Monday, May 2, 2005

   100%
well i drew this last night and i dont know if its better tehn the others but this is 100% original unlike the others where i copied by eye. this is just a sad girl that i had to draw. i felt really happy and yet at the same time extremely sad and because this revolves around a girl i know.... well... actually at least 4... i wont say what was going on. anyways so it motivated me to draw a beautiful girl who was very sad. anyways please tell me if you like it and tell me what you think of it compared to earlier works. any and all coments are greatly appriciated. thank you


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Thursday, April 28, 2005

   im back!
well ive been sick lately and couldnt go to school so i couldnt post (myo still isnt working right on my comp but its getting there). ill try and post more lately but theres not too much i can do. busy alot lately. also you should all be glad to know that im not so depressed anymore! -.-... XD! anyways michelle-chan (who knows how she did this) knew i was depressed and im always happy when i talk to her and she lives across america! we dont talk on the phone or anything so she could tell with aim and me acting happy. anyways she asked me to at least try to be happy so im trying and all. its not very easy but w/e. i promised her and im gonna do it! XD! well i have to go to class. *insert string of cuss words here* moms here to pick me up. ;-; save me!!!

ja matte ne^^
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Monday, April 18, 2005

   well...>>...
i dont know what to post because i cant remember what ive already told you...>> i tested! ^^ (if i told you any of this already too bad shut up and listen =P ^^)sensei had us (me and sue)do about 10 techniques each (nerve racking). then he told us "ok whether you pass or fail depends on this next technique!" he gave sue an unbelieveably easy one called sasei tsuri komi ashi (sp?)(i think thats the name. ill tell you what it means later if you remind me. righ tnow im in a hurry and dont have the translation memorized.) anyways its a mouthful but its insanely easy. he gave me harai goshi (same as before). thats also insanely easy but i havent practiced it in quite a while >
what now.... oh! testing starts 2maro!!! >< (think of evil mom...>>) im skrewed...

well ive been playing lots of UT2k4(unreal tournament 2004: multiplayer online first person shooter that completely 0\/\/|\|Z) at Web Warriors II (so-so place around where i live that lets you play on the comps with a few good games for not to bad prices). only problem is that i have UT2k4 so it pisses me off that i have to play it down there because my computer is too slow. i need to get my comp redone and quick.

well im going to go now because i have 5 minutes to get back over to the school >>....

ja matte ne ^^
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Friday, April 15, 2005

...
ok so yesterday the day is going pretty dam good. i got a beautiful picture from chelsea, got to have fun wih all my friends, got to roll in the grass and feel like a kid, etc., etc. but then at the end of the day it got f-ed.... so i new i should go and have a good time with my friends. all of my good judgement told me to. i had spanish yesterday and thought it was "wrong" to go out and have fun with my friends instead of going to class. goddess take me now...

so i turned down going prom dress shopping with my friends (i would have gone dress shopping, yes...-.-...) and instead got to get slapped by my mom and kicked out of the car 15min away from the school. the school is an hour 15 min away from my house so im not 1.5 hours away from my house, carring a large backpack that i think skrewed up my shoulder, not completely sure where to go to get back to the school, etc.etc. i dont think i need to go on. anyways so ya that wasnt good. i took a wrong turn for about 30 min then asked for directions and turned back. goddess my feet are killing me... ya i eventually got home but god yesterday sucked with all that happening... thank you rakuda, cat, and kelsey for all your help yesterday.

so now onto the topic of today:

i am wearing eyeliner...

cat made me wear it... everyone likes it ^^;;;. ya it was aweful having it on tho cuz i couldnt rub my eyes or anything. i mean i didnt want to smear it and walk around all day with smeared make up on... that would suck... but ya so i didnt know how to take it off and cat said it was really good stuff that would last like 2 days i think she said...;-;. and i have my belt test tonight! im gonna be looking like this at judo!

speaking of belt test:

i failed.

i already know it. plain and simple. i am not ready. but im gonna try... goddess please help me and everyone PLEASE WISH ME LUCK!!! im really gonna need it!
=(

thank you all and i must go now

ja matte ne^^
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

   dont speak!
ok well today is the day of silence. today ppl go without talking to protest against the unfair treatment of lesbians, gays, political parties, religions, races, etc., etc. its really kinda cool. i got to walk around school and everywhere today with tape over my mouth and ppl thought i was gay (the gay strait alliance made this a big thing at our school so ppl only think of it as something against the treatment of gays and lesbians.) but ya i made the mistake of using duct tape so this wont end well ^^;;; but anyways in a couple minutes (thats why im hurrying) im off to the dr.'s office for a shot! and even though this was something mainly for school im doing it all day long! ^^! im also gonna try to do it 2maro i think. i dont know its not hard for me not to talk. its hard to get my friends to let me not talk ^^. but ya it was cool because i had spanish today!!! >< XD!!! i was the only kid in there doing this and i couldnt talk! we do alot of singing in my class and im just sitting there like "you could give me a hand out or something....>>...." but i couldnt talk to tell that to anyone!!! >< lol ^^ its hard but its worth it and its kinda fun ^^ anyways its 1:39 now and i need to get out of here for the shot at 1:40 so ya i must go ;-;... i hate needles...><

oh well im still working on my comp so if theres any reason i can post again today i will ^^.

ja matte ne^^
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005

   im sry! plz frgv me!!! i want to keep all my body parts plz!!! ;-;
plz dont kill me! i swear im not trying to neglect my myo but my comp at home wont let me on for some reason and until i get it to work i can only use it after school on certain days ;-; it sux so bad ><

i cant post well here... (library) it doesnt feel right... sometimes i get to use the comp at my moms work. thats not so bad but it still sux.

well lets see. what have i been doing lately inn case anyone cares. well i did my first essay in a long time... i havent done one sence the begining of the school year. not to say they havent been assigned but just that i didnt do any. it sucked and didnt go by the guidelines at all but oh well i did more work then he asked for, i shouldnt have had to do it in the first place, and i actually did some research on mine. if hes got a problem with it he can kiss my 455.

ive been getting more and more depressed lately. everyone knows it. i tell them im fine but they all know its not true. they all read this so you might wonder why im saying it on here. well thats because when i get depressed i just dont care. but ya so im not 100% sure why im so dam depressed. i have alot of it figured out but not all of it. maybe ill make a list of reasons why when i get home just to try and figure it out (a) actually i probably wont b) no im not saying what any of the problems are anyways.)

i got recruited for the dance competition thing... its swing dance and i dont dance... i ddr... oh well i think im getting the hang of it... the bad thing is that im paired with freshy (quite possibly the best swinger there.) but w/e i'll get over it. maybe ill try and find a way to get really depressed right b4 the competition so that i dont worry about stage fright as much... lots of ppl dont like to be depressed but i find that it helps out alot. makes it easier to see.

id type more because theres more to tell but my moms here and i have to get to spanish (evil class of doom out to suck my soul!)

OW! she just flicked me! *rubs head*

ok gtg.

ja matte ne ^^
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Thursday, April 7, 2005

   my piccy
hey i drew this but its not original (saw the pic on gaia about a year ago) so im not putting it in the fan art section. i know it sux but hey im getting better...kinda...sorta...in a way....>>....maybe....GAH!!!! ^^;;; tell me what you think.


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Wednesday, April 6, 2005

   KOS-MOS piccys!!!!
yay i finally found out how to use photoshop and will use that for my site now ^^.\/\/007!

in case you didnt notice im now KOS-MOS themed ^^. im now gonna TRY (<- keyword there)to put on pictures ^^ tell me what you think ^^

KOS-MOS!!! ^^


kawaii!!! ^^ i wish i could draw like that....O.O


angel KOS-MOS!!!


^^this is kawaii, nai?


shes so pretty ^^ *also wishes he could draw like that!**wish wish wish*


this is just cool and you may have already noticed it elsewhere ^^

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Monday, April 4, 2005

   note to self
the song mersadee wants i think is: take me out by franz ferdinand.
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   virus=big wonderfully horrible buddy of doom! ^^
i havent been able to do anything on my comp cuz i got a virus...O.O... im not even on it now. im on my moms laptop. i hate being on other peoples comps... well... there are a few exceptions... very few... anyways so ya it attached itself to my startup file so whenever i start up it restarts. pretty cool huh? ^^. god theres something really wrong with me to find that cool...

i watched storm of the century for the first time last night! ^^!!! it was SOOOOOO COOL!!! the devil on it was the BEST! i wanna like dress up as him for halloween and then go around to all the uber idiot christians around here (i didnt call all christians idiots i called those christians idiots... theres a difrence...>>...) and say "give me what i want and i'll go away." and when they ask what im supposed to be ill be sitting there like "im the devil O.O!" ^^;;; ya im pathetic ^^. goddess that movie was so good though ^^.

so most of the swelling from my wisdom teeth is gone but i still cant open my mouth completely... actually i cant open it very much at all... ;-;

my cousin lee had an accident... a bad one... i big one... ouch... she was playing baseball with her boyfriend and well... she pitched it, he hit it, it hit her... shes lucky she didnt die... it hit her right up around the eye... she got very lucky. she didnt even go blind in that eye thank goddess. but it did leave its mark... the ball broke her nose and shatterd alot of her face. she's going to need facial reconstructive surgury... she wants to get it done now so she can get better but they have to wait for the swelling to go down and her to be able to open her eye again.

i must take my leave now ^^;;; you probably dont want to read anymore anyways ^^.

ja matte ne^^
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