Tuesday, June 12, 2007

   Life Changes
So I was thinking about how unhappy I was in the middle of the three days before my period when I realized that I was taking out all my frustrations on my parents. Of course I realized this after I started shouting at them over the phone somewhere between the bad behavior and the discovery that I was driving while crying and feeling like a cent with two holes in it. So I've decided to talk to my counselor tomorrow afternoon and discuss options of pulling out now that I've completely knocked out all my breadth requirements and go to CSU San Bernadino or CSU Fullerton. Where there are many jobs, the housing is cheaper, and I don't have to hand pick all my classes and hope they don't conflict or aren't six miles away from each other on campus.

I've also been thinking about work that I want to do, and the future, and I see the future. I see a Liberal Arts Degree. Maybe a teaching one. A single bedroom apartment. A clean car without the crack in the windshield right in my line of vision. A pet snake in the closet that likes to eat mice and be good the rest of the time. Maybe a very large boa constrictor that will completely dominate my living room. Place to play DDR without falling into the bed or the wall on the other side. Maybe even covered parking for my poor car so it doesn't get dirty five days after I help clean it. Living closer to some of my friends.

Oh well, I can think about these thoughts anyway now that finals are done. If you'd like to hang out with me, you know my number, you know where to find me, you know how to get in contact with me. Of course if I hate you or don't know you, it's not a good idea to try hanging out with me. You'd probably just get maced and kicked while you're curled up in a fetal position, crying on my doorstep. Yes, I do have elaborate fantasies about these things. No, I haven't sought help yet. Stop looking at me like that! Don't be a playa hater! I swear I get enough sleep at night and proper nutrition. I swear!

And now if you'll excuse me, I think I'll go do more neopets, possibly eat some apples and cheese, and keep listening to the band that I would love to hate, but can't. Sheer volume makes everything better.
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