Sunday, April 17, 2005

I can't think of nothing XD
Time: 6:57 pm - 7:30 pm

Mood: A hell of a lot better then she was an hour ago.

Eating: Nothing.

Post: Yeah, yeah, yeah. I decided to try this whole time, mood, post thing for once. If I like it I’ll continue. If not, then I won’t. Simple as that. Now then. my day has been an absolute roller coaster of feeling. I’ll start from last night.

I ended up not going to the after-prom. At first, Dad said I could go, and I was so excited! But then, right as I’m getting out of the shower to get ready, he pulls me out of my room and tells me he is having second thought about the whole thing. My heart just dropped. I knew what he was heading for, and I didn’t like it. I tried all I could to try and convince him to still let me go, but to no avail. He said he wanted to do the ‘responsible’ thing, and not let me go. He said I should have told him sooner. But I had no chance to. I was at moms and then he worked to ten the night before. I didn’t have any chance to even if I wanted to. So I ran off like a fucking 10-year-old to my room, and cried my eyes out. After I calmed a bit, I decided to call Henry and tell him. I felt horrible for ruining it, it was all my fault. No matter how many times he said it would be okay, I just couldn’t bring my stubborn self to believe him. We hung up at around midnight, and I passed out still crying a bit. I woke up around 11 and rolled out of bed and got onto the computer, feeling much better about the night before.

I got to talking to my regular people {Dante, Matt and John} and I was having fun. But then it kind of blew up in my face... I started joking around with Matt as he Rp’d with one of his characters, Alyx, and I was in mine as Maryl. Well anyways, I was being my stupid self and ‘chibi fuck’, as I put it at the time, Alyx. {No. I didn’t go into detail XD I just kind of did my normal ‘-fucks- o.o’ thing. {Yes, I am a weirdo, AND PROUD DAMN IT n.n!} But then Matt got into it, and I, being the idiot I am, decided to play around and said she was prego. {Prego = pregnant, not the pasta sauce XP} So then, he’s all ‘You can do that?’ And I’m just ‘It’s an RP, you can do anything XD’ Then he’s just like ‘SWEET.’ And, well, you guys don’t really care, so I’ll make this short. I told Darkk, {Maryl’s adopted father, one of Dante’s characters.} that she was pregnant, and he flipped out. And after they all got into a fight, he disowned her.

After that whole ordeal, I decided to call Henry to just get my mind off of it for a while. He said he was up at Red Robin and was about to go get his hair cut. I told him I could go meet him down there if he wanted, and he said yes. So I got ready and walked down to the ‘mar of walls’ {XD} to find him. He kept looking over his shoulder to make sure his parents weren't coming as we wondered around the store a bit. Around the shoe isle, his phone ring with his sister, Lu, on it saying the ramp broke and he needed to come fix it. So I said I would just wait there while he went. About 10 or 15 minutes later, he found me wondering through the bags because I got bored of the shoes. We went down and got him into the hair-cutting place and he got his hair cut. {=o What a shocker there.} Afterwards we wondered a bit and went down to the hair coloring isle to look at red dye for my hair. He still had little bits of hair all over him because she didn’t really brush him off to well after she was done. I just told him to take a shower when he got home and he said I should join him {I wish ^-~... XD!} Anyways, so we wondered around there and the fishy isle for a few minute before his phone rang once more, telling him he had to go. So we said our good byes and I walkededed back home. I got there and popped a frozen chicken patty thing in the microwave and wondered back upstairs to go back and see how every one was doing. Now here’s the fun part... --;

I come on to find that Dante and Matt are in a huge fight, with Dante wanting to kill Matt. Of coarse I try and play the ‘good friend’ and get them to make up. But I ended up being the go-between since Matt apparently iggied all of Dante’s SN’s. Then Dante said he was going to put a hit out on Matt, and I was screaming at him not to do it. I just wish he would learn that getting his friends to kill some one he gets in a fight with every time he’s mad won’t solve anything. So I’ll make this short again. By the end I’m crying my eyes out and shaking in John’s arms as he tries to calm me down and tells me not to get my knife because if I did he would too. Then Dad kicked me off and I had to leave, hopping against everything that they are all still alright. I’m typing this on my MS Word right now because Dad has the phone line. I’m waiting for him to get off so I can see what happened.

I guess that’s all really. I know no one really read this all because no one cares, but oh well. It helps me a lot to at least get it out there... Bye all.

-Reno-

PS - This is just some thing else I think may help me a bit...

Dante

Met: About five or so years ago in an RP room.

Fondest memory(s): He’s gonna hate me for this one, but one of the one that sticks out in my mind right now is the day he told me how he felt for me. I was crying and he just held me to him. I miss when we used to be like that, actually. He knows what I’m talking about, I guess it’s just hard to explain.

-sighs- Some times I think he just lies to me about every thing that he does/is doing. But others I believe him with all my heart. He is one of the best friends I have ever had. No matter how badly he may treat me, I’ll always run back to him. Because I know that he does love me. I guess it’s just hard to think of how we once were, and how we are now. Some times I wish I could just go back in time to right before I started going out with Henry. Right when he told me how he felt for me. How amazing he made me feel all the time and how he would treat me and make me laugh. I guess part of me just thinks we’re still like that. But it’s so different now. I’m not sure what to do about any thing with him any more...

John

Met: About a year or so now, also in an RP room

Fondest memory(s): Any time he is just there for me. Making me laugh or lifting my spirits when I’m down.

Ahhh... n.n; My John John. Always the sweetest thing to me. He’s always there for me when I need him. He’s such a funny, nice, and caring guy. I’m glad I bugged him so much that one night about himself. Other wise I don’t think we would be as close as we are now. He is the one who I seem to be running to lately with every thing I need help with. And I know he will just bare with me and help me through it. He’s one of the greatest people I have ever met, and I pray I never loose him.

Matt

Met: Through Dante. He made him one of my characters, Reno, and Blaze’s first son, Rage.

Fondest memory(s): Any time we get to mess around and just be stupid n.n; It’s always fun to talk to him.

He’s such a great guy ^^ Always so funny and usually in a happy mood. It hurts me when he is down, though. I hate to see one of my friends sad or even angry for that matter. I don’t quite know him as well as I do Dante and John, but I’m doing what I can to fix that n.n; I love to talk to him, he laughs at my joke and then makes some of his that are quite funny usually. I wish I ha more to say, but I think my brain just died x.o Oh well... -blonks- XD!

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