Wednesday, June 21, 2006

I think I might have a lump/breast cancer
Time: 11:03 AM
Song: Face Down
Artist: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Feeling:
Drinking: Coffee

xXxLyricsxXx

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
say your right again
heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down a new life she has.

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
its coming round again.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough

xXxLyricsxXx

Hey guys! How's it going? Good I hope.

Theme

Woo!! I finally changed it!! Do you like it? It's Sesshomaru from INuyasha!! X3 I was going to make another Final Fantasy VII theme with Sephiroth x Cloud (as some of you may have saw), but decided against it. Why you ask? I wanted to try something different. And I cae up with this!! Enjoy it!! (I don't know when I'll be changing it again. ^^'' )

Music

There is a temporary installment for music up there. ~points up~ It's really crappy, and hardly any of the good songs play, but that's why it's temporary. That's what I'm listening to right now as I write this!! XD ~laughs~ Anywho, I don't know when I will get the correct code from TaNi-Chan for my mp3 player. Thanks a lot for helping me TaNi. ~bows~ I am not worthhy...

Breast Cancer

One day I decided to look in the mirror, and see my breast size. It's a chick thing, guys, so shut up and listen. I lifted up my shirt, and noticed that on my right boob, there was a tiny lump. Oh shit. I think I might have breast cancer, but I'm not sure. I know it sounds ridiculous, for it being my age, but I'm being serious. My mom is picking me up from my dad's (where I am now) on Saturday. I'll ask her, since she's a nurse. What's wierd, is that ever since I began developing breasts, it was always there, and I still don't know why. It may be a disturbing topic, but I really need to talk to someone, and you guys are all I have to talk to right know, dammit. Please, please, PLEEEASE, don't let me have breast cancer... ~clamps eyes shut and prays~

Photobucket

Okay, I know you are all DYING to see my photobucket account, right? I have over 90 pictures (all mostly doujinshi), so, here's what you do:

Just look up ISH MEH in the search thingy.
Find my picture, and my name is xXxAddictedToPillsxXx

I don't want to put a link up here because I'm afraid it'll say "you must be logged in" or something. Now go, onwards to my sick mind- I mean, my PERFECTLY NORMAL mind. ^^''

Aaaand... That's it!! I shall repay the favor all week by COMMENTING!! Yes, yes, you are all happy. I know. ^.^

Picture of the Day


German SephCloud doujinshi, found on deviantART. Artist: lucrecia Status: For Sale

Later everyone!

NarutoBlackmail

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

TO DO LIST FOR TODAY

1. Find more pictures and add them on my Photobucket account

2. Get music codes from TaNi-chan (Thank you for helping me)

3. Sleep

4. Screw around

5. Go to the arcade and play DDR

6. Finish up my layout

7. Destroy the world (DDR today, the world tomorrow)

8. Eat

9. Drink

10. Apologize to a friend of mine

11. Do it all over again

NarutoBlackmail

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Saturday, June 17, 2006

Sorry for saying this, but it MUST be said
Time: I don't know, but the moon is out, so I'm assuming it's night.
Song: I Hate Everything About You
Artist: Three Days Grace

This is not a normal post. This goes out to all the young and hopeless teens who think their lives are shit. Well you know what? Read this, and think about your life. Is it still a piece of crap you want to end?


I had a conversation with my dad and he told me-literally-his life story.

When my dad was a kid, he was adopted. His mother died when he was young, and his dad gave up on him. He was adopted by these people who didn't give a shit about him. You know what he had for breakfast every morning? POWDERED MILK. Their kids had the good milk and food, while he had shit. He used to go out a lot, and STAB PEOPLE WITH AN ICE PICKER. I kid you not. He wouldn't go so far as to kill them, just hurt them enough. Everytime someone would walk towards him, they would avoid him by crossing the street, and keep going their merry way. He was that dangerous. He spent half of his life in Juvie because of how bad he was treated. He would get yelled at for things he didn't do, beaten everytime he woke up, and told that he would never amount to anything by his adopted parents. He was a smart kid-and still is. He was just ending up in the wrong places at the wrong time.

"Nobody cared about me. Nobody loved me. If I died, they wouldn't care because no one loved me at all. I didn't care if I died. In fact, I wanted to die."

One day, he awoke in JAIL. He was in a car with a drunk friend and both got arrested. So many thoughts were running through his head. He was an honor roll student for God's sake! I'm pretty sure he was scared shitless. Hell, who wouldn't be? He spent 30 days in jail, until his friend (with his family) bailed him out. They're African-American and raised him from that point on and had total confidence in him. They were like his family an dthey loved him while he did the same in return.

My dad grew up and is now a lawyer, working with court cases. All those people who fucked with him in the past and said he was nothing but a worthless piece of shit, were wrong. His foster parents' kids, amounted to NOTHING, while my dad accomplished in life.

Life isn't an easy thing. You need to grow up, get an education, and amount to something. Don't care about what others think of you. Just focus on yourself now in life, and make it.

He said that I'm the luckiest person on earth, having my parents love me.

He was right.

Where I live, Riverside, is so fucking stupid (as I have said millions of times before). The people where I live that have Ipods, digital cameras, camera phones, big houses, parents that work good jobs, and other things say that their life is not worth living. WHAT?! Dude! That's fucking better than me! Look what I got:

An apartment surrounded by psycho, drug-dealing Mexicans (no offense)
My mom works at a shitty hospital in San Bernardino and gets paid SHIT
I DON'T have a digital camera
I can't afford an Ipod
I'm in a living hell of a town

I'm not saying that I have it bad-I really don't now that I thought about it. I mean, I have more than my dad did in his childhood! I felt really bad and admitted my mistakes, but I can't help but still feel fucked.

Everyone here that has great things take it all for granted. They think where they live is the ghetto. Bullshit! Go to downtown San Francisco, and THAT is the fucking ghetto. The ghetto is where people are fucked up, shoot-outs break loose, innocent people get hurt, and other shit. Riverside has nice houses, a mall, grocery stores and some other crap. Ghetto? Far from it. Everyone is so goddamned stupid here that they don't know the difference from a punk to a goth.

All the kids and teens out there who say they have it rough, take a good look around. Don't fucking talk about shit that don't relate to you at all. My dad had it rough, and poeple tried to KILL HIM by SHOOTING AT HIM. Do people try to kill you? No, you try to kill yourself. Weaklings!! Always putting the gun to your head, but never strong enough to pull the FUCKING TRIGGER!!

And to be honest, I DO get depressed. I never get suicidal. I just said that because that's what I THOUGHT. Sorry for lying. I'm such an awful friend...

Sorry for my rant, but their are too many people out there saying how much their life sucks when they don't know the first thing about having a fucked up life. It's really pissing me off.

Sorry once again. There will be a normal post when I change my theme which shouldn't be long. Also, another apology, for I won't be visiting sites. Please forgive me, my dear otakuians... *glomps everybody*

Thank you for taking your time to read this. *bows*

NarutoBlackmail

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Thursday, June 15, 2006

Time: 11:57 AM
Song: Summer Shudder
Artist: AFI
Feeling:
Drinking: Water

xXxLyricsxXx

Listen when I say, when I say it’s real.
Real life goes undefined, why must you be so missable?
Everything you take, makes me more unreal.
Real lines are undefined, how can this be so miserable?

Under the summer rain I burnt away
Under the summer rain (burn!) you turned away

Listen, I can't make, make a sound or feel
Feel fine, I kissed the lies. Why must they be so kissable?
Listen as I break, break the fourth wall's seal.
Gorgeous eyes shine suicide, when will we be invisible?

Under the summer rain I burnt away
Under the summer rain (burn!) we burnt away
Under the summer rain I burnt away
Under the summer rain (burn!) you turned away

This is the fall, this is the long way down
And our lives look smaller now, and our lives look so small.
This is the fall, this is the long way down
And our lives look smaller now, and our lives look so small.

Under the summer rain I burnt away
Under the summer rain (burn!) we burnt away

Under the summer rain I burnt away
Under the summer rain (burn!) we burnt away

Under the summer rain (burn!) I burnt away
Under the summer rain (burn!) you turned away

xXxLyricsxXx

Hey guys! How's it going? Good I hope.

Week

This week has been going well so far. I'm at my dad's right now, so I'm doing good. The graduation went well. My mom and dad came TOGETHER. OH. MY. GOD. A FUCKING MIRACLE. Anyway, the graduation was okay. When I walked up the stage, a lot of people clapped and cheered for me. I didn't realized I was loved so much. O_o lol As for Knott's, I just spent 3 hrs. of playing DDR. XD

Sale

Dude!! I went to this pawn shop over in Orange County, and guess what they had? A BRAND NEW, NEVER USED, CHOBITS DVD!!! 8D OMG!! It was like, $4!! YES!! FOUR FUCKING BUCKS!! That was a deal, so I totally bought it. X3

Me

Look!! IT'S ME!! 8D



That was taken in Science class by my friend Alina. I finally got it up here. Yay!! There are some more pictures up there in my profile of my friends if you would like to view more. ^_^ Enjoy.

Theme

I'm thinking about changing my theme, but I don't know what to!! DX I need some ideas or something... Until then, you're all stuck with this theme.

Bored

I'm bored. I'll just go to some sites. Boredom... killing... ME! DX *dies* This wasn't much of a post at all...

I'm off!! Thank you for reading and commenting!! *flies away*

Picture of the Day



Later everyone!

NarutoBlackmail

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Sunday, June 11, 2006

Time: 10:08
Song: Love Like Winter
Artist: AFI
Feeling:
Drinking: Coffee

xXxLyricsxXx

Warn you once to turn away
Here it’s December, everyday
Press your lips to the sculptures
And surely you’ll stay (Love like winter…)
Fire, sugar, and ice… I am made, I am made

It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood
I met my love, before I was born
He wanted love, I taste of blood
He bit my lip, and drank my warmth
From years before, from years before

She at tails the mirror lace,
I barely dreamt her, yesterday (yesterday…)
With the lines in the mirror, through the lipstick trace
She said, “It seems you’re somewhere, far away…
To his place”

It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood
I met my love, before I was born
She wanted love, I taste of blood
She bit my lip, and drank my warmth
From years before, from years before

Love like winter… Oh… Oh…
Love like winter… winter… 3…4…

It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood
I met my love, before I was born
He wanted love, I taste of blood
He bit my lip, and drank my warmth
From years before, from years before

xXxLyricsxXx

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Yes, I am listening to this song again.

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Hey guys! How's it going? Good, I hope.

Sites

I visit and comment my friends, but they don't do the same for me... T_T Well, at least a few of you do... Shpankyuu. *glomps everybody* I'll see how today goes.
I like strawberries...
O_o
Okay, THAT was random. lol

Sunday

Bored... Lazy... BLEH XP

Post

I'll be gone all day tomorrow, so I won't be posting. If some of you have forgotten, I'm going to Knott's Berry Farm with my friends for the field trip. Then Tuesday I'm going to graduation, so I don't know if I'll be posting or not. We'll just hafta wait and see. ^_~

Allowance

I got my allowance yesterday!! Weee!! How much? Twenty dollars at the least. I have a crapload of pennies and quarters I can cash in, so I'll be doing that.

Pictures?

My friend Aliena took about 3 pictures of me with her digital camera. I asked her if she could put them on my myspace and she said yes. If we're lucky enough, you all might get to see a picture of what I look like. ^^

That's all. I'm off. *flies away*

Picture of the Day

Ish another icon!! 8D


Later everyone!

NarutoBlackmail

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

WARNING!! LONG POST AHEAD!! LONG POST AHEAD!!
Time: 9:40 AM
Song: Summer Shudder
Artist: AFI
Feeling:
Drinking: Coffee

xXxLyricsxXx

Listen when I say, when I say it’s real
Real life goes undefined
Why must you be so miserable?
Everything you take, makes it more unreal
Real lies are undefined, how can this be so miserable?

Under the summer rain… I burned away…
Under the summer rain, Oh… You turned away…

Listen, I can make, make the sound a feel
Feel fine, I kiss the lies…Why must they be so kissable?
Listen as I break, break the former seal
For the sight shines suicide, when will we be invisible?

Under the summer rain… I burned away
Under the summer rain, Oh… We burned away
Under the summer rain… I burned away
Under the summer rain… You turned away

This is the fall; this is the long way down
And our lives look smaller now, and our lives look so small
This is the fall; this is the long way down
And our lives look smaller now, and our lives look so small…

Under the summer rain… I burned away
Under the summer rain… (burn!) We burned away

Under the summer rain… I burned away
Under the summer rain… (burn!) We burned away

Under the summer rain… (burn!) I burned away
Under the summer rain… (burn!) You turned, away...

xXxLyricsxXx

Hey guys! How's it going? Good I hope!

Dance

Dear God, my post was SO long yesterday. O_o I'm shocked so many people had the courage to read it all!! lol Anyway, the dance was pretty cool. It wasn't as boring as I thought it would be. They played some good music. Key word: SOME. They played some Good Charlotte, Shakira, Rhianna, aaaand...
FALL OUT BOY!!
OH MY FRICKIN GOD YAY!! *dances* And yes, it was "Dance, Dance". X3 Pamela, Aleena, and I were jumping up and almost started a mosh pit. XD It was funny. A lot of people liked my dress too. They said I looked the following:
Cute
Gorgeous
Pretty
I think it was because I don't wear dresses or skirts to school a lot. But I loved the compliments they gave me. I felt loved. lol My dress was black and it looked like Marilyn Monroe's, but her's was white. Big difference. *laughs* Aleena and I drank our Root Beer too fast and our tummy's started to hurt. *smiles nervously* I found it funny so Aleena just stared at me and laughed with me. At the end of the dance, everyone was crying and hugging eachother. Except for the boys. Well, duh. -_- It was sad, but fun. Overall, I had a good time.

Hug?

Donovan and Kieth came TOGETHER at the end of the dance. Hmm... I wonder what they were doing... Anyway!! Donovan said he was going to La Sierra High School next year. YAY!! I'm gonna see him!! I walked up to him, and here's our conversation:

Me: Donovan!

Donovan: *smiles* Hey! There's my Emo Buddy!

Me: *laughs*

(A few minutes later, Donovan's about to leave)

Me: *walks up to him* Donovan!! Wait, dammit!!

Donovan: Whaaa?

Me: You are not leaving me here without a hug!! *glomps him*

Donovan: *a little taken back* Whoa... Um... *hugs me back*

Me: *pulls away* Yay! See you next year! *walks back to where Inu-Chan was waiting for me*

Inu-Chan: Happy?

Me: Yeeeesh. X3

Donovan: ...?

I glomped my Emo Buddy. XD lol

Saturday

Blaaah... I'm bored...

Monday

I changed my mind. I don'tr want to spend endless hours in Mrs. Moorhouse's class doing math worksheets, so I decided to go to Knott's Berry Farm with my friends. Ish gonna be fuuun. w00t!! I can't wait!! We're gonna play DDR all day!! *dances*

Promotion

Promotion is on Tuesday, so that'll be my last time seeing my friends until next year. *nods* My dad's gonna be there too. He said that he's gonna shove me on stage. XD I laugh. *laughs* It's gonna be from 9 AM to 3 PM. Oh joy... -_- BOREDOM AWAITS

Hello?

WHERE THE HELL IS EVERYBODY ON MYO?!! *screams*

I'm off!! *flies away*

Picture of the Day

Zack... Don't go kill anyone... O_o


Later everyone!

NarutoBlackmail

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Friday, June 9, 2006

Sorry, no time to post.

I have to get ready for the dance.

I'll give you a full report on it tomorrow.

Later everyone!

NarutoBlackmail
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Wednesday, June 7, 2006

Time: 5:17 PM
Song: Love Like Winter
Artist: AFI
Feeling:
Eating: Ramen

xXxLyricsxXx

Warn you once to turn away
Here it’s December, everyday
Press your lips to the sculptures
And surely you’ll stay (Love like winter…)
Fire, sugar, and ice… I am made, I am made

It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood
I met my love, before I was born
He wanted love, I taste of blood
He bit my lip, and drank my warmth
From years before, from years before

She at tails the mirror lace,
I barely dreamt her, yesterday (yesterday…)
With the lines in the mirror, through the lipstick trace
She said, “It seems you’re somewhere, far away…
To his place”

It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood
I met my love, before I was born
She wanted love, I taste of blood
She bit my lip, and drank my warmth
From years before, from years before

Love like winter… Oh… Oh…
Love like winter… winter… 3…4…

It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood
I met my love, before I was born
He wanted love, I taste of blood
He bit my lip, and drank my warmth
From years before, from years before

xXxLyricsxXx

Hey guys! How's it going? Good I hope.

Decemberunderground

I BOUGHT IT!! I BOUGHT AFI'S GREATEST ALBUM EVER~!!! WEEEEEEEE!! BEST FUCKING ALBUM EVER!! BUY IT!! AFI PWNS YOU 8D

Pass

This is actually a good day for me!! I bought AFI's new album yetserday, AAAAND...

I PASSED PRE-ALGEBRA!!

ZOMG!!

I brought my grade up from an F to a C- !! JESUS CHRIST A MIRACLE!! NOW I CAN PROMOTE AND GO TO THE DANCE!! T___T *cries tears of happiness* I'M SO HAPPY~!!!! *glomps random person*

Shopping

Since I can now go to the dance on Friday, I need to go shopping for a dress. Ewwww.... XP I asked my mom if I can go get one at Hot Topic, and she just stared at me. I take that as a yes. XD lol We're going tomorrow. Plus, I might buy Luce the AFI CD. Her mom wouldn't let her buy it yesterday, so tomorrow I'll ask her to give me the money so I can buy it for her while we're at the mall. See? I'm such a good person. Aren't you all happy to have me as a friend. If you met me in person, I'm reeeally shy. ^^ I know. Vierd. O_o

Short post. Wow... I'm off!! *flies away*

Picture of the Day



Later everyone!!

NarutoBlackmail

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Tuesday, June 6, 2006

Time: 7:29 AM
Song: Whatsername
Artist: Green Day
Feeling:
Eating/Coffee: Coffee

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Thought I ran into you down on the street
Then it turned out to only be a dream

I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then I took a different path
I remember the face
But I cant recall the name
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Seems that she disappeared without a trace
Did she ever marry old what's his face?

I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then I took a different path
I remember the face
But I cant recall the name
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
The regrets are useless
In my mind
She's in my head
I must confess
The regrets are useless
She's in my head
From so long ago

(Go, Go, Go, Go..)

And in the darkest night
If my memory serves me right
I'll never turn back time
Forgetting you, but not the time.

xXxLyricsxXx

Hey guys! How's it going? Good I hope.

Quick post, so listen up!

AFI

OH MY GOD, I CAN'T WAIT!! THE ALBUM IS OUT TODAY!! OH MY FRICKIN GOD SOMEONE CATCH ME BEFORE I FAINT!! *faints* I SAID CATCH ME!! D8 I heard that it's going on sale at Hot Topic at midnight and the line was LONG AS FUCK. O_o Anyway, it comes out today!! 8D OMG YAY!!

HOVER

OH MY GOD!! HOVER OVER THE PICTURES AND BE AMAZED!!! 8D
...................
Did ya do it?
It's like the Texas Chainsaw Massacre. XD lol
Awesome, I know. X3

6*6*06

I got a gb sig today. I looked at it and was all, "Your guestbook has been signed on 06-06-06." O_o I started laughing, but I appreciate the sig. Thank you. ^^

Why does everyone believe it's the end of the world? I'm Catholic, so I don't really care. Every Christian friend of mine is PARANOID. They're all, "Hey! Hey man! It's 666!! Gasp, gasp! We're all gonna die!! Meh! Meh!" And what do I respond? I hit them over the head with my shoe. True story, and it still happens to this day. I have nothing against Christians, no, it's just that they're all freaking out on me and i have to snap them back to reality. It's just an ordinary day. Nothing more.

Short Post

Yes, it's short because I'm going to Fontana tonight. I have about 2 hours left when I get home to visit you guys. If I don't visit everyone, I'll make sure to finish when I get home at around 8:40-something.

I have to go now!! *flies away*

Picture of the Day



Later everyone!

NarutoBlackmail

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Monday, June 5, 2006

Time: 4:00 PM
Song: Just A Little
Artist: The Used
Feeling:
Eating/Drinking: Ramen and Powerade

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Surprise me im looking out looking out
Surprise me you jump back up on to your feet somehow

Surprise me I'm looking out looking out
Surprise me you jump back up on to your....

Things appear gone...
Things appear gone

Where'd you go?
Seems like your better half said it all
You're wonderful
Seems like your better half said it all

Surprise me I'm looking out looking out
Surprise me you jump back up on to your feet somehow

Surprise me I'm looking out looking out
Surprise me you jump back up on to your....

Things appear gone..things appear gone

Where'd you go?
where'd you go?
you're wonderful
seems like your better half said it all

Wonderful
Wonderful
Wonderful
Wonderful

Angels can fly
Motivation.... motivation (Gulp)

Things appear gone...
Things appear gone...
Things appear gone...

Where'd you go? (Where'd you go?)
you're wonderful
Seems like your better half said it all
You're wonderful you're wonderful
Seems like your better half said it all
Where'd you go?
Seems like your better half said it all
You're wonderful
Seems like your better half said it

xXxLyricsxXx

Hey guys! How's it going? Good I hope.

AFI

OH MY FRICKIN GOD!! AFI'S NEW ALBUM COMES OUT TOMORROW!! *screams and runs around in circles* I can't wait!! This is going to be the greatest thing since tacos!! 8D Who else is going to buy it? *raises hand and smiles*

Science

In science today, we went to the lab. I thought we were going to disect a frog, but we didn't. Oh no, we did something more fun!! A project!! On how to be drug-free!! Liek, omg!! <---Sarcasm. -_- Pamela asked our teacher why we couldn't disect a frog, and she told me that she said, "That was last year."
NYAH?
Really? Well, then how come every other science class got to do it? ;:\ I want to disect a human more than a frog though... *pouts*

FFVII Pairings

I told my friend John about all the pairings I came up with yesterday. XD

Me: Hey, John? Have you seen Final Fantasy VII: Advent Childeren?

John: No... *shifts eyes* Don't tell me it!! *covers ears*

Me: I'm not gonna spoil it for you!!

John: You're not?

Me: No! Of course not. I'm gonna tell you all the pairings I came up with!! The twosomes, threesomes, and foursomes!! *smiles* ^___^

John: O___O NUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!! *runs away*

I laughed my ass off. He's an awesome friend, so he knows what I do when I watch a new show or movie. X3 I've known the guy since 3rd grade people! Gimme a break! XD LOL

Homework

NO HOMEWORK!! WEEEEEE!! *spins in spinny chair*

I'm off to visit and comment. *flies away*

Picture of the Day

Night Out


Later everyone!

NarutoBlackmail

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