Wednesday, October 24, 2007

As Jin says "Everything's gonna be alright."
You didn't expect a KAT-TUN song quote from me? Come on! XD


[Music: Lucky Cha Cha Cha... Damn you, Mini Moni! ]
[Watching: Kevin James: Sweatin' the Small Stuff ]
[Currently: Getting ready to leave... Not really. Lagging around. x3 ]


Okay, so, some not so good news, peeps. My
dad has passed away, but it was peaceful, so,
that's good, ya know? I'm okay. At least I don't
have to sit and WAIT and WONDER anymore.

It was weird, today at school. I had no idea of
all this, I was told about him going to pass in
about 2 or 3 days the night before, but I was
okay and I was fine this morning... quiet and
zombie-ish, but no water works.

I get outside to break and I don't know what
came over me, but I just started to tear up.
Shanna put her arm around me and kept on
asking what was wrong, but I didn't trust my
voice, so, I pulled out a sheet of paper and
said, "My dad was put in comfort care. He's
going to die in 2 or 3 days."

I kept sobbing and holding to my Domo-kun
plushie. Shanna rubbed my back and even
Chastity came to my other side and rubbed
my shoulder. I really appreciate all the true
friends I have so much. <3

Shanna gave me a Bruce Lee pin she bought
while down in Orlando. My dad is the one who
made me a Bruce Lee fan. It's so cute. I love
Bruce Lee. I put it on my hat. :3

I walked to 2nd block with my face still covered
in tears and Mrs. Quattlebaum noticed right
away. She asked me what was wrong.

The thing about me, unlike most people, I can't
keep ANYTHING in. I will tell you everything, I
want people to know what I'm going through. I
hate to bottle stuff in. I'm a talker.

So, I told her. She hugged me and said I needed
to go see my counsoler, I did not need to be in
class like this, so, she walked me to my coun-
soler, who walked out her door and saw me and
said, "Alicia, what's wrong, dear?"

My counselor is this old black woman with a
froggy voice, but she's real nice. Out of all the
counsolers, she's the most comfortable to be
around, lol.

And I told her what was wrong. She invited me
into her office and I cried a bit, she talked to
me, told me the obvious stuff. But what was so
funny was when I'd finally get my tears under
control she'd say "think of the happy times" and
that made me want to cry more! Remembering
the good times makes me sad, because in that
moment you know you won't have any more.

She asked if I wanted to go home, I said no. I
was NEVER one of those students who took
pathetic excuses to go home. It took me to be
dying sick just to get me to stay home at times.

Plus, my dad would want me to go on and do
my best and be strong. And to go on with my
classes would make me feel better.

She did have some good news. She handed
me my paper which tells you if you passed
the exams or not. I have always failed the
math part. Well, guess what?

I finally passed all my graduation exams. I
am done with them. Go figure. A bittersweet
victory for me, but at least I won't have to
trouble with them anymore.

Mom said she called her and said that she
was amazed I actually talked. XD

I went back to class and yep, those crack-
heads were good for me. :) And Mrs.
Quattlebaum found these gold paper crowns
(someone joked: "but they're not Burger King
crowns!" see, kids at my school buy them
and paint them red and black XD) and we all
got one and wore them, lol.

All day you could spot my 2nd block class
mates. We wore the shiney crowns. :3~
People kept asking if it was my b'day. XDD

Food Dynamics, CD and Quintin tried to make
egg rolls, but had to use tortia rolls as a sub
and they didn't come out grand. Some of us
still ate 'em. I told them they did good, anyway.

We went all around the mall and Wal-Mart to
look for funeral cloths. The cloths were so
damn ugly. I just bought a nice coat and had
decided to wear a skirt and top I own.

Mom even bought me two cookies and two
brownies in the mall. :3 And we went to Old
Mexico for dinner and laughed about stories
of my family, mewmaw and dad, lol.

Yeah, I have to leave for Tennessee tomorrow
and I'll come back Saturday. Aw, damn, am I
going to miss Annie's Halloween party, again?
Kyle agreed to drive me this year. Oh, well...
I hope we can rearrange it, because Shanna
and Cody can't make it Saturday, either.

Oh, speaking of, after lunch, Kyle found me in
the hall and gave me a handful of chewy little
candies. XD Again, love my true friends, haha!

shiiiiiiiiit. Stupid computer. D: I left and it shut
down with half my post unsaved! Dammit! It
keeps going blue screen EVERY time I leave!


Yesterday was Sasaya's 18th birthday! Happy
Birthday, Sasaya/Julie~!!! 8D

Okay, whatever I posted before will have to
wait, because I have to hurry, now. o.o

See you all Saturday. <3
(I will be on AIM. Mom's gonna take her laptop this time, lol)


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