Wednesday, June 1, 2005

What did I ever do to deserve this...?
So Henry says he never wants to speak or even hear my name any more... He told me I hurt him too much and that I am nothing to him any more...

It all hurts so bad. I don't understand what I did to him to make him do this to me...

I can't stop crying now. And I just want to die... It would solve a lot of problems for him. It shouldn't matter anyways...

I'm nothing...

So yeah... I want to die and I just want my John here for me... But he's not... I need some one here for me so baddly right now. It hurts so much. He doesn't understand that it may be making him feel better.. But this is all tearing me apart inside. I don't know how much more I can take...

-Reno-
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Monday, May 30, 2005

WHOOOOOO HOOOOOOO!!!! O_O
So... Since my last post me and Henry have broken up. We decided to still be friends, though. I meen, seriously. When you go though that much with a person, you can't help but at least try and still be friends, right? Right. So yeah. Of coarse I did my fair amount of crying through the night and afterwards, and I still will for a while. But I am surprisingly better, for the most part. Hence my quickness at moving onto John... x.o;;

Yes, John John asked me out. Yes Courtney is the one who gave him the courage to. Yes, I said yes! What do you think I am, an idiot! You don't pass up on guys like him XD Here's what he said...

John Says: Ok ok...I can do this :: gulps :: Ok...Bri I really like you...really much so...like cereal...and everytime ive tried to tell you how i feel today...my mouth feels like its stuffed with peanut butter...even when its not...so bri....you uhh...wanna go out?
Bri Bri says: -freezes for a second, and thinks-
Bri Bri says: FUCK YES!
Bri Bri says: XD

Isn't he cute? ^-^;; So yeah. Not much else going on around here. I got my report card. I PASSED GEOMETRY! w00t! I got a D! YAY! XD! But oh well, I passed and that's all that matters. Thanks you multiple choice tests. Hmmm... I guess nothing else, really. So I'll stop now. LOVE YOU GUYS! -hugs-

-Reno-
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Sunday, May 29, 2005

I had never reilised how some one can be so different once you get to know them.
Take my John John for example. Even after all that he is having to deal with lately, he still managed to take me out on a date last night. Okay... So it wasn't really a 'date'. More like a little RP where he took me out on one, but it was still AWESOME XD I have it all below. Most of it anyways. If you get confused, he starts off with ending a dance because we were on the MSN, but it froze x.o So yeah. I just thought I would share to not judge people before you get to know them. -bows- Thanks you for your time n.x;

-Reno-

John (8:38:11 PM): He finishes out the dance and leads her to the deck where prepared is a romantic shoreside candle lit dinner. As the waves gently lap against the golden sands. The cool jeweled moon stares down upon them. He walked over and pulled out her chair as a gentlemen would. He smiled and made a motion to come out::
Brianna (8:39:36 PM): -She takes in a breath as her smile widens and she goes to sit down, thanking him greatfull and looking out ot the sea, watching the waves peacfully-
John (8:40:30 PM): He pushed her chair in and went to his own. Smiling as he un covered his dinner. What else would make the occasion...STAKE....ofcourse...:::
Brianna (8:41:17 PM): Wow... -still amased as she just looks over to it, never being treated so well in her life-
John (8:43:59 PM): He also uncovered her dinner as he clapped, a bottle of chilled pink champaign arose from the floor, Why? Because I think that would be fucking awesome. He slowly poured her and himself a glass. He took the glass and swirled the champaign around some, gently taking in its sweet aroma.:: Yes. I remembered you hated fish. So it kinda limited meh x.x So I think....next best thing right? Steak.
Brianna (8:45:39 PM): You remember that? -She picks up the glass carfull, not sure if she should drink it or not still all underaged and in a good girl mood for some odd reason o-x-
John (8:46:47 PM): I think its important to remember things like that. Talk about a mood killer if someone makes you an expensive fish dinner that you hate. x.x
Brianna (8:48:17 PM): Yeah, really. Well I think that's so awesome, John. I didn't reilise you could be so caring and romantic
John (8:49:15 PM): Chuckles some.:: Thanks.
Brianna (8:50:18 PM): No problem.
John (8:52:00 PM): Would you like to take a shoreline walk after dinner?
Brianna (8:52:29 PM): -Nods a bit- Yes, that would be great.
John (8:52:52 PM): Excellent. :: He smiled some as he sipped his shampaign. ::
Brianna (8:53:29 PM): -Smiled back as she finally takes a small sip of hers with an odd look on her face-
John (8:54:06 PM): Something wrong?
Brianna (8:54:42 PM): -has never had shampaign or much alchohol in her life- Nu, I'm good X_>
John (8:55:21 PM): He chuckled some again.:: Perhaps some sparkling water would be better?
Brianna (8:55:48 PM): -Nods- Yes, please?
John (9:01:08 PM): He nodded and got up, he walked into his kitchen and returned with a bottle of fine sparkling water:: Here you go. ::: He smiled and poured her a new glass. ::
Brianna (9:01:38 PM): -She smiled back- Thank you. You don't have to treat me so nice, ya know...
John (9:02:34 PM): Very true. I don't have to, but want to. Because you deserve it.
Brianna (9:03:52 PM): No I don't, I havn't done anything for you. And you're doing all of this for me. I almost feel guilty.
John (9:06:44 PM): Don't. You have done lots of things for me. This is my way of saying thanks. Plus, I want to do it.
Brianna (9:08:17 PM): -She sighs a bit and looks up to him, some of her hair falling around her eyes- Thank you, John.
John (9:09:49 PM): He looked back at her, a simple look coming into his eyes.:: Your very welcome.
Brianna (9:10:52 PM): So, what now?
John (9:11:29 PM): Shall we take our shoreside walk now?
Brianna (9:12:12 PM): -Nods again- Yeah, that sounds good
John (9:14:14 PM): Please follow me. :: He smiled and walked down the stairs as he Offered his hand to her::
Brianna (9:15:05 PM): -She gets up and follows him, taking his hand gently-
John (9:15:58 PM): He spun her some and dipped back back. Smiling as he chuckled::
Brianna (9:16:32 PM): -She giggles a bit and smiles up to him-
John (9:16:58 PM): You are truly a thing of beauty and elligance.
Brianna (9:17:39 PM): -She laughs softly and shake her head- Yeah, sure.
John (9:18:53 PM): You are to me as the mona lisa is to picasso. Truly beautiful.
Brianna (9:19:40 PM): -She blinks and looks up into his eyes- John...
John (9:20:19 PM): He looked back into her eyes.:: Yes...?
Brianna (9:21:47 PM): -Shakes her head a bit, still smiling- Nothing. Your just so sweet. -leas up and kisses his cheek lightly-
John (9:23:24 PM): He smiled and smiled his vintage smile.:: Well I try. :: He blushes some. As he returned her from the dip. He then motioned towards the beach.:: Shall we?
Brianna (9:24:19 PM): -Nods a bit-
John (9:25:52 PM): He slowly walked along the beach Holding Bri's hand as he did so.::: It is so peaceful here....I love it...
Brianna (9:27:17 PM): I do, too. I love the ocean, or just about any kind of water in general. It's always so calming to me for some reason. -she grips his hand a it tighter as she smiles, looking out to it-
John (9:28:30 PM): He nodded some as he did too look out onto the sea. :: Yes...Almost a spiratual calm about it. That not only relaxes your psyical being, but your very soul.
Brianna (9:29:57 PM): -She leans over into him a bit as she continues to walk, nodding again- Yeah.
John (9:36:06 PM): He slowly turned around and started walking back as he gazed up at the moon:: Its amazing how something so decilent can envoke so many different and meraculous emotions into one being. :: He closed his eyes some as he walked::
Brianna (9:37:16 PM): -Cringes at all the words she did not know, but doesn't ask so she won't ruin the moment XD- Yeah... I so agree >>;
John (9:37:29 PM): xD!!!!::
John (9:38:32 PM): He chuckled some as they reached the house.:: Well...I guess thats it huh....:: He said smiling as he looked into her eyes::
Brianna (9:39:41 PM): -she looked back into his as her sparkle a bit- I guess so...
John (9:40:40 PM): I had a great time..
Brianna (9:41:09 PM): I did, too. Thank you for such a wonderfull night. I loved it.
John (9:42:52 PM): Your very welcome. Thank you for putting up with me. :: He chuckled some ::
Brianna (9:44:13 PM): -She laughs a bit- Your not too hard to put up with, ya know. Your so sweet I could be with you all the time and still not go insane
John (9:45:34 PM): Id say that is a step in the right direction huh? :: He again chuckled some. :: Indeed...I could spend all the time with you and still be sane.
Brianna (9:47:23 PM): Yeah, I would hope so. -she nods- And I highly doubt that, but we could see
John (9:48:56 PM): Nods.:: Yes.
Brianna (9:50:21 PM): -She blinks a bit and looks up to him- What now?
John (9:50:34 PM): Hmmmmm donno
Brianna (9:50:42 PM): Meh either
Brianna (9:50:42 PM): >>
John (9:50:45 PM): >>
Brianna (9:50:49 PM): <<
Brianna (9:50:54 PM): -randomness back-
Brianna (9:50:55 PM): -clings-
Brianna (9:50:57 PM): WEEEEEEE!
Brianna (9:50:58 PM): O_O
John (9:51:02 PM): WOOOOOOOO
John (9:51:24 PM): that first post was blank though
John (9:51:24 PM): xD
Brianna (9:51:49 PM): Which one?
Brianna (9:51:50 PM): <<
John (9:51:58 PM): that one too =D
John (9:52:00 PM): the one before
Brianna (9:52:04 PM): Oh
John (9:52:04 PM): randomness back::
Brianna (9:52:05 PM): Yahoo
Brianna (9:52:07 PM): I forgot
Brianna (9:52:08 PM): ><
Brianna (9:52:15 PM): )_(*
Brianna (9:52:18 PM): )_)
John (9:52:47 PM): lets finishe watching jackaline and the chocolate factory
Brianna (9:52:52 PM): YEAH
Brianna (9:52:53 PM): O_X
John (9:52:56 PM): XD
Brianna (9:52:59 PM): XD
John (9:53:49 PM): In this one part she gets like, fucked by 16 oompa loompas
John (9:53:49 PM): x_0
Brianna (9:54:01 PM): <_x Ew...
John (9:54:07 PM): x.x
John (9:54:09 PM): blankeh
John (9:54:22 PM): should go on msn::
Brianna (9:54:36 PM): Yes
Brianna (9:54:40 PM): Lets do this
Brianna (9:54:41 PM): )_)
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Friday, May 20, 2005

Whoo o.o;
I think I'm jsut gonna do some quick updates on life untill I have some more time to write stuff out.

Well, I'm still over at dads. Christopher's birthday was yesterday, he turned 14. So we went out and they saw Star Wars (--; I'm so sick of hearing of that) And me, Aisy and Lauren saw Kicking and Sreaming. It was okay, I guess. Not what I had thought. Not really worth going to. Then we went back to Jennifer's house and ate pizza and every thing, did presants and stuff like that. He got a cell phone, water gun/baloons and stuff like that. Then we came back home and I passed out XD So that was about it.

Today was the senior picnic, so there was lots of water fights and stuff and a BBQ, lots of fun. Too bad I'm not a senior XD Chris grabbed me some water, though. FROM HIS SHIRT AS HE DRIPPED IT ON MEH XD Still fun, though. Oh well. I guess not much else around here. Love ya guys!

-Reno-
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Friday, May 13, 2005

Just a quick update on my life o-o
Well, since my last post. I'm now living at dads house full time for a while. Me and mom where getting in too many fights, so she basically kicked me out. So yeah...

Only ONE MORE WEEK OF SCHOOL! THANK GOD @_@ I can't last much longer. We get our yearbooks Moanday. Yaness n.n; Well, not much else. I'm trying to get the grades up and keep them there for once, but it's not working. Oh well... Hello summer school? o-o; I hope not.

I applied for a couple jobs, but nothing big. Just the cost cutters and the new cold stones their opening. So yeah. I'll try and post more later. Love you guys!

-Reno-
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Tuesday, May 3, 2005

Girls are mean v.x
Yeah, so today was a bit off. I go to lunch to have Chelsea and Courtney come over and sit by us. I thought it a bit wierd 'till they started to explain.

Apperently Jackie, who they usualy sit with in the hall, has grown to be 'better, more popular, and prettier' for the rest of us. So she totally ditched them both. She ran off with her jockey boyfriend, Cody. I guess she thinks that since her boyfriend is on the football team, it makes her better than all of us. And that wasn't even the start of it all...

Once we go to class, she starts flirting heavily with Cody, who sits on the other side of the room from her. She then gets all the guys around her, to I guess make us jelous? o-O I don't know why. But I guess it's just because she is a total bitch --; Yeah... So then we go to the library to do some research, and she gets all over Cody some more. Her legs on him and shit. And she kept sending her minions out to find Courtney. She had left completly and when she came back, you could tell she had been crying. She came over and showed us what Jackie had put into her binder. It was a little yellow index card with STD/HIV testing info on it. She said she would need it, anyways.

And that just broke it for me. How low can you possibly get?! That was just wrong. I hate how girls are always after each other. I've done it before, myself. But nothing like that. I could never bring myself to do that. We tried to let Jackie be our friend when she first moved here, but she rejected us and ran to Courntney. They were best friends almost untill today. Brittany, Ashley and Holly all said they had a bad feeling about her from the start. I did, too, but I tried to ignor it. I hate to look at the bad in people. Especialy if I don't know them. But she is some one you don't even have to know to know she is just not right.

-sighs- So I guess that was basically the highlight of my day. Besides that I dragged myself through biology, music and geometry. And yesterday wasn't the best either. But that was just because of Dance.

We had to do suicides untill they felt we ran them fast enough. We ended up doing around 50 or so x.o Then Amanda twisted her ankle, a bunch of people couldn't breath, another got a headache, and Katt just about passed out because she was so sick. Gah, it wasn't good. I was the only one running around trying to help every one. It's just the way I am, I can't ignor a person in need. Especially if they are my friends. So I may have gotten a few points marked off for not doing what I was supposed to by Boland, but I don't care as long as my friends are all okay n.n;

But, I guess that's all, really. So I will talk to you guys later. -hugs- Byes!
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Here's a bit more of an explanation...
Time: 9:44 pm – 10:28 pm

Mood: Don’t ask… Or I may cry more…

Eating: Nothing. I’m not in the mood to eat.

Post: So I decided to at least fill you all in a bit. Not too much, or I’ll just break down and cry some more… So… Yeah.

-sighs- So on Saturday morning I wake up and hop onto the computer around 8 am or so, because I couldn’t fall back asleep. I had a horrid feeling in me that wouldn’t go away. So I did all my regular site and such, then decided to go to Henry’s xanga blog to see what was up with him. I do that once in a while since he can’t really post on the otaku any more. But anyways, I got there and the first thing that I see, in big, bold letters, is ‘my dad is dead.’ So first I just kind of sat there, perfectly still, just trying to take it in. I didn’t blink or anything. I tried to shake that away and I told Matt Matt. (No, not you, sweetie, the other Matt.) He asked me if it might be some kind of joke he was playing, but I told him most likely not. He wouldn’t be one to do that, especially not about his father. So then I tried to think of any other explanations to it, but nothing came to me, so I hopped onto the joke bandwagon and thought maybe it was just a joke. I finally got mama to come over and look. She didn’t really seem to care. All she said is to call him, so I did.

I grabbed the phone and wondered to my room almost zombie like and literally fell into my bed and just laid face down. (I do not do that very often, for those of you that don’t know. It really bothers me for some reason, I always feel like I’m going to suffocate or some thing.) I finally got up enough to call him. And then we kind of talked for a bit, but I don’t remember much, or want to I guess. But I do remember going into Mom’s room, fighting back all I could with my tears to ask her if I could go over to see him since he wanted me to.

She said no.

The one time he needs me, and she says no. She said ‘it was not an environment she wanted me around.’ YOU REALLY THINK I GIVE A FUCK!? He needed me, and she couldn’t care less! The only reason why I didn’t just flip out and strangle her was because Henry was on the other line telling me not to make her mad, because it wouldn’t help anything. I knew he was right, so I just went back to my room. Then I remember her coming into my room and telling me to get off the phone because an hour should have been long enough to talk to him. --;;! I just about exploded…She was being absolutely horrid about all of it. And her explanation was that she was trying to ‘protect me.’ PROTECT MY ASS! She just doesn’t want me to grow up. She wants me to get a job and have all these responsibilities, but when I try and handle some ting big like this, she turns me down and treats me like she did when I was four!

-shaking so bad with anger and shit, tries to calm down… whimpers- I want my Dante, or John John, or Matty, Matt Matt, Courtney… HENRY! I WANT ANY ONE! –cries-

-takes a deep breath- Okay… So then I had to hang up, and I became so stubborn. Worse than I have been in a very long time. At first I just sat there and cried until I couldn’t any more and my eyes hurt when I had them open. Then I went into my ‘I’m not talking to anyone. And if I do, you best watch out because I will chew you out and spit curses at you so fast you won’t be able to think.’ Mode. I stayed in that one for a long while. Brittany called while I was in the middle of it all, and I refused to even talk to her. One of my best friends and I wouldn’t talk to her. That’s when I knew it was bad. During all of this, though, Mom kept trying to get me out of bed. Want to know why? To look for a job… I’m bawling my eyes out, and she wants me to go look for a job!? I told her no so many times I lost count, she finally gave up I think. But she still wanted me out of bed. So she just about dragged me out and threw me in the car and I had to go shopping with her because my goddess of a mother had a date that she couldn’t possibly miss… Stupid whore… --; She needs to go get that damned vibrator out of her drawer and find some more 30-year-old guys to fuck… Fucking horrid bitch. All she wants to do is ruin my life so she can feel better about herself.. Fucking slut… -curses her out for a bit longer-

-growls- Sorry about that… Anyways. So once I got home my father, of all people, calls and said he would be willing to drive me up to Larkspur (Or however you spell it XD) to see him. I would have thought he would be the last person to do that. But then mom reminded me that Jennifer was there, so it was her idea. (It was, he told me that later on.) Anyways, so I go hop into the shower, and right after I get the conditioner into my hair. Mom bags on the door saying I have people over to see me… x.x; Hello? I WAS IN THE SHOWER! XD So I grab a robe and go out to find Brittany and Fed Ex out there waiting for me to go to the mall with them like we had planned to do. I told them I was going to Henry’s house and they understood. I’m so lucky to have friends like them…

Yeah… So I go down to Henry’s house. With dad barking rules at me the whole way there. I wasn’t supposed to get too close and such or go into the house. Shit like that. So once I got there, I ran up to him and hugged him and we stood out in the cold for a while. I kept telling him it would all get better, it was all going to be okay, and stuff like that. I had no idea what to say, otherwise. I have never had to deal with a death in my life before, so this is a first time thing for me. He just laid his head onto my chest and I think he was trying not to cry. He is always trying to be strong around me, he thinks he needs to be strong all the time because he is the husband and he needs to protect me and such. I rubbed his back and the back of his neck a bit, as I laid my head onto his shoulder. More and more people kept on coming into the driveway so we had to move out of the way. It got much better by the end. We were kind of joking around a bit, and he seem much better after I left. Or at least I hope he was.

So Sunday I didn’t really get to see or talk to him much and today he came to school. He said he just wanted to be normal, and I totally understand that one. But he has been sick lately, and I guess it got to be too much. After lunch he said he was having a really hard time seeing, like it was blurry to him. I stood right in front of him and he could barely see me. I told him he should go to the nurse, but he kept telling me he was fine. (The strong thing again, I think.) So I let it go and just went to class, but a bit into it I got a bad feeling that some thing was wrong. And I knew it was my Henry. (Stupid 6th sense ><) I just tried to focus and talk to Allie, Brittany, Krys and Tina for a bit. But a soon as class was over I rushed out to where I usually meet him and he never came. I was so worried. Then some person comes over and says that he is in the nurse’s office because he had some trouble during his last class, then just leaves. So I start flipping out and as soon as I got home I called him and he said he had thrown up and his mom was coming to get him. I knew I shouldn’t have let him go to class ><

This is a lot longer than I had planned it on being o.o; So, I’ll stop… I feel much better now that that’s al out of my system. I always do after I write these things. So I love you guys and I will talk to you later.

-Reno-

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Monday, April 25, 2005

The rain and darkness is really helping...
Time: 3:33 pm – 3:36 pm

Mood: -sighs- I don’t know any more.

Eating: Nothing

Post: Well… I don’t really feel like writing too much. So here it is.

Henry’s father passed away this weekend… And I don’t want to type all the shit out right now. So I will later if I feel the need. But that’s all for now. I love you all, bye.

-Reno-

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Saturday, April 23, 2005

I like to sleep too much XD
Time: 12:34 am – 12:51 am

Mood: Kinda tired-ish hyper o-O If that's even possible XD

Eating: California Kitchen BBQ chicken pizza n.n!

Post: I got home after school at around 3, and I passed out from 4 'till about 9 XD! That's when Mom came in a dragged me out of bed to go shopping. So we drove down to the mart of walls {Wall-mart XD) and shopped o-O We had to go down to the one in Parker, though --; This dude that is basically in love with my mom still had her sandals and CD's so we had to go pick them up. He didn't seem too happy that I was with her; I knew I should have sat in the car... v.x;

Anyways, so on the way out there, Mom decided this we be a great opportunity to make me feel like shit by having the 'I'm not ready for sex because sex = babies' talk. I hate that she waits 'till I'm alone in the car with her for that kinda shit. It's either the car or she locks me in her, or my room for it. Yeah, so she went on about how she knows I've been sneaking out with Henry lately (I HAVN'T! --;) But want to know why she 'knows'? BECAUSE THE BITCH READ MY NOTE TO DANTE!!! FUCKING WHORE! -still pissed about it- Sorry about the language. So I left it on the table by accident after I scanned it in for him, and while I was asleep, she read it. Because, apparently, she was 'cleaning off the table and found it'... --; DOESN'T MEEN YOU HAVE TO READ IT! So I basically had a bunch of shit about how I was worried because I hadn't talked to him in a couple days and how I was so bored I wanted to cry or die {XD} Then it had some shit asking him if he thinks I should go sneak out with Henry tomorrow night. {I'll put the conversation of that at the bottom} He says I shouldn't do it because I'm already in enough trouble as it is. So yeah... Now Brianna's bored and tired. So here's the conversation. Love you guys!

-Reno-

Dante (3:12:56 PM): -FARTS-
Dante (3:12:56 PM): >_>
Brianna (3:12:58 PM): v.v
Dante (3:12:59 PM): <_<
Dante (3:13:14 PM): WELL DONT BOOTY AT ME FUCK
Dante (3:13:17 PM): XD!!!
Brianna (3:13:22 PM): There’s the first one
Brianna (3:13:30 PM): I wrote it yesterday in geometry
Dante (3:14:19 PM): XD!!
Dante (3:14:22 PM): You fuckin um
Dante (3:14:27 PM): use those faces
Brianna (3:14:31 PM): I know
Brianna (3:14:31 PM): XD
Brianna (3:14:36 PM): I said that later on
Dante (3:14:41 PM): AND, it cuts off
Dante (3:14:46 PM): so I cant read it all
Dante (3:14:46 PM): o_O
Brianna (3:14:54 PM): Damn
Brianna (3:14:56 PM): Oh well
Brianna (3:15:00 PM): Just a bunch of
Brianna (3:15:03 PM): random shit
Brianna (3:15:04 PM): XD
Dante (3:16:53 PM): -shakes head-
Dante (3:16:56 PM): Don’t sneak out
Dante (3:17:00 PM): you’re already in enuff bs
Dante (3:17:01 PM): >_>
Brianna (3:17:17 PM): I know, but I think he's planning on me doing it now...
Dante (3:17:32 PM): Shiiit
Dante (3:17:42 PM): >_>;;
Dante (3:17:45 PM): -stops from yelling-
Brianna (3:18:04 PM): v.v Go ahead
Brianna (3:18:08 PM): Just do it
Brianna (3:18:13 PM): It will make me feel better
Dante (3:18:31 PM): You sure?
Brianna (3:18:39 PM): -nods.-
Dante (3:18:47 PM): Btw you write better than me
Dante (3:18:49 PM): >_>
Dante (3:18:49 PM): <_<
Dante (3:19:20 PM): And... -sigh- DONT SNEAK OUT YA ALREADY FUCKED UP WITH GRADES AND EVERYTHING PLUS YA MAMA WANT YA TO GET A JOB SO DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT YA HURR'D!?!?
Dante (3:19:22 PM): >_>
Dante (3:19:24 PM): >.o;
Dante (3:19:28 PM): o.<;
Brianna (3:19:44 PM): Okay... I'll try.
Dante (3:19:48 PM): <_<
Dante (3:19:50 PM): >_>
Dante (3:19:57 PM): Don't let the man control you gurr'l.
Dante (3:20:06 PM): Tell him to stop frontin' like a gay pimp.
Dante (3:20:10 PM): Tell it right, girl.
Dante (3:20:18 PM): >.o;
Dante (3:20:19 PM): <.o;
Dante (3:20:22 PM): o.<;
Brianna (3:20:24 PM): -sighs- Just go fuck your new girl already...
Dante (3:20:29 PM): o.>;
Dante (3:20:31 PM): o_o
Dante (3:20:33 PM): Omg
Dante (3:20:35 PM): she came onto ME
Dante (3:20:38 PM): o_o;
Dante (3:20:51 PM): Besides
Dante (3:20:57 PM): I missed talking to you
Brianna (3:20:57 PM): All right, you’re the one who said you had 5 minutes. So go already...
Dante (3:21:02 PM): o_O;
Brianna (3:21:05 PM): I missed talking to you to
Dante (3:21:07 PM): My ride isn't here yet.
Brianna (3:21:10 PM): Okay
Dante (3:21:27 PM): Mom said in five minutes she gonna drop me off at my 'uncles' house
Brianna (3:21:41 PM): Tay
Dante (3:22:16 PM): Bri?
Brianna (3:22:32 PM): Mmhmm?
Dante (3:22:40 PM): -tackles, tickles-
Dante (3:22:42 PM): XD
Dante (3:22:44 PM): TACKLE TICKLE
Dante (3:22:44 PM): XD
Brianna (3:22:50 PM): -laughs-
Brianna (3:22:51 PM): o-o

I told him to go fuck his new girl, because apparently he got a new girlfriend. And he’s already fucked her for ‘three days straight’ as he said. I guess that just made me a bit jealous. NOT because of the sex XD, but just because it’s still hard to think of him with some one else when he and I were so into each other for the longest time. And he told me the other day that still does like me a bit. But I just don’t know anymore.... -sighs-
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Wet cement... Must resist temptaion... @_@...
Time: 5:04 pm - 5:38 pm

Mood: I wash all hyper, then I wasn't, then I wash again o-O and now it's kinda gone XD

Eating: Chicken Ramen n.n!

Post: FUCK IT! -runs out side-

-comes back- It already dried mostly, so it won't work --; Damn it... Oh well, I bet you anything my ones back in Reno in front of my old house are still there n.n; Heh {Another reason to move back there in a couple years, Henry =o} Oh yes, me and Henry decided to move back to my old house in Reno since it's so totally awesome! -cough, cough- You guys dun care, so I'll get on with it... o-o

Now then, sorry I couldn't post yesterday, like I said I would. Major cleaning was being done because the loan lady was coming by to look at the house so we can get a bit more money. We barely have anythig right now x.x; Dad spent it all... Okay, so besides the cleaning, yesterday wasn't the best of days... x.o;

First, I go to biology and Mr. Campbell was in a bad mood to begin with. And our class never shuts up, so he finally flipped and started yelling at us. Eyes bulged out and everything. Then music was okay, didn't do much. English we had to watch this horrible movie called The Power of One, or some thing like that. It deals with rasism in South Africa in the 30's... I think it was the 30's, I'm prolly wrong, though. Anyways. So it's about this cute little british kid who has to go away to bording school with all these german kids during the times of hitler and shit because his mother is insane, his father died thee weeks before he was born, and his grandfather lives in the outback of Australia or some shit. But here's just a list of some of the scenes...

1) PK {That's the kids name} gets pee'd on by these three older kids.
2) He gets spit on by one of them.
3) He has a pet chicken, and they hang it up and kill it right in front of his while they punch him in the nose and wipe his blood over his arm.
4) They hang him up by his ankle and throw sharp rocks at him and you see how he is bleeding and shit. THE KID IS ONLY SEVEN YEARS OLD!!
5) His mother dies while he is gone in bording school, so he has to lie with his grandfather who hates kids and sends him to live with one of his friends who gets captured and put in jail.

And that's where we ended for the bell... We have to watch more tomorrow... Not looking foward to that. Alli and Amanda said they left because it was just too much for them. {They have the class before Brittany, Ash, Fed Ex (Aka - Holly) and I, so we know what to expect.} Yeah, so that wasn't fun. Then Mrs. Ballard, my geometry teacher, decides she wants a new rule, that she won't start class untill everyone is there and she will be counting minutes for people who are late for all of us to stay after. {So if one kid is ten minutes late, that's how long we ALL have to stay after for... --;}

-sighs- I know, I'm being negative and shit. I'm sory. But there's just one more thing. {Besides dad yelling at me for 5 hours when I got home to clean this, or that.} I guess Henry thought I was kidding Monday night when I told him I was bi. So when I wrote him a note to say I was sorry for not telling him or some thing, he flipped...

Oh yeah, and in case you didn't figure it out from my last post. Yes. I am bisexual. o-o; I didn't think it would be too shocking to every one I've told so far. But I guess it is. I must hide it well, or some thing XD Anyways, so he said it was like -gets her note and quotes it-

"... That was like a 18-wheeler slamming into me. First it was shock. I thought you we're just being cute with your John-John. Now I see that your... Not."

Yeah... So that made me feel like shit... He was dissapointed I hadn't told him sooner. And I still hate myself for that fact. It's just not the easiest thing to slip into a conversation, though. You can't just go.

"Oh hi baby! -smiles- And how was your day? Oh, by the way. I like both guys AND girls. -kiss-"

XD Of coarse that's some thing Dante or John would want me to say, but I'm just not like that. I was actually gonna have John John tell him for me, and he was gonna be all...

"Bri's Bi. >-> Have a cookie."

XD!!!

Yeah, so that wasn't good. And after school we got into this thing where he didn't belive that I really am. He stated questioning me, and saying "I must not be bi because 'so-and-so says or does this' so you must just be lying." Yeah... So I opened up and told him some thing that was eating away at me inside, and he shoots me down. I was so scared to even tell him in the first place, I thought he would just up and leave me... I was shaking so baddly when he found out by himself on the ftj. {Face the Jury.}

-sighs again- So now I'm just dragging on about shit you guys dun even care about, so here's today.

It was a HELL of a lot better than yesterday.

-bows-

XD Bye ya'll!

-Reno-
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