Monday, June 27, 2005

Hi, guys
So, I'm back. I went to a summer camp for two weeks. You know what, AJ/Sabrina? It was seven miles south of Gainesville. :)

Anyways, sorry, but I couldn't leave any sort of notice before I left. But I AM BACK!
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Thursday, June 9, 2005

Actually.
I'm NOT gonna explain the Projects, because that's two and a half years of history, and you would all die of boredom.

Anyways, I'm single.

And, as Bast said, Eddie is not. Already.
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Wednesday, June 8, 2005

Convo Between Jessica and Eddie
So, I logged onto AllPoetry a minute ago, and had an IM from Jessica. It was a convo between her and Eddie on Chars (Jill, B, Lauren, you know what that is). Eddie is LanceRyanWilliams, Jess is Tika.


ShadowMageTika> I go by Reia now.

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "kk.."

ShadowMageTika> Eh, any advice on how to break up w/ Ben?

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "I am going 100% into the Yu Project.." -.-;

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "But!!!"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "I am not going to be seeing/talking/hearing of any of you.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> > "So don't worry.."

ShadowMageTika> ....

ShadowMageTika> Eddie..

ShadowMageTika> Do I need to start screaming at you again?

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "It's a none-deceptive manner too.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "I am not screwing with anyone head.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Anyones head.."

ShadowMageTika> We need to all hang out one day, with out me.^^;

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "What?"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> o.o

ShadowMageTika> Yep.

ShadowMageTika> We need to all hang out, with out me.

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Why?"

ShadowMageTika> *Ish self conscious*

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "The only way I am going to let oyou be around me..or Ross is if you guys come over my house.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "My mind is so screwed up right now.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "I just want to be alone in Real Life..I can do this project and turn it in to Mug and Mountain and they to me.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "2 months of goness.." > *Wants at
least a year of goneness*

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "kk?"

ShadowMageTika> "Okay. That makes it simple for it to happen with out me!"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "I have no intention to do a Yu Project on any of you.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "It's the other parts of the things in my mind I can't control.." -.-

ShadowMageTika> ..?

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "How do you think I just spammed out a Mad Man deceptive person out of nowhere??"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Yu Project 1..how do you think I did it?"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "I just wrote things down..poked at your heads."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "No..I had help from books and other people.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Who have made another person inside my head.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Permonently.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> Adbnasdba

ShadowMageTika> "Eh, then stay away from books?"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "People from books..'

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> >>;

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "And shows.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Well..yeah.."

ShadowMageTika> "No more TV, or movies, and books. Yer grounded!"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Just to tell you..if I don't get this thing out of my head..it feels like I am turning into Michelle more and more..Heh..Hah.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Nuuu!"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Get out of my head!!!"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> ::Bashes head onto the bark of the tree intill a large scar appears::

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "bunny you! bunny YOU!

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> ::Breaths a bit..:: "Pain is a good way to knock something out..an overload of pain can knock out the other things that ail you.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "As so drugs..alchohal..numbs the pain..blocks it from your mind..but come with even worse side effects.."
Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Needles..other sharp objects giveing the feeling of pain..as you can't feel from the depression..the pain of an ailing problem such as your image and personality.."


Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "The people and the things you want and cannot have.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Takeing effect and going round and round in an neverending twirling machine of pain..hitting against you everyday till you can't take it.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "You kill yourself..yourself is gone..you can't feel those pains again..and you end.."

ShadowMageTika> Right.

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "My god.." -.-;

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Look what you unleashed now.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> -.-;;;



Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Yays!"

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "I am feeling so much better now.." >>;

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Oh yeah, this is Eddward.." -.-

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Edward rather.."

Loving.Legend-LanceRyanWilliams> "Weeee, I am talking to fast.."


((Note from Jessica: Ross, Eddie wants you to stay away from him, all of us to stay away from him. For the sake of the Yu project he said it himself. As well as "You will be safe in your pretty little heads, if you stay away" Or something very close to that><))

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Monday, June 6, 2005

Ok, Ok...
So he wasn't blowing me off. His sister was using the computer and he was at Julien's house. Whatever. The rest of it still stands strong as far as I am concerned.

I'll keep you guys updated.
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Sunday, June 5, 2005

I'm Feeling Unoriginal
((This is posted directly from my blog at Melodramatic.com. I just typed up this entry there and don't feel like writing something new. Here ya go.)

Apparently, Eddie is restarting the Yu Project. Now, this came as no surprise to me, since he told me he would only be an instructor, there to make sure the mistakes of the first Project were not repeated. But, as Julia has apparently told Mina, they no longer know what Eddie is up to. He apparenly has gone renegade. This is disappointing to me, since Eddie swore that his involvement would be limited to only Instructor.

I don't care that this doesn't make sense to most of you...'cause it shouldn't. Be happy that you're clueless. I wish I were.

Eddie...well, I think that, by tomorrow, I'll probably be single again. Alas. I love him, I really do. But I have issues with being one of my best friend's boyfriend. And, you know, he loves soooo easily. And now, apparently, he's lying, AND blowing me off. Bloody brilliant.

I wrote four poems last night. It was amazing.

Done for now.

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Friday, May 27, 2005

AHHH!
I want to sky-dive!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the idea, Chii!

So, uh, Olive Garden trip didn't happen. Not a long story, just bad planning.

Instead, Beckah came over, and we watched The Grudge. We got a while into the movie, and Eddie came over, so we started it over. It had its moments, but the ending was horrible. I want my 95 minutes back.

And I also want my very own Toshio!
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Thursday, May 26, 2005

School's Out!
Happy day! Today was the last day of school, so I am officially on summer break.

My friend Beckah is on her way over pretty soon; we haven't hung out in a long time and she's been stressed, so it will be great for her. We're gonna rent a movie and party like it's 1382.

Then, tomorrow at 6pm, my friend is picking me up and I'm going over to her house until Monday afternoon. She's moving this weekend, so I'm gonna help with that. And I get to meet her little brother, finally!

This weekend will be good; it's a wonderful alternative to a weekend at a miserable music festival with the family.

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

   Invasion of the BF Snatchers?
Hahahaha, Chii, you crack me up. I love reading your comments.

And to all the rest of you, thank you, guys! I love you all to death!

Evil- I read your post about the trip and everything. It sounded like so much fun! And trust me, I understand about having to jump up when the parents walk in!

Well, Eddie is moving back to where he used to live. His mom and his mom's boyfriend are back together. I get to help them with the unpacking in about twenty minutes! I'm so psyched! First time I'll get to see him since...two weeks ago!

*hugs everyone super-duper-tight*

Chii! I miss you around AllPoetry!

Oh, hey, guess what! I had my middle school graduation on Thursday. I won an award. It's the "Principal's Leadership Award". Me and Sam (psst, AJ, that's the Jock). It's the top award that is given. I got a $100 gift certificate to the mall!

And then, yesterday, I had a mock-Model United Nations conference. I placed second, even though I had more points than the first place winner. *shrugs* Apparently my body language and the way I talk are entirely conflicting and confusing to people watching me, and that made Ginell get first. Whatever! I'm sooooo happppppyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!

-End.
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Saturday, May 14, 2005

Le Picture


This is the best picture of him (Eddie, my bf). But anyways, yeah. There he is! I lovle him.
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Oh my god, I'm so SORRY, everyone!
To all of you, I wanna apologize for disappearing for so long with no explanation!!!!!

I often have trouble keeping up the drive to use a blog for a long time. I'll be posting here more and more often. I love you all!!!

Chii, Selena, AJ, all you guys- you rock my world. You're such rad people.

Update! I have a boyfriend. His name is Eddie. I've known him for two years now. We've been together for three weeks. I'll post pictures...in about...a half hour?
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