Monday, February 27, 2006

hey all.
hey. yes im still here. try as you might you cant get rid of me. you can only chase me away for a little while. anyways. well judo at the jc is going good. im getting really good. um... did i ever mention that me and some others are working on maybe breaking off from floogelmisen because theyre being assholes? we'll still be floogelmisen but we'll be the real floogelmisen, going back to what it originally was meant to be.

ive been listening to alot of Brand New. they are my favorite band and normally i tell people that my favorite is LP but theyre actually my second fave. normally i keep Brand New to myself but ive decided to be a good fan and spread the music. im probably going to get a song and put it up on here. theyre lyrical gods. hell thats even putting it lightly. one of my friends described them as something like "my chemical romance but with a purpose!" lol. she has a way with words.

i started reading Survivor by chuck palahnuik the author of fight club, lullaby, choke, invisible monsters, and haunted. i think thats all his books. whatever anyways im only on like... page 287 and im already hooked. lol the book starts at chapter 47 and ends at chapter 1, you know, backwards. so im on the equivilant of page three.

um... looks like im finally done with mia. i got pissed and finally told her off. like not normal tell off but i REALLY told her off. so yeah i think its over but i told her basicalyl the same thing i tell her everytime. "you know how to contact me. do so if you want to be an actual friend." i dont know why. i guess i was feeling bad for telling her off quite that harshly but then again everything i said was true and i could tell she knew it was true. she was sitting there insulting me. i never insulted her i just told her off. i may have insulted her once. she had nothing on me. i had been trying to make our friendship work. she hadnt. whatever it doesnt matter. i dont know if she'll come back. if she does or doesnt it doesnt matter. im not taking her back as my friend until we sit down and talk civily(sp?) about all these fucking problems. goddess its so annoying. whatever it doesnt matter.

well... saturday is johns b-day and im anything but ready. i still dont know if i can trust him about any of this. more and more is happening that is just like... like he wants to get in my pants and its fucking pissing me off. whatever it doesnt matter. im getting to the point where i hate all life. *sigh*

started playing RF Online. it kicks ass. im going to write a story about it. maybe if its good someone will buy it. if it hits 300 pages then thats usually a good book sized story. dude that would be nice. im not talking fanfiction i want to actually write a full damn story.i dont know i need to find out more about the story of all this.

i think im gong to play rf now. i want to kill things. as i play im going to jot(ive never typed or written that word before... did i spell it right? hmm... whatever... doesnt matter) down some ideas for the story. anyways see you later.

love you always
~neko-chan
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