Wednesday, January 10, 2007

   I MISS U!
k so I saw a picture of my cousin on myspace and his changed dramatically, cause the last time I saw him I was 6 years old and he was like 10. And he used to be a lil brat and lock me in my room and hold the doorknob so I wouldn't come out and I would shout and scream and bang on the door and cry. And now I found him and his 19 and I'm 14 (gonna be 15 this February) and were both so different. And before I wanted nothing to do with him, cause I always thought about all the childhood memories and all my memories of him were always bad ones. ANd he used to only live 2 hours away from us and now he and his family moved away back to Ukraine, Kiev. So I was like "well, he always hated me and probobly doesn't remember me and doesn't care about me. So why should I care about him??" and now my sister-in-law told me that my cousi and his sister have been asking about me all these year and been wanting to see me. But I've been so stubborn to go see them cause I thought we would just argue, but now that were both older and were so different and matured. I wana go see him and talk to him and just hold him and cry and apoligize for being so stupid, all these wasted years and now that I want to see him and his family I can't cause his gone back to Ukraine. Nut I'll get to see him and his family this summer because my mom and I are flying to Ukraine to see them. I'm gonna cry so much and beg for forgivness, wow my family is so important to me and I don't know why I always act up like this. ANd it's rueins everything, it's driving me crazy and then I found a different family friend named Anna who I have known since i was like 4. And the last time I saw her I was 8years old and she was like 12, and it's the same thing as me and my cousin. Anna and I have changed drastically, and i miss her so bad. Thank god she's still here in the US and she only lives 3 hours away from me so I can go see her.
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Thursday, December 21, 2006

   FROSTY THE SNOWMAN!! LOL!!
It finally started to snow today, but it only snowed for about 10 minutes. So we got barely no snow but hopefully before Christmas we will get alot. Last Christmas it snow so much the snow was up to my ankles and higher, don't ask me how but I though my dog how to play king of the hill. Ever since my brother got married and moved out I've been lonely but that's okay. Cause there's always my dog to play with, so yeah alot has changed I'm not on myotaku as much any more but more on myspace and buzznet. So that's very cool, uh........what else is there to tell u guys?? I've grown up more and not a gulable (random person: look there's a ranbow) (me: WHERE?!?!?!) (person: AHAHAHAHAH PSYCH!) (me: U suck *kicks person in the face and runs away) yeah and that's how it works. My mom signed me up for Karate and I went for a month and got my white belt with 1 black stripe and then my mom messed everthing up. And signed me out and put my to play tennis in school on the Junior Varsity team. And every one of that team hates me for some odd reason as nice as I try to be but it never works. Oh yeah cause there all prepy and they think I'm some nasty goth girl (even though I'm not) and my friends are. But I've tried to go gothic and it just didn't work so now I'm more in between tom-boy/girly/punk and I honestly don't know what I am. But yes...And I'm really oppsesed with Guns "n" Roses right now thanx to my friend from school. I tried to listen to ACDC but they suck and just aren't for me, even though I like certain Nirvana songs. Yeah I feel a lil left out here cause all my friends have somebody to hang out with except me. And most of the time I'm siting at home bored out of my mind, and on myspace cause there's nothing else to do and my friends call me for no reason. I sit there and try to talk to them but there to bust talking to eachother and don't here me so I sit there and listen to them laugh and have fun and it makes me super sad. And I hang up and go in my room and cry, and my parents don't care and tell me to go do my homework and I do but instead just stare at the piece of paper in front of me and cry and listen to my metal music. So yeah my life is a lil complecated here and there but it's definitely better then 7th grade when I was like what 12 year old?? and my b-day is soon it's now December and soon will be february and I'll be 15!! WHOO!!
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Saturday, October 21, 2006

   THE GUARDIAN
k so today my mom took my friend and I to the mall and we went to see the movie The Guardian. IT WAS THE COOLEST MOVIE I HAVE EVER SEEN! IT WAS SWEET! but very sad 0.0 I wana be in the Navy and that's exactly what the border patrol is they are the Navy, so now I'M scared but psyched at the same time (sarcastically: oh goodie I get to get drownded but my instructor)but yeah it's a really good movie I cried 10 minutes into the end of the movie or maybe like 20 minutes in the end of the movie anyway I dunno but somewhere around there. And my brother and sister-in-law are moving out so I'M gonna miss them being the only child in the house it gonna be difficult and lonely. (even though there not kids any more and it's probobly a lil mean of me to refere to them as kids) but any way so I get my brother room cause it's more warmer in there and it's bigger. And my room is gonna get turned into a library/study, so my friends have been inviting me places all weekend to go places with them but I couldn't cause I was stuck at home packing up my things and cleaning my room and bringing my things into the other room. >_<" what a way to spend your weekend huh?. And yu guys will be happy with me I actually try and watch anime and like Naruto and stuff and I got 2 anime books as a gift from my anime upsessed friends k so I'M probobly gonna go to bed now or atleast try even though I'M not even tired cause I had coffee today. O_O I"m babling someone smack me XD
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