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Wednesday, March 17, 2004

Project Entry
It's easier for me to type than write, so I'm typing.

The special food I have to buy for this project is a good deal better than I expected, although it also costs a good deal more. I certainly got my money's worth from Mark Pi's though. So far it's not all that gut wrenching or mind breaking, trying to keep these austerities. And I have to wonder whether I just never tried to test my will before. I certainly thought I had a strong will before, but now I'm wondering if it is in fact somewhere near indomitable. It's a rarity that I need to enforce any sort of will in any matter, so I suppose I didn't really know the nature of it until now. I came ino this thinking tha tI would be drooling over every piece of meat and coke that went by, and that's just not the case at all. I said I would not do it, so I won't. If I waver on something, it's because I have no dedication to said thing in the first place. I know my intentions already, and indecision is perhaps just a result of entertaining the rest of society.

At some point I'm supposed to make a journal entry on something in my past that was painful. I have to wonder if it's supposed to be painful now or not, because I can't think of too much that really hurts me deeply nowadays. I get lonely, sad, yes, but hurt? No. I think I expect all outcomes in some way or another, so I'm prepared for them.

I suppose that incident with Sabrina hurt, but it was really the sort of..indignation that comes from obligation. I think that fits well enough. I expected some sort of communication between us that never came about. It was to me, a social obligation, I guess it's just taught me the relativity of such things, and that not everyone holds something like my code of conduct to their heart. I think next time around I'll have to discuss at length how I've evolved as a person in the past year or so. Time's up though, so I'm done.
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