Tuesday, April 4, 2006

   hey ^^
well its today (you: no shit! me: leave me alone *cries in corner*) and i just got back from judo at the JC. my parents gave me the first of my birthday presents while they're still waiting for the loan to go through so thye have some money to BUY presents. i told them i dont need anything but they dont listen. anyways im quite happy with my gifts ^^.

1) Disturbed ~ Ten Thousand Fists
2) Panic! At the Disco ~ A Fever You Can't Sweat Out
3) The Who ~ Quadrophenia (ive never heard the who but theyre supposed to be good and my dad said it's like a rock opera so it should be pretty cool ^^)
4) Myst 10th Anniversary DVD Edition ^^!

yeah its all prtty cool but i cant play myst till my comp gets back. it turns out my powersupply is probably fine. the truth is far worse... it turns out my motherboard got fried ;-;... we used the warenty(sp?) and i should have it back in 2-4 weeks (after not having it for a month...) but alas that comes not without problems! they are going to try and keep my 70gigs of data in tact but no promises... thats years of work, pictures, projects, etc, that if lost, is irreplaceable. theres a pretty shit chance of me getting my data back but... i have hope... after all that's all i really can have right? oh well. so at the concert on friday we got a red medal (second best) and sunday the all men's chior i saw was chanticlear(sp?) which is a group of 12 guys ranging from base to countertenor. they were and are amazing. what really amazed me was the first song they sang was the first song i sang: Jubilate Deo. then the 3rd song they sang was the 2nd song (title: a boy and a girl) chambers sang at CMEA(the friday concert)except they sang the ENTIRE song which must have been like 12 minutes and had a HUGE ending with overtones that left the crowd in shock and ended with standing applause. after that for two songs they proceeded to sound like birds XD goddess it was amazing. i think im going to die early. then after they finished they left and we clapped till they came back out and bowed again and left again clearly not wanting to do an encore and we clapped and cheered until they came back out AGAIN! and we FORCED them to sing us one last song ^^!

before they started i had gone to the bathroom. i find them and theres this swarm of girls out there and its like O.O!!! i mean there wasnt a single guy but me and all these girls. kinda creepy really. so then i head to the mens and a girl stops me, "sorry theres a girl in there already" im like wtf? and then two dudes from chanticlear come out. first off id like to point out im in San Francisco when this is going on. so the girl comes out and we all go in. there's two stalls. they both take one and i wait and its silent then they get out and start washing their hands as i go in one. its all quiet except the sound of the water running in the sink and all of a sudden they both break out in song! the bird song no less! i jump and am like HOLY SHIT! but dont say anything and with my awesome ninj4 skillz dont make a sound and then they stop after about 15 seconds. then in a very strong gay accent (there is a gay accent, you know its true) one says (i think hes an alto, which is a girls range and its where i want to sing), "omg i recorded myself the other day singing that. why didnt you tell me i suck?" the other was a little lower (tenor i believe) and not as strong of a gay accent, "you dont suck" "yes i do!" then they leave and im left in there like O.O "i really am in SF...."

well ive been sleeping almost the entire time that ive been home lately and ive had three long dreams. each more annoying then the last and each less scary then the last. im not sure which i prefer. the first had me stranded in sr during a nazi takeover and because i look clearly jewish in everyway but my nose (thank god)and im sitting there avoiding the nazi's that basically have complete controle and i while i'm trying to blend in seeing all these people just get picked out of a crowed because theyre jewish and shot on the spot. they didnt notice me and then i noticed Mia. i tried to get away as she left (shes clearly not jewish and as such safe) so i try and go to her hoping she can protect me. she's leaving and doesnt see me. suddenly im pulled aside by a nazi and they want to make an example of me with some fucked up invention. i see her enter a garage of some house. i think im going to die and really turn out to just be another statistic. ill die a worthless death after living a worthless life. anyways so theres a crowed of jews watching and im about to die as nothing more then an example. i think "what example? what are you trying to prove? to say? nothing! you just want an excuse to take out pent up rage, you fuckers!" now after a long mental torture of waiting to die as they talk and try and get this machine to work im finally about to die and then in front of me, behind them, a jew is running and making an excape from another group so this group leaves me and runs off to stop them. i, now with the first tears ive cried in... goddess ive lost count of the years, i run to the house where mia went and the garage she entered was still open and i run to it but it begins to close and i run with all my might and i get there just as it closes and i bang on it and call to her to save me. and finally after a little bit of pounding and calling to no avail i fall to the ground crying. then i wake up... the mia part was what i found annoying and you can understand why i was scared. the two i had today were less scary. the first was all about mia which annoyed the hell out of me. the next thankfully had nothing to do with her except a little in the start then went to me in a rat race to LA and getting lost and having urges to help people change their life around, saw a girl crying and i went and talked to her and she helped me a little and then this guy needed some help so i tried to help a bit and thats when the dream got bloody weird. he was a bloody willard and called all these black rats for me to RIDE on down to bloody fresno! a friend caught up to me and then when we got there there was an ambulence and i saw her leg and it was all purple around the knee and just 4 words, "we have to amputate" then they held her down and i'm in shock and they take this huge curved knife and jam it into her leg and rip all the way down the leg and then take a saw and start cutting. im in shock and want to stop them but cant move. im ready to cry and cant stand seeing her in this pain and all the gore and these people hurting her for goddess knows why and i cant even breath im so frozen in place. i wake up and lie in bed frozen like that for fifteen minutes slowly regaining life with those last haunting images stuck in my head. i regain my ability to breath after about 3minutes of lying there paralyzed. after 10 i can open my eyes. by fifteen i can move but barely. i regain normality at 20. *sigh*. life is just grand, no? oh well anyways im tired and have to go to bed. i need to appologize to people for not seeing them on friday. till we meet again.

love you all
~neko-chan
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