Friday, February 18, 2005

..... can you cry in heaven....
My mother woke me up this morning... with the news... My popa Don is dead.. I say that so bluntly.. I layed there on the couch for a little while... wondering if this was just another stupid dream.. My eyes watered.. but i didn't cry.. not yet.. She had to bring the suit for his funeral to Mama Peggy across the street.. I remeber going into the bathroom.. and picking up my brush.. but pausing before brushing my hair.. Papa Don can brush his hair.. some one we dont know is going to brush his hair... Some one we don't know is going to dress him, so hell look alive the last time we see his body.. I don't think i want them to put on the facade that he's alive still... That he's still in that body.. That's not my Papa Don.. My papa don is sneaking to the refrigerator to get some ice cream.. even though he knows its bad for his sugar.. my papa don is giving me a hug and telling me that he loves me.. my papa don is standing out on my side walk holding mama peggy's hand and looking out at the sky
admiring the sun.. I can't understand why I can see him so perfectly in my head doing these things.. but hes not there when i look at the window... or when i go over mama peggy's house.. When i saw him last .. i promised him i would never leave him.. i held his hand and promised i would never leave him.. I suppose he promised he would never leave us either.. cause i can feel him, still talking and being goofy and silly .. Do only the good die young.. becuase he was a good man.. and he was too young to die.. he wasn't sposed to die untill he was an old man.. i.. i dont understand..
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

   I'm so back
florida was so great.. It was a breath of fresh air.. literally.. I was stoned alot .. but .. what i remeber.. I had a great time.. i got volumes 2 and 4-6 of angel sanctuary and a di gi charat hat.. and a naruto clock.. i figured you guys would appriciate that stuff.. it was so great.. I didn't realize how much i missed it.. and everyone down there.. 0.0 -sighs-
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Friday, February 4, 2005

   my last day in georgia.. for 10 days
Hey people who lurv meh and actually stare blankly and respond to my posts.. Today is my last day in georgia for ten days.. im going to call all you buddies of mine and tell you i LURV you all.. ^^ anyways.. i won't be typing for the amount of time im in flordia as there is no computer at my granda ma's and i don't plan on taking dee's puter.. ^^ so yeah.. ill talk to you everyone on teusday PEACE OUT.. and all you goddess faring chick out there.. ask the great mother for a safe trip for me.. i know i am..

~Naora
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Thursday, February 3, 2005

its only 9 am and the day is already shitty
alright.. i was up allnight talking to jenifer.. my fault i know.. but i woke up at quarter till 7 am.. so yeah.. mom's not even up yet.. and im laying with my cats.. and i get up make myself some tea and toast and take my meds.. mom gets up and lets the dog out.. the dog barks and there outside are the maintanence men.. (these are the slyiest meanest most un trustworthy men i have ever met) they snap a picture of my dog being off her leash.. and tell my mom "we caught you this time, you can't say thats not your dog" so now.. we are prolly getting getting a lease violation notice.. and naomi is going to come and look around and if she sees that we have cats to.. thats automatic eviction.. and we will prolly have to take mama peggy and move to florida.. with my other granda ma.. -twitch- we are planning on leaving tomarrow as opposed to saturday

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Wednesday, February 2, 2005

I got a day off HELL YEAH
today is my day off from the demonic spawn they have the nerve to call a child. and the new medication is starting to take effect.. mama peggy says im prolly part of a testing experiment.. because lexipro is so new.. oh well.. as long as its helping me.. it's keeping me a bit calmer then i usually am.. and the sleep meds .. well i have to cut them in half I GOT OVER 15 HOURS OF SLEEP.. that's a big switch.. well three more days till florida.. ill post the day i leave to tell you guys i won't be back for ten days.. anyways.. I'm going to go and watch some movies.. or something .. peace out to you guys

~Naora
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Tuesday, February 1, 2005

   w00t..
ok.. i know you guys are prolly sick of me talking about all the new shit im getting.. but i dont get new shit alot.. so yeah.. just ignore me if your annoyed by my happiness.. ^^ anyways.. we got a stereo and a new scanner/printer/copier.. YAY.. also i got the second ghost in the shell movie.. i haven't watched it yet.. i don't plan on watching it till tomarrow night.. i went to my therapist and psychiatrist today.. i was perscribed 100 mgs of lexipro for anxiety and depression and 150 mgs of trazidone for my insomnia.. i haven't stared taking them yet.. (i would be asleep right now if i'd of taken my trazidone) i figure ill start taking them tomarrow.. so i can get on a routine.. ^^ mhm.. anyways.. i supose ill write again tomarrow..
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Monday, January 31, 2005

-shiver-
i woke up at 6:00 this morning.. thats a scary thought.. man if i could go to bed and wake up that early every morning.. i could so go back to school.. but.. it won't last.. damn it.. O.O -yawn- im still kinda tired.. yeah anyways.. im going to see my therapist and psychiatrist today.. ^^ its gonna be good.. i love my therapist man..she rocks.. 0.0 p00p .. anyways.. i supose i should be on my way.. peace out

~Naora
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Sunday, January 30, 2005

   -yawn- oi vey
today was tiring.. i actually got 10 hours of sleep last night..
-gives self a pat on the back- go me.. i took a tylenol pm.. and the effects of the sleep aid is starting to kick in.. but i figured i would write first.. i saw ringu today.. the original japanese version of the ring.. it was really good.. although it was subbed.. but you can't always get what you want..anyway.. ill catch you all later.. ^^ bye bye

~Noara
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Saturday, January 29, 2005

Today
today we finally got our new tv.. so i could finally hook up the dvd player.. w00t.. also.. mommie took the courtesy of buying me saiyuki: requiem .. it was really good.. and i finally got to watch inuyasha.. it made me cry.. and get gooseflesh.. ^^ I also was able to watch the cell (if there any one who likes surrealism and salvador dali.. then you would love the cell.. if you get disturbed easily .. its not really a movie for you) but i love it.. so interesting.. half of the things in the movie are from different surrealists paintings.. anyways.. i cant sleep again.. monday i go to my docters for sleep medication and happy pills.. -wonders what chuck full o side effects meds they will put her on this time- its gonna be a blast.. or an implosion.. whatever.. im going to try to sleep again.. Peace everyone..
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Friday, January 28, 2005

   ^^ florida
I'm going to florida on vacation next saturday.. -dances- w00t... im really excited. We are taking my dog sheba and my kitten bones.. but grandma won't let us bring Zwitter.. so he's going to stay behind with mama peggy.. ^^ i can't wait till next saturday.. OH.. i got inuyasha the move 2 .. i havent watched it yet cause our dvd player isnt playing nice.. anyways.. i suppose i should try to sleep... NIGHT .. O.O


~Naora
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