Friday, March 18, 2005

live long and prosper (did i even spell that right?!?!?)
ok well no one seems to be around on the net anymore besides my friends here. i feel so loneyly ;_;. i think i need a hug! ;_;

anyways so plz ignore the message about things that ive been doing i was not all weird that night... basicly dont read it and if you already have read it then frgt you read it ^^. i would erase it or edit the things i dont want out but im too lazy...>>...

so ya... judo 2night... yay... i go to judo l8ly and i feel like my sacred haven is being invaded by ppl who should be in karate! (judo and karate dont match) judo beats the shit out of ppl (when they attack first usually) and karate beats the shit out of boards and bricks... see what im saying? but like my closest friend there, cami-chan, is being all mean to me (she is always mean to me when she has a bf but nice to me when shes single...) and its really pissing me off. but alas! i shall grin and bear for i will be the one to reach my jr. rank black belt (i hope)!!! and we are getting all these n00bs in the dojo which is nice (i get to practice my teaching skillz) but when i try and teach them stuff they arent paying attention. *quotes chester from LP: "o/'SHUT UP WHEN IM TALKING TO YOU!!!! o/'" ^^*. but ya so im trying to teach them something and theyre like "well wouldnt this be more effective?" "yes that would be more effective if you dont mind going to jail!" im trying to teach them gentle stuff that wont kill ppl and isnt that mean (they arent good enough for the mean stuff yet) and all they care about is hurting ppl! theyre freaking 455|-|0135!!! and on top of everything else my friend rachel is leaving! ;_;! she is moving to NY and leaving me with all those baka. she was the only other blue belt in the class and as such the only one i could practice with easily and well. cami-chan is almost blue but i cant work with her. she has a really weak neck so the slightest pressure on the neck puts her in LOTS of pain so i cant do chokes and she wont throw me for goddess knows why so i cant practice my falls and see how the throw looks from the uke's perspective (lots of ppl dont like to get thrown but i find that it helps me perfect my throw. go figure.) so then theres james (evil green belt whos a complete asshole) who treats everyone like dirt and is now going after a girl i like (yuki-chan, the uber cute japanese exchange student) which means basicly nothing to me except that now both him and her are taking up mat spance rather then working! if they want to be all over eachother then go in the freaking bathroom like he did cami! sensei seems annoyed with me for some reason. dont know why. basicly everything about judo is going downhill so fast i cant think and i dont no what to do! if i try and make myself cold to get passed it then no one will leave me the hell alone because they think that im sad or mad at them! that may be true in some cases but if i wanted to talk id confront them! i mean i dont mind that they care, but when i tell them i dont want to talk about it or that nothings wrong then that means drop it!i only have a few select friends that im willing to EVER confide in and i dont even confide in them all that much (if i can help it) but omg!

anyways im done whining. thats a whole hell of alot of ranting *scrolls up....wow....O.O...* oh well im gonna go and.... w8... ive got nothing to do! what should i do? i just noticed that while im here at the library now. im sitting right next to the martial arts books. ^^. they have a few judo books. ^^ now i will depart and leave you with a nice quote ^^ feel free to guess what its from ^^.

ja matte ne ^^

"'yes i eventually had to go down to the cellar.'
'thats the display department!'
'with a torch...'
'the lights had... probabaly gone...'
'so had the stairs...'
'well you found them didnt you!'
'ya, i found them at the bottom of a locked filing cabnit in a disused lavatory with a sign on the door saying 'beware of the leopard'. have you ever considered going into advertising?'"

that was from memory i hope i got it right ^^;;
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