and I did was talk about the
concert, how sexy Kyo was and mostly... How fucking cute
Die's smile was! XD

Her dad said Kyo was a crybaby, but I was defensive! XD
He handed us ice cold lemonades and I downed mine before
we even got away from the Roxy, lol.


Our group of Diru Sisters! ^o^
From left to right:
The blonde is Mercedes's friend, the girl with purple/pink hair is
Mercedes, Stephanie beside her, Meme, Sam, the black girl
upfront is Shanna and the redhead in center is ME, ALICIA! XD


Here's Mercedes by herself, so that you get a good
look at her kickass outfit.

HEY! If you are Mercedes or know her, contact us, at least
tell us how the show went for ya! XD And if you ever go to
a D'espairsRay concert down South, tell us, we might
go, too and might fina ya, LOL!


Here's some bored fanart graffiti. XDD <3
The one beside it said, "We want Kyo's penis!" XD


This be me as we drive to Atlanta to see DIRU!!!!


This be Shanna, with Miku-chan in the middle! XD

RULES/TIPS FOR PEOPLE GOING TO SEE DIR EN GREY:

* BE PREPARED FOR IMPACT! This is not a joke, when
Dir en grey comes out, find a steady stance and brace your
arms at your chest. If you do not, when the crowd begins to
shove, you can fall and possibly be stepped on, being
seriously injured or killed.

It happens at a lot of rock concerts, so be tough or get out.

* If you find it where you can not breath or feel as though your
insides are crushing, don't be afraid to shove your way out.

* CARRY A WATER BOTTLE! With so many bodies so closely
packed together, it gets hot VERY FAST and you will need water
not only to drink, but to pour on yourself.

* NO COSPLAY OR HEAVY CLOTHS/COSTUME! I know it sounds
cute to go in this cool costume or cosplay, but like I said, it gets
HOT and your costume will be in shit pices and your make up will
look like crap. Best bet is a t-shirt and pants.

Oh, and ladies, be carfeul with skirts, for obvious reasons.

* NO CUDDLING! Its a rock concert, stop loving up on your damn
beau, or go to the back and do so. You're annoying.

* BE NICE TO SHORT PEOPLE! Just what it says... If someone is
so short they can't see, do something to help your fellow fan.

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