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Thursday, December 30, 2004

I feel so... Empty... Like some thing is gone... And I can't find it...
That's really how I feel right now... I'm not quite sure why though... It's hard to explain... I've tried all I can think of to try and feel beter... But it seems to be making it worse...

My satus on the MSN right now is 'Brianna; Why does my heart feel like it's been ripped out and stompped on... Repitedly...'

:: sighs ::

Sorry you guys, I know I'm not fun to be around when I'm like this... I guess one reason is all of the death that has been happening lately. Like how Pawpa, Matt's father, the one I just went up and met a week or so ago, has just had a stroke... And they don't think he will make it... So I just met him, and now he may die... And this is just making me think back to Kyle and every thing that happened to him. Then there's the thing with Matt's sister. (( The one here, not with me in Colorado )) I don't know how he does it. I don't see how you could possibly get over some one's passing who was so close to you that quickly. I admire his strength in that so much right now... I would never in my life be able to do that. And he already knows I would just go sit in my dark corner with a pile of sharp pointy objects to throw at people who came near me... (( Inside joke I guess... ))

And I guess another thing is the same thing I've been kinda depressed about all week... And I guess it's just begining to build up on itself. It's still just that I wish I had some one, too... Almost every one around me seems to be in love with some one... And they love them back... It's hard because it almost feels like I don't have that... I don't have any one to just hold me and tell me every thing is going to be alright when some thing bad has happened... I don't have some one to just be there for me and hang out with when I get bored... I don't have some one to tell me they love me, and truely meen it... I don't have any one like that... Or at least that's how it feels...

:: sighs again ::

I'm sorry I'm being all depressing and shit right now you guys... I guess I'll just stop before I get to in depth into things and screw some stuff over in my life even more... So... Yeah... Bye all...

~Reno~

P.S -- Happy birthday, Henry. Sorry for the post... :: huggles :: I hope your haveing a good day at least... ^^"
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