Thursday, January 20, 2005

   AleXavier Rules!!!
Hi everyone, This is Nataku1, and that is me, for I am Nataku1!! I just wanted to say that my bestest pal, AleXavier is the awesomenest bestest friend in the whole wide world!!! Please visit his site and worship him as I do, I hereby vow to worship, and respect AleXavier for ever and ever!

All hail the great AleXavier master of all that cool!!!!

In his honor:

'till next time...
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Thursday, January 6, 2005

   honesty, definitely not the best policy..
you know, people are difficult to understand. they ask for honesty, and sincerity, but when you give it to them, they turn on ya! i have a new years resolution to rid my life of people like that, and i have started weeding out all the problem people in my life. at the same time, ive learned how to appreciate the few people that have always been there for me, for the right reasons. thank you all of you here because i know that you are all my friends without any secret reasons. just the fact that we chat occasionally is good enough for you guys and i thank you guys for not taking advantage...
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

   life and love go together...
just like a horse and carriage...a little different from the original song, but i think this one suits my mood today better. first off, did you guys hear about that tsunami? im sorry for everyone who lost someone out there...75,000 people gone, just like that. i guess we should never underestimate the power of nature. its scary to think about it.

alexavier is not here today. its the first day in a long time we dont work together. im not sure its such a bad thing...maybe we've been spending to much time together lately. it happens. hes off at the mall with his friends, living life...go ant go! im here finishing up the last few minutes of my shift and waiting for my boyfriend to call me back...strange thoughts when it comes to him. hes been gone for 6 months, and he came back and we were able to pick it up right where we left off. i love it. hes leaving again in five days, but im very cool with it this time around. i mean, i know ill miss him, but hell be back and i have grown accustomed to it. i guess thats it for now, but you guys let me know, what is new with your lives? take care everyone...
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

   thanks...lifes not bad...
hey merry belated christmas to all of you. i hope your christmas' were awesome. mine was all right. i spent all of my money, but i got everyone there gifts...lol...other than that, im back at work and something about today just kind of sux...cuz its really cold and alexavier got me sick...i havent really seen my boyfriend lately, maybe ill see him today.....gotta run, work to do...
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Monday, December 20, 2004

   parents are confused...
i got into an argument with my aunt yesterday. i swear, adults never know what they want. she used to tell me "why dont you go hang out with your friends? go out, have fun" then it changed to, "your always out with your friends, why dont you bring them home?" so i did, now its "your friends are always here, go to someone else's house..." you know, i give up. just plain out give up. i am tired of having to adjust my life so that she will be happy, when nothing pleases her. im going to move out. i havent told anyone yet. not even AleXavier, so ant, if ya happen to read this before i tell ya, sorry. i want to make sure everything works out for me before i tell ya. but this is the only way that i truly think ill be all right. i mean, i could move back in with my mom, but heres the problem i face guys. all my life, ive been given the freedom to do whatever i want whenever i want to do it. all of a sudden, everyone wants to control me. so naturally, i just rebel. i mean, my mom isnt bad, but i just dont think i could live with her. i like my independence and thats something i dont have with either one. i mean, my aunt never even notices when i a, home ,and my mom smothers me...ill let you guys know more about this once ive figured out what i want to do...
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Monday, December 13, 2004

   all right, back in business...
ive played around with my guidance counselors head for a while and convinced her to change my schedule so i have a free period. ^_^ so at least now i can update more often, about every two days or so. this morning i walked my little cousin to school, which doesn't ever happen since we dont really get along, but at the end of the day, she is like a little sister to me, which i guess explains why we are the way we are with each other. alex and i are ok again. like i said, its been very hard for me to get used to the fact that i have to share him with someone else ^_^. on the other hand, my boyfriends coming home on wednesday, and im going insane! he wont tell me exactly when hes coming to see me, so it could be at anytime during the day...while im at school, or at work, im scared that ill get off the bus after work and hell be at my house...i think id faint, or cry or something like that...

CHRISTMAS is coming! christmas shopping is driving me nuts! too many people, not enough cash..its hard. but hey, vacation is coming up as well and i am stoked! cant wait! i want to do nothing but spend quality time with my best friend and my boo...what are you guys planning to do for vacation?
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Wednesday, December 8, 2004

   phonies arent cool man...
hey guys! long time since ive had enough time or energy to post. actually to be real i still have neither, but i admit i do miss you guys. so to update...alexavier has a boyfriend. yay for him...although i admit, things are different now. its harder to talk to him and even harder to find him. i hate to sound like the jealous best friend type, but im not the only person who feels like this. i mean, dont get me wrong, i love Alex, and his boyfriend is super awesome, totally cool, but it seems like Alexavier gets more and more irrespnsible as days go by. As a matter of fact, hes been on this path long before his boy even came into the picture. it started out with simple bunks, you know, skip school, but go to work. then it became go to school skip work, although not as often, he still did it. i mean, i understand that it is his own life and he can do with it but he wants, but i honestly think hes going down the wrong path...i want to tell him this, but i know that sometimes we can be so hardheaded when we think we know what we are doing. and especially Alexavier and i. i mean, we are notorious for making up excuses for everything that we do or dont do, subsequently. "no, i didnt go to school, im just so tired" or "i dont feel like going to work, my back hurts", yet we have no problem going off and doing stuff that we deem fun, like going to our friends houses...im a little afraid to confront him with this new conscience of mine, i mean, im trying as hard as i can to do the right thing and look out for my own, and im afreaid that he wont understand. plus, im not very good at these emotional confrontations. i think id just scream in his face WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOU IDIOT?!, which would lead to a huge battle that i honestly dont want to fight. i know that it sounds bitchy, and i hate to whine to you guys about this, but i figure maybe this way he'll come on here and read this and understand that one of his closest friends is worried about him. i am happy that he is happy and i wish him all the best, hopefully he knows that, but at the same time i feel so much rage at the way he is behaving lately...wat do you guys think?
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Thursday, December 2, 2004

   shes back...
ok guys. there has been so much going on, i dont even know where to start. long story short: i joined the basketball team, failed three classes, am allowed to use headphones at work, lost my car in an accident, didnt lose my uncle unfortunately, people moved in, people moved out, i will be homeless in june...but other than that...music!! yes, i bought the new DC cd Destiny Fulfilled..its awesome! a lot of slow jams...heres a song from their cd..

its called "BAD HABIT"

"Bad Habit"

[Kelly]
How many times
Are you gonna apologize about the same thing
And how many times can I take you back
When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong
(When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong, yeah)
I thought maybe if I started prayin'
That we would get better, but
When I would pray the answer would always come back to me bein' done
But we are so hard headed when we're in love
So I

[Chorus]
I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change there's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can't go on now
I gotta move on now
It's not the fact that I don't love you no more
But I gotta break this bad habit
Can't take his bad habit no more

[Kelly]
I'm totally out of my element
Learnin' new ways to live, while your in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin, (you couldn't think about me) to call
And then when I get mad you buy me gifts
Thinkin' it's gonna solve every issue
From the girl callin my phone, to the pictures that I saw
And every time you would break up with me for nothing at all
I've takin all I could take (I've takin all I could take)
But the way I live has gotta change, oh

[Chorus]

[Bridge Kelly]
Let me break it down
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you was just to blind to see
Past, all of the pain they was causin' you
Ladies do you feel me (do you feel me)
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you went against the right things that you should do
Then it's time to make a change
So I

[Chorus]

enjoy.
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Saturday, November 27, 2004

   happy belated thanksgiving everyone!
i hope everyones turkey day went well. mine was great. i ate and ate. i even helped cook some of the food. i made something called sebiche (sp?) which is like shrimp and a whole bunch of other stuff. i also made the dessert. tembleque/ i dont know if you guys have heard of it. its a spanish dessert. tastes awesome. im happy that my pal has finally found a boyfriend. im really happy for them two. they look so cute together. lol. kind of makes me miss my boyfriend though...anyway, what did yall do for thanksgiving?
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Tuesday, November 23, 2004

   hey thanks guys
you know what they say, tis the season to be jolly. i mean, technically, that usually applies to christmas, but i once heard a comedian who said that christmas was the beast who was never satisfied. i mean it even sucked in thanksgiving! actually, the holidays make me so cheery. my sadness just goes away. the thought of christmas and thanksgiving and my boyfriend coming home is enough to make me bubbly... im in school playing on the laptop and i got busted so i gotta run...
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