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Tuesday, March 23, 2004

As I was saying
The really interesting stuff doesn't come until 8 months ago. Roughly, anyway. It's a mental thing that's sort of hard to describe. It's not the harsh, cold, apathy that I had before. It's a mellow, fluid, harmonic sort of non-chalantness. Apathy isn't the right word for it at all. I just take things as they come. Deal with them how I see fit. Rarely does anything rock my boat. Really, it's like; Whatever happens, happens. I know I'll make do with what I have, I know I'll get by. I never let anything tax me, but nor do I get too careless. Scheduling and applying for college and all, that, I never let myself worry about it too much. It was a horribly important decision, but I forced myself, made myself, not worry about it. Even now, I find myself picking courses that sound fun or interesting, I'm not going out of my way to fill requirements. But they fill on their own. Things just fall into place. That's how everyone should be.

This is not to say that I'm perfect, or I never get angry. I do. Certainly. But I don't get pissy for a week anymore. Even getting my car broken into only made me angry for about half a day. Sure, I'd still punch the guys in the face if I saw them, but hey, who wouldn't?

And about that will too, how it's pretty rock solid. I'm not sure when that came about, but it's pretty strong. Again, to use a Bruce Lee/Spike reference, it's like water. It can fit anything. Smooth one moment, making pretty waves, or crashing into you like a bleedin' tidal wave. Fun shit. I don't know if I've really scratched any sort of mental surface or anything..but I don't really care. It's the sort of thing that has to be experienced.
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