Thursday, February 22, 2007

ok yeah, so yesterday was a good day. two hour lunch break because of block schedaualing. but i ended up crying myself to sleep. i dont know why. I had a bizarr dream lastnight, I was part of a band along with, Ororon, Hero(from gundam wings which i havent watched in years), a friend and the girl from fatal frame. we went to a diner to meet our manager, who took our intruments and gave us different ones saying that these new ones would save us. I got a guitar hero guitar. :< so we were going to play a concert at a place for orphens and their parents (I know this doesnt work for real but it was a dream). so we got there and only children were in the stands, we started to play and the adults started appearing, all decrepit and rotting like. so these zombie parents who the kids recogonized started to eat brains and what not and the whole thing got pretty crazy. Hero and that wierd girl dissapeared and Ororon was forced to call demons to remove the zombies. I kept on playing my dumb little guitar until i realized it had turned to ash. so I ran and took cover in a building. there was a group of anti-zombie trained people and i became their leader and had to stratagize a way to get rid of the zombies, who then turned into zombie war vets, and outside turned into a warzone. i was commanding people into battle and scooby and shaggy took my lunch and ran. i started to freak out when the zombie troops found me and chased me out of the building around the camp... so I woke up.
Hey AZ, you ready for some cookin' today!!?
Hope y'all have a good time.
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007

ever good day has a bad day to offset it.
Sunday was a good day. today was not.
senoir skip day and I did not skip and party. i should have. 1st period I had to put up with feminazis and chauvanistic pigs arguing over womens rights in shekspear's time, I cant stand either of them, why cant we all just settle this once and for all. Men are physically stronger and therefore should have phsyical jobs and whatnot. Women are more coy and deceptive, let them deal with people issues. both are equal in intellegence. by lunch I was ravenous and the cafeteria was selling chinese food, i couldnt taste it but it was terrible. my art teacher said my ducks for the duck contest were no good and I have to pick new ducks and a new medium, and its due march 15.... my parents are all up in my head finding fault in things that are out of my control and blaming me. people cant drive and are dicks about it, I had to listen to whiney girls prattle about stupid music and boys and whatnot during karate and i couldnt hit them. oh and my brother was being a smart ass fagot, thinking that his 8th grade knowledge would some how beat my 12th grade knowledge. in other words i'm just bitching about, please ignore this post. i would say "at least i've got my health" but i'm getting pink eye.
hope you had a better day than me.
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Monday, February 19, 2007

LOOONG weekend. Hope everyone had a fun time Presidents day!!
I volunteered and cleaned stuff. The Ymca is a dirty place, sorry if you attend one, but they are. my parents wanted to see what was under the carpets in the living room... apparently we have nice hardwood floors. but anyways.
so yeah, Sunday Mtv had a marathon of Beauty and the Geek i watched it while eating fun shaped macaroni. then i went to Ben's and we watched movies while tearing them apart for being scientifically unsound and dumb little nuances like in one scene the person does this and the next scene he's not. and sledding!! and more movies. very romantic, Star Wars and Snakes on a Plane, neither have the proper science behind them to work. but both hella good movies.
anyways. yeah... It's that time of year again... depression season. nothing to do, nowhere to go, only thinkning about the future and how it can go wrong. ugh, so if i start to get really cryptic and withdrawn that's why, the future sucks and I have to think about college in New York, and all my friends in Pa. and i dont know the city, i dont know the people, I have trust issues, and personal space issues, and my mind just goes over and over all the negative things that can happen and all the terrible things that probably wont happen... ugh i'm rambling my thoughts again. oh well.
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Thursday, February 15, 2007

HAppy v-day everyone!
I'm ususally not into the hallmark varitey of this holiday, but i'm a sucker for any reason to celebrate and party. Besides it was a snowday. :D
I wish I had the creativity (and the computer program) to make a card for you all, but i'm a computard and dont know how.
i played with my dog in the snow, she's a spaz, but really cute.. speaking of cute. there was a BAT in my room the other morning, I was getting dressed when i saw it flying around my ceiling fan. I thought it was cool until my dad started to hit it with a shoe box, then i got upset and tried to leave the room, but it got caught in the door jam and i thought i killed it, so i started to cry.. but he lived and is now outside... i hope its ok.
so I almost beat Okami yesterday, but i kinda like being able to talk with people and see the outside world, so I didnt but i ended up talking with Ben for a loooong time. You ever hear of Flesh Eating Kangaroos.. they were like sabretoothed kangaroos... realy cool huh?
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

   snow snow snow snow snow snow snow!!!
finially some snow to love... and to think that next year i will be 20 miles south of Oswego NY the place with 10+ feet of snow! I LOVE SNOW!! and i'm super excited. <3
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Monday, February 12, 2007

ok. so i got out wearing a big skirt and a sweater.... wich ended up in the car.... but the dance was fun! <3
ONTO BEING A BIIIIG NERD!!! i went LARPING (live action role playing) on saturday... I was a rock star ninja thing. it was a murder mystery and I was sooo sneaky!! and I won!!! but by the end the game degraded into a cops and ribbers game ... CTU and Terrorists... kinda like 24... and I was the rockstar bodygaurd to the Romanian Princess... hahaha i love being uber nerdy...
ugh i need to take a whole nother role of film for photo because my camera sucks... but anyways... it gives me a chance to take pictures that arent of my house and dog...
I helped my parents build a new pantry for us in the basement... ok here's the food layout of my house... Kitchen= Fridge, a wall of food cabinates, a small pantry. Diningroom= liquor cabinate, and a snack and soda pantry. Basement= fridge, freezer, and a GIANT wall pantry... i think my family will survive any thing with the amount of food we have.... ok I think i'm done ranting...
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Friday, February 9, 2007

oh man... i'm sorry if i sounded rude in my last post.....ugh, but really, i dont care weather you read or dont read my posts. it was just i didnt want anyone to get worried.
anyways... so yeah... tonight's the school dance and i was told to dress as I act... and my motto is "as little as possible and still can get away with it..." so the challenge is getting past my mom dressed in a shortskirt, lacy top, fishnets and domboots.... yeah I have that sort of stuff... anyways if it weren't for the stupid ducks and my lack of artistic drive I would have finished the picture of Arcade the greatest x-men villian that isnt Magneto. anyways. so Is everyone doing swell?
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Wednesday, February 7, 2007

ok.... so nothing's happening. except that I have to come up with a design for the penna birding blitz that the y's hosting... i've gone through a dozen birds and so far i really like the line of crows and the manic woodcock.... yes a woodcock.. teehee. its a bird name so shut up.
that and i need to design two others team shirts for the U-Terns and the yet unnamed team of high schoolers formerly known as the Punk Rock DOves... might be cowbirds on the barbie.... or something else fancy... and I need to finish ben's v-day pic... off to scratch board, then... I'm seriously afraid of what he's going to get me... for all I know it could be something terrible that he wants me to have.... ugh... stupid halmark holidays... but atleast there are decent dances at schools beacuse of it.. My dad's fine for all those who actually read my past post... all because of stupid Lymes.
so yeah... school sucks no 2 hour delay despite the fact that the rest of the schools in the are are either not in at all or have a delay of some sort... ok all done ranting.. off to draw more birds and such.
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Monday, February 5, 2007

Ok NOT a good day... infact it was a terrible day.
i woke up at 5am, tomy mom yelling at me to get up and get the car started. we had to take my dad to the ER. and my first thought on the way there was not "is he going to be ok" it was "if we get into an accident who would I call?"
is it terrible that I felt nothing towards my dad in this hour of peril? and that i felt ambivilant knowing that I could deal with him leaving if he did? I mean yes this is my father, man who raised me... but this is also the guy who has put me down every time i had a reason to be high, who has made me feel worthless and never good enough, always pointed out my flaws and rarely my virtues.
I mean I knew how i should've been acting and I started to and played it up a bit. and I actualy ended up feeling really anxious and upset, i'm not sure if I tricked my self or if I had severe delayed reaction to the severity of the situation. but either way i think i freaked a friend or two out, and feel terrible about that.
so it was a day of hospital trips and worrying and I yelled at a teacher who asked me to stay after school... so a full day... so freaked out and hanging out in places i didnt want to revisit.. but I have great friends who helped me to come back... and this might just be my longest post ever.... love to you all, Narret
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Sunday, February 4, 2007

ok so loong day but super fun!
i had karate this morning and i am sore from it. but it was fun anyways, and I win at it so there!
then i told my parents that i was going to the mall with kat and mads.... something I did not do... I went to the mall yes, but met up wif Ben. we ended up walking the whole thing several times talking about all sorts of things but it all ended up back to porn and the likes.... he tried to convince me that i should have a pair of fuzzy cuffs.... hahaha but oh man by the end we had to think of terribly sobering thoughts as we had to endure parents and in my case dinner with gramma. haha....yeah.... *NOT thinking of Ben dancing*
anyways so I forgot to bring my art stuff with me when i went to babysit so no xmen art today...and my damn duck was forgotten for a while. But i did manage to watch some anime on tv..so i got my fix... i think it was samerai champloo.... but whatever i was kinda distracted with my phone...and the person on the other end.... So tomorrow during the bowl of super commercials i will draw stuff... xmen anime ducks whatnot and hopefully they will be decent enough to post,but untill then hold on to your handrails as this will be a steep incline followed by a sudden drop and a rocky trip... life is a rollercoaster.
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