Saturday, July 4, 2009

EAGLE!!!!
If you are wondering why I am awake, blame my roommate. She came back a hour ago on her break screaming, fireworks. And so, in my half tired state, I listened, heard nothing, and said as much. But, in her enthusiastic mood, she happily informed me that they will be starting back in the states really soon.

Well, she just left back to the hospital, after a few rounds of We Love Katamari. I'm probably going to be up for another hour, getting myself a midnight snack. But, For all of you in the states, Happy 4th of July. Hope you all enjoy the shows you go see.


NNM
It's guy love, there's no compromise.


(Yes this is a complete port from V)
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Thursday, July 2, 2009

Still
It would seem that my friend Innocent Heart's grandmother is in surgery right now, so I ask those who read this to give a little prayer.


I just woke up from my nap. I had to do a 24hr shift at the hospital. So tired. I mean, it's not like I can't handle it but last night was quiet, slow, and lacked good coffee. The one thing I've noticed is that I talk to my coworkers less during these shifts. Then again, all my buddies are on different shifts.

Last night, one of the nurses brought in his laptop and we watched Scrubs, fitting I know, during our breaks. Since I'm mostly radiology, I have many moments of nothingness, so I usually go about doing my secondary MOS which is patient administration. Which is mostly working with patient's files and relaying changes in location to the doctors when they happen.

I consider myself a very tomboyish person, and because of that my friends back home always try to dress me up. One of them just sent me an email with a bunch of gothic dresses, saying that she'd make me wear them as her bilated birthday present and as payment from her keeping my account here in shape. I'd post pictures, but the embarrassment I feel looking at her choices keeps me from doing that.

Now that I have a new laptop, I've been catching up on my fansubs. And I've started Marimite season 4. All I can say about that is, the opening is so included...

No joke. Those of you how know me, know I have a slight love of moe, but I just felt that it was out of place, given the other seasons. I'm not complaining in any way, no, but still...


NNM
I need a vacation
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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Squee
Now I know I've posted most of me recent, though infrequent things over at my other page. But here's the gist, I've been in training to be an Army X-ray tech. The training took me from the states, where I did classroom work, to Germany where I was supposed to do my internship. But instead I volunteered to do it in the Middle East. And now I am back in Germany with a new (well not really) laptop. So, I'm fine if any of you are wondering.

And now on with the show.


Today, I shall tell a tale of love, loss, epic /b/ness, and all around half truths.

Our tale starts one fine weekend day.

The sun light, after fighting its way across the vastness of space, through the Earth’s magnetic field, and dodging the clouds of a partly cloudy sky, lit my dreary, tired face with apathetic warmth. I was very distraught over my supreme lack of boredom relieving activities and was currently in search of epic LOLZ. My journey took me from the depths of rule 34 land to the rocky chan range to the realm of fanficdom. It is very well understood that this journey was not at all enlightening or enjoyable.

Then the storms cleared and my shallowed ship of anonymous ran aground in the Land of Smiles. It was a land of scary things. A land that read like Japanese- which I so can’t read. I staggered, crawled, babeled, and flew blindly. I thought I there’d be no exit, that this land had no borders. There were the meme raiders, the webcam whores, the complete WTF white wash. I was panicking, jumping randomly from place to place.

Then the path started to clear and in the distance, high atop a weed covered hill, stood a striking silhouette in the approaching twilight. Her almost body length hair, tied in pigtails, whipped in the breeze. Its greenish-blue hue blended smoothly with the sky. As I got closer I could make out the outline of her head set. Its digital lights shown dimly through her hair. On her sleeves were the LEDs of readouts and inputs. She was a Goddess, she had to be. I knew at that moment that I would make her mine, what ever it took.

Over the next few days I searched high and low for the identity of the Goddess. Weathered the R34 riots, the pool AIDS onslaught, the memes (OMG the memes), and ate way too much Negi Ramen. And soon arrived at the concert hall which the Goddess frequents in our humble internets. She was new, bold, original (in her own way), and gave me a new out look at music. There was a whole religion called Miku Miku Dance that gave us control of this Vocaloid Goddess.
So I spend days making the pilgrimage across the English land of smiles where I saw and hear more than I ever thought I would. And now I am at a very comfortable spot in my relationship with the Goddess. We spend time when I’m lonely, she sings when I need emotions. It is more than love, more than admiration, it is beyond all description.

And so it was that I met one Hatsune Miku.


Peace out ya'all

NNM
Miku vids:
Shining Ray
Melody
Anger
Nebula- So watch in High qual
Last Night, Good Night
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Monday, April 14, 2008

And
Again, Nana will shed her usually self and talk seriously.

Some of y'all may be wondering why I haven't been on in a bit. Due to the nature of the reason, I am unable to go into it but since then I've been thinking about something I believe most of us have trouble with. Trust.

I've always had a rocky relationship with trust. Some people I trust a lot, others not at all. What makes it worse is the fact that I don't have any "criteria" as to determine a level of trust. Most times it goes on gut reactions. I've meet some people who I know outright that I can trust them implicitly. Then there are those who I wouldn't trust to pick their own nose. The thing is, I've never been wrong about either type. Now, that might be because they are reacting to my trust or distrust and trying to match it; but there really is no true way to know.

Last serious talk was about intimacy. And some of the same questions apply here. How does one define trust? How does one gage it? What changes it? Is it the same as faith?

By Webster's definition to trust is to place confidence. Confidence is faith or belief that one will act in a right, proper, or effective way.

Vague if you ask me. But going of of this trust and faith are equal, but by the usual human semantics most of us treat them differently.

The way I see trust is mush like the original definition but without confidence having faith to define it. The people I trust I can tell them just about any secret (seeing as no one will ever tell all their secrets) and know that they will not only take me serious but not tell anyone else. As a soldier, I trust my battle buddy and I trust each other implicitly to keep each other alive. To me that one is the strongest trust; the trust of your life in someone else's hands.

So, if I were to use the information above, the best way to find a level of trust depends on the situation as well as the person. Much of the time, similar beliefs and outlooks help to determine.

Then there's faith. This one is even vaguer. Webster's definition is, a: allegiance to duty or a person : loyalty b (1): fidelity to one's promises (2): sincerity of intentions.

Right, okay.

So where does that leave us?

Faith, to many religious people is the same as trust when it comes to dealing with God. But since I don't believe in religion, that is not a template I can use. So I go by the soldier's faith.

Faith in the enemy to do as we've ask but don't trust them to do it.
So I can have faith in a persons skills, in their abilities, and their morals but not trust their intentions or trust whether they would do as I've asked.

I'm not big on semantics but for here, it's the only way to deal with this lack of stability.

Because of this, I do have trouble trusting people who may deserve that trust. I have faith in their skills, but no trust. Which is probably why 90% of my friends are either military or in the same field of research as me.

At this point, I can't really think much further on this since I've never had the type of childhood that would things like this. It is true that as the years go by, I am getting better at this; but I don't think it will completely go away.

I guess my question to y'all is, how do you feel about trust? How do you determine it?


NNM
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Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Change
As you can see, a new set up. The character featured in the BG is Aya Shameimaru of the Touhou universe. Nana is a very big Touhou fan. Really big.

Favorite Characters:
Scarlet
Alice
Marisa
Reimu
Remilia
Youmu
Yuyuko

Why is this universe good? Play the games, read the official comics and books. Even many of the non-ZUN works are great fun.


In other news, Persona 3: FES will be released near the end of the month. Oh hell yeah! The forums at Gamefaqs say that you can transfer your save from the original, will some losses though. More story, an extra chapter, an extra story around Aigis. You can even date Aigis and Liz. Nana wants, and Nana will have.


NNM
Chibi FTW!
One
and a two
and a three
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Monday, April 7, 2008

Nana just finished her last solo speech in her presentation class. The next and last speech is a group and Nana has no idea who or what it will be.

It has also come to Nana's attention that this semester has so cut away Nana's usual writing speed and creativity. She doesn't know why. Last semester Nana came up with multiple shorts and poems, but now she is struggling on just one. It's so damned annoying, it is. She doesn't have a constant muse, so if any of you want to volunteer, Nana would greatly appreciate.

Since last week, Nana's been wondering something so profound, so deep and inquisical that she has to share it with all of you. It is a subject that many have sought the answer to. It spans generations, ethnicity, food preference. A topic so controversial that the pope himself band the question from any deliberation.

Yes, you've guessed it. It is the question of the origins of April Fool's day.

How is it that out of every day of the year we decided that the 1st of April will be a day that we play pranks on people and get away with it (for the most part). There is a wonder at that. Was there some deliberation as to that day? Was there some kind of solar event when it started? These and many others questions are just small parts of the mystery.

The next part is how does one choose their prank? Nana totally forgot the day was even happening. And since she was at school,in a computer lab, waiting for her psych class, no one was playing any on her. But usually she choses her pranks on opportunity and accessibility. Like going to her nearest friends house and sneaking in to rearrange their stuff and put things in the freezer. The friend in question is a big occult fanatic.

So Nana asks this, what pranks have you played or had played on you that stand out in your mind?


NNM
Irony
Balls of fury
Eyebrows

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Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Ehem...
Yes, right after Nana's oh so serious post yesterday, she will now post more things her friend sent.

Thing 1
Thing 2
Thing 3
Last

To those who don't know, Nana is a big Touhou fan. So thing 2 and 3 Nana already had before her friend sent them.

NNM
WRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!
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Monday, March 31, 2008

Doodle
Nana is back in school after her very restful and procrastinated break. It just sucks coming back to school. Waking up in the mornings, taking the bus. Nana no like.

Nana remembered what she was going to talk about last post.

During break, the topic of intimacy came up among her friends. Can't remember what started it, though. But here are Nana's thoughts.

For the most part as is with most of society, intimacy is equated with boyfriend/girlfriend, sex, love. What is usually neglected is friends and family. Intimacy, to Nana, is an amazing closeness. To be so comfortable with someone that you can not only tell them anything without much embarrassment, but also be able to lean on them when no one else is around. So a very close best friend, or sibling; that is an intimate relationship.
But, then again, what does it mean to trust someone on that level? More over, how does one get there? There are no real answers to these questions. If there were, life would be simple and things like divorce would never happen. Some times there are no real clues that tell us that we trust someone.
Nana has known her most intimate friend since high school. There are hardly and secrets and there rarely is a time when the two aren't together. It just happened one day, when Nana realized just how close they were. It wasn't any one thing. It was just this strange feeling Nana got while the two of them sat quietly on her friends back lawn. Nothing was said, nor was there any real reason for being there. But the comfort both of them felt was very strong. They say things like, "I love you" and "You are very dear to me", but the two of them aren't "going out" or in a "relationship" but they are that close, or maybe even closer.
Things like words get misinterpreted, making it possible for people to misunderstand what it means to be intimate. Nana used to let it get to her when people misunderstood her relationship with her friend, but now she really doesn't care. Now the two of then flirt like crazy and "make out" just to annoy and dirty the views of people who don't try to understand. Then later when our significant other comes around, throw those people for a loop. We are taken, yet somehow we can trust each other enough to know we aren't ever going to be serious.

Maybe someday people will understand. Nana will be waiting.


NNM
Sleepless
Summer
Till death
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Friday, March 28, 2008

Spinel
Every time Nana drives by a gas station, she just wants to scream. There is just nothing right about the prices. Nana has ranted and ranted about this since the dawn of time. Why are these corporations so intent of making everyone so fraken poor? What possible advantage could there be in that? GYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!


*Cough*

Ehem, Yes well... Moving on....

Yesterday Nana went to this German bakery near her house and has somethings to say. OMFG that shit is like so f-ing good it's not even funny. First theres the fruit and cream strudel. Made by using a traditional German recipe. Bakes fresh hourly it seems. Nana went in and the ovens were all going making something. Nana got a blueberry and cream strudel that the attendant got right from the cooling rack by the oven. Next Nana got the chocolate cream cheese bar, or as Nana calls it, the orgasm cake. Yes, the ORGASM cake. The first bite Nana took of that cake made her whole body shiver in total goodness. The first thing out of her mouth was, "Oh my god! This is freakin orgasmic!" So yes, it's that good. You can check their web site here. And if you are in the area, it is a must go.

Nana had some other things she wanted to talk about but kinda forgot them. Her bad. So this ends the post.


NNM
Batman
I see you
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

This is the best
Nana just was sent this by a friend. ZOMWTFBBQ
She doesn't have a clue what is being said but was totally rofling the whole time. If any of you speak and read Japanese, Nana would be ever grateful for a translation.

That's all.
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