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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Listening: Yellowcard- Empty Apartment
Feeling:  Okay
Watching: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Thinking: I can't believe this...
Hey guys. How's it going? Good, I hope.
.::Absence::.
I think you are all wondering why I haven't been here for 2 days. Well... my mom kept picking me up and taking me places. Today we went to Fontana and picked up my brother, but before that, we went to Target and did some shopping. I did get to visit some people on Monday, but yesterday I had no time. I came back home at around 9 PM or so. I'm sorry for not visiting or posting, but then again, I DO have a life. XD lol I'll be sure to visit today. I'll be sure of that.
.::History Test::.
I took a test in history today, and I don't think I did very well. I always study at the last minute, so I never pass. DX We'll just see how the results came out... ~ponders~
.::Suicide::.
Remember the guy, Ken, I talked about that said he loved me? Well...
He's dead.
He commited suicide yesterday, and I felt CRUSHED. He was suffering from depression, saying that nobody cares for him. He didn't open his eyes all the way. There ARE people who care for him, and he didn't realize it. He told me he was going to be 16 in a few months, but that eventually never came... So, he was 15 when he died.
See, I'm going to die a single woman. I bet you all the manga I have. Everytime I try to get a boyfriend or I do have one, they either go away and never come back. This is why I hate love. Fuck it.
I miss him, even if I don't know him... He was the only guy that ever said he loved me, and now he's gone. The last PM I got sent from him was:
'Yeah. Yes, I meant it when I said I loved you.'
~sighs and smiles a bit~ But I do know that when someone close to you dies, that they don't want to be looking down from Heaven at a tortured soul... so... I'm just going to keep smiling... For him... I'm okay. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. ~smiles~
.::Lyrics::.
"Empty Apartment" by Yellowcard
These lyrics are for Ken... We'll miss you... Rest In Peace... ~bows in silence~
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down
As I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes
You forget where the heart is
Answer no
To these questions
Let her go
Learn a lesson
It's not me
You're not listening now
Can't you see?
Something's missing
You forget where the heart is
Take you away
From that empty apartment
You stay
And forget where the heart is
Someday
If ever you loved me you'd say
It's okay
Waking up
From this nightmare
How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all
What you want it to be?
Does it hurt?
When you think about me?
And how broken my heart is?
Take you away
From that empty Apartment
You stay
And forget where the heart is
Someday
If ever you loved me
You'd say
It's okay
It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
Take you away
From that empty Apartment
You stay
And forget where the heart is
Someday
If ever you loved me you'd say
It's okay
It's okay...
Guns Go BANG BANG!
Have a good day... ~takes tophat off and bows~
~The Mad Blackmailer~
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