Wednesday, August 1, 2007

momentary laps into sanity
------ WARNING: A SUPER RANT -------


so summer's winding down and it seems my life is spiraling out of control. First off, work sucks more than usual because now it is interfering with my plans of friendship. that and I'm still not making any good money, 7.35 an hour. And if its not real work at my job, my dad has me working around the house, which isn't the problem it's him not letting me do anything else that is the problem. I'm already looking for summer jobs and internships, writing cover letters and re-doing my resume. Looks like I'm going to have to leave behind a good deal of my manga and anime behind as I head off to college, not enough room among my numerous field guides and nearly required winter gear and outing gear. So I've been binging on Saiyuki and Lupin III while I still have them, not to mention that I'm taking my last shots in Disgea, stepping my last steps in DDR, and rolling my last ball in Katamari. My good and old high school friendships are getting rocky as it seems that I'm ignoring them due to parents and work. And just as I'm loosing those, my relationship with Ben has launched almost too quickly, we are coming up on one year, and we're heading two different directions although I want us to go together. I think I am beginning to spend more time at his house on the weekends than I do at my home, I made dinner for him and his mom the other day for crying out loud (she was sick and he is incompetent in the kitchen.) I'm terrified of the freshman fifteen, I'm scared that my roommate won't like me (she hasn't replied to any of the e-mails I have sent her), I'm worried about the alcohol pressures, the work load, the two different schools, my schedual, getting lost, forgetting where I am and where I was heading, but mostly afraid of forgetting my friends who aren't heading off, but staying back home. I think I might head into a bad bout of depression either soon or when I get to college, either way there will be tons of booze to cut the edge, which is one of my fears of the moment.


On a more Normal note:
I think that the end to Harry Potter should be rewritten so that Dumbledore comes back to life and Hogwarts transforms into a giant robot around him as he sits in his headmaster chair. At the same time Snape uses his potions to grow 32feet tall, 3200 pounds, and 32 more feet (so he has 34 shoes to tie.) And an extremely epic battle takes place with them destroying a lot of stuff and part of the battle is in space, but in the end Snape rips the head off Dumbledor's HogwartBot effectively killing him again. And Snape dies of back-lash effects of his potions.
AND THAT'S HOW IT SHOULD HAVE GONE DOWN.
PS: I done changed my theme to less rave and more mellow. but I like it. so there.
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