Tuesday, August 31, 2004

   looking brighter
life is looking much better for me lately. i wrote my b/f and explained to him how i was feeling, and its amazing how with just his support, i feel like everything is going to be ok. everyone has been telling me pretty much the same things that he said, but i dont know why it made more sense coming from him. anyway, im sorry to all those of you who come to my site regularly and find nothing new, im working on it guys, im working on it...anyway, today we'll put up a new set of lyrics. i try to mix it up a little, give you some hip-hop, some rap, some reggae, whatever i can. i figure that sometimes, the message of the song gets lost in all the boom-boom of the bass...so today we'll go with a song by Jadakiss called "why". see if ya'll can answer the many questions:

Aha
It's dat real
Yo, why is Jadakiss as hard as it gets?
Why is the industry designed to keep the artist in debt?
And why them dudes ain't ridin' if there part of your set?
And why they never get it poppin' but they party to death?
Yea, and why they gon give you life for a murder?
Turn around only give you eight months for a burner? it's goin down
Why they sellin' niggaz CD's for under a dime?
If it's all love daddy why you come wit your nine?
Why my niggaz ain't get that cake?
Why is a brother up North better than Jordan?
That ain't get that break
Why you ain't stackin' instead of tryin' to be fly
Why is rattin' at an all time high
Why are you even alive
Why they kill Tupac n' Chris
Why at the bar you ain't take straight shots instead of poppin Crist'
Why them bullets have to hit that door
Why did Kobe have to hit that raw
Why he kiss that whore
Why

[Chorus: Anthony Hamilton]
All that I been givin'
Is this thing that I've been living
They got me in the system
Why they gotta do me like that
Try'd to make it my way
But got sent up on the highway
Why, oh why
Why they gotta do me like that

[Jadakiss]
Why would niggaz push pounds and powder
Why did bush knock down the towers
Why you around them cowards
Why Aaliyah have to take that flight
Why my nigga D ain't pull out his Ferrari
Why he take that bike
Why they gotta open your package and read your mail
Why they stop lettin' niggaz get degreez in jail
Why you gotta do eighty-five percent of your time
And why do niggaz lie in eighty-five percent of they rhymes
Why a nigga always want what he can't have
Why I can't come through in the pecan Jag
Why did crack have to hit so hard
Even though it's almost over
Why niggaz can't get no jobs
Why they come up wit the witness protection
Why they let the terminator win the election
Come on, pay attention
Why sell in the stores what you can sell in the streets
Why I say the hottest shit but we sellin' the least

[Chorus]

[Jadakiss]
Uh, yea, yo
Why Halle have to let a white man pop her to get a Oscar
Why Denzel have to be crooked before he took it
Why they didn't make the CL6 wit a clutch
And if you don't smoke why the hell you reachin' for my dutch
Why rap, cause I need air time
Why be on the curb wit a "why lie I need a beer" sign
Why all the young niggaz is dyin'
Cause they moms at work, they pops is gone, they livin' wit iron
Why they ain't give us a cure for aids
Why my diesel have fiends in the spot on the floor for days
Why you screamin' like it's slug, it's only the hawk
Why my buzz in L.A. ain't like it is in New York
Why you forcin' you to be hard
Why ain't you a thug by choice
Why the whole world love my voice
Why try to tell 'em that it's the flow son
And you know why they made the new twenties
Cause I got all my old ones
That's why

[Chorus]

sorry for the language folks...


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Saturday, August 28, 2004

   death
today folks i feel dead.like all hope has been sucked from my body. i should be happy, i finally have a job again, but no...instead i feel so alone. my boyfriend is so far away, and my best friend is out there living his life, which lately hasnt included me. i am not able to come to myO hardly ever, and you guys were the glue that held it all together. now as everyday passes by, i feel my sould falling into an abys...deeper and deeper, until im afraid it will perish, forever...
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Friday, August 27, 2004

   title....there
today was my first day of official work, and let me tell you guys, i am tiiirrreeeddd! i worked from 9-5 which is a lot considering that i havent worked in three months! other than that there really hasnt been much to talk about, althouh i feel bad for Alexavier! if he gets this job as an E-teen, wokring the computers, hes going to go nuts! the kids here are all over the place but they all want one thing: the computers! theyre loud and rude and funny/ hilarious! they'll do anything to be able to get on ...they beg and fight and kiss ass...its quite a power trip. anyway, i hope everyone is doing great! thats all for now, but im going to post a pic in a few...




ouchers! he's HOT!!!
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004

   does this count as a title?
hey guys hows everyone doing? things have been kind of slow lately, but i like it like that lol. i have a small problem with my pc, so its hard for me to comment on anyones sites, im sorry. i get booted everytime i try to make it to people's sites. im sorry guys. but i promise ill do what i can to make it everywhere i can. ive already made it to a few of your sites...if i havent made it to you yet, then im sorry...im really trying! school starts next wednesday so i know if anything i could use the school pcs...they are fast and effecient. i guess thats it for now...talk to you all later!
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Monday, August 23, 2004

im back!


sorry ive been MIA for the past few days guys. i spent the weekend at my moms house. we had a blast. on Saturday i went to go see the Exorcist at the movie theatre, i wont ruin it for you guys, but i will say that there was an interesting twist in there. and today i came home to the Puerto Rican parade! yes! we celebrated our...whatever it is that is worth celebrating...today! on my street! i live on one of those streets you know....the kind thats always full of some type of action. anyway, so i hung out with ALexavier and his brother and his friend today. it was pretty cool. we walked thru the park, which was spooky cuz it was late and dark and there were spider webs everywhere...so all in all its been a pretty good weekend. next week my mom is going to buy me my new kicks for school, so im all set. i think ill get some red New Balances. i already have the white air forces, the black K swisses and Timbs in like three different colors, including pink, but no red. eight days till school starts and i cant wait! my last year and i want to do it big...lets see what else can i update you on? oh yeah, has n-e-one seen Kill Bill Volume 2? i wont give away the ending to that either, but it was awesome! Huge shocker in that puppy. well, i guess thats it for now, hopefully ill be able to talk to yall soon...much love
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Thursday, August 19, 2004

   hmm...i have no title...how sad
not much has happened in the past few days. the job at the library is right about to go thru. my fingers are still crossed. but like i promised you guys, no boring posts, so here are my lyrics for this week...this song is by Monica. as usual, i have ne clue what genre or type of music she falls into, i dont really believe in those, but i know its a good song...give it a try ya'll...i love it. it really kind of fits into my life and what im going thru with my boyfriend...so without further ado..

monica
"you should've known betta"

I didn’t ask to go with you to Mexico
I really didn’t need the shopping spree
In L.A. or Melrose, boy if you didn’t know it
Well, now you know, I didn’t need the furs or the jewelry
Because material things they don’t mean much to me
And ever since you been gone
I been holding us down on my own

I never ever cheated
I never ever lied
So u can stop asking, asking me why
Why I never left you, and why I kept it real
And why im still with you

You should’ve known better than to think I would leave
You should’ve known better than to doubt me
It don’t matter if you are up
matter if you are down
Either way im gonna be around
You should’ve known that I would stay by your side
You should’ve known your girl was gonna ride or die
And it just don’t matter if ya rich or poor
Out or in doing 5 to 10
You should’ve known better

What makes you think that I would forget about you
Think about it who comes to see ya
Every Saturday and Monday I was on that receiver
It’s me your girl your life your world
My family and friends they just don’t understand
They say I should leave you alone
But I say that they should just leave us lone
Don’t u get it

I never ever cheated
I never ever lied
So u can stop asking, asking me why
Why I never left you, and why I kept it real
And why im still with you

You should’ve known better than to think I would leave
You should’ve known better than to doubt me
It don’t matter if you are up
matter if you are down
Either way im gonna be around
You should’ve known that I would stay by your side
You should’ve known your girl was gonna ride or die
And it just don’t matter if ya rich or poor
Out or in doing 5 to 10
You should’ve known better

You should’ve known better than to think I would leave
You should’ve known better than to doubt me
It don’t matter if you are up
Matter if you are down
Either way im gonna be around
You should’ve known that I would stay by your side
You should’ve known your girl was gonna ride or die
And it just don’t matter if ya rich or poor
Out or in doing 5 to10
You should’ve known better

so there it is. as usual, your comments are appreciated...see ya'll later!
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Monday, August 16, 2004

   Your love's got me going so crazy right now -Beyonce
ahh yes Beyonce. to many, shes the gorgeous Texan chick survivor whos too bootylicious for Jay Z. im not hating guys, i think that Jay Z and B are one of the few Hollywood couples that are safe from the media.



where shall we begin? ok, how about with a question...how many of you guys are lavish spenders? there's actually a point behind this question. today, my aunt gave me 100 dollars to go and buy some back to school stuff. i spent twenty on the basic necessities, you know hair gel etc..etc. then i went to the mall with Alexavier and headed over to Old Navy where i bought this Yoga sweater and a pair of jeans to match. All together i spent about 50 bucks...afterward, i headed over to Walmart, where Alexavier was sweet enough to hook it up with a bookbag. In between there we did some eating here and there. you know. plus i was able to pay off my debt at the library. hopefully now they wont have any excuse to not hire me lol. but alexavier brought up the point that maybe i spent too much at the mall...i dont think so. i think that if something is nice and its in my price range, then i what difference does it make if its expensive? then again, thats just my opinion...id like to here ya'lls...
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Sunday, August 15, 2004

   look inside yourself...Simba...you are more than what you have become...
yeah, i know we arent all simba, but i think that a lot of us settle for a lot less than we should in life. anyway, havent really done much. my family went to Blockbuster and rented a few flicks...Monster's Ball which i dont recommend for anybody under the age of like 17...maybe even older, Face-to-Face with John Travolta and Nick Cage, which was pretty good--weird--but good, and Stephen King's The Storm...that movie was good. Really long though it lasted about 4 and a half hours! it wasnt over until & am!! i was dying... other than that, nothing new. tomorrow im going to the mall to buy a few back to school items...i've reached that time again sadly. so thats all for now, ill see you tonight...




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Saturday, August 14, 2004

   feelin better


my insomnia is cured! yes...last night i slept for the first time in a long time! i am so happy...anyway, im glad to know that my friends over in Florida are doing ok. im glad that hurricane took a turn. anyway, i hope everyone is doing ok...how are ya'll doing? thank you those of you who visited ALexavier's site. i really appreciate it. todays post is short and sweet. oh by the by, i might not be by tomorrow cuz im going to my moms house for the weekend...maybe. ill let you all know.
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Friday, August 13, 2004

all right im back
ok guys. first ill start off with a little announcement. my best friend Alexavier has posted something very personal about him that took a lot of courage and he would like to have some of your support. so im asking you, as a favor to me, to please stop by his site, read his post and give him a little feedback. he really needs us right now. i am going to post a song today, that is from the hit TV show Friends, which recently ended its series...i think that the song is well perfect for what my buddy is going thru...so Ant, this one is for you

I'll Be There for You

See no one told you life was gonna be this way.
Your Job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.
But -

I'll be there for you ... when the rain starts to fall.
I'll be there for you ... like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you ... cause you're there for me, too.

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight.
You've burned your breakfast, so far everything is great.
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these.
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees.
That -

I'll be there for you ... when the rain starts to fall.
I'll be there for you ... like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you ... cause you're there for me, too.


next topic...um i spoke to my boyfriend today. hes going to try and come down from maine for my birthday next month! im so excited! its also going to be our 6 month anniversary, which is a huge milestone for me! usually by six months im sick and tired of the guy or we've broken up twelve thousand times and i dont even know why im with him anymore, but not this time! im in love...*sighs*

ok finally, if you made it thru this post, i would be really grateful if you could take a sec and send some positive energy towards all those guys who are going thru that hurricane warning...among them is my friend Sw33tz, as well as others from here on my O...whether it be through prayer or just positive though, we're with you guys...i guess thats all for now, but ill be back if something exciting happens...

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