Thursday, June 3, 2004

It's Thursday, I Think

Babysitting was ok yesterday. My stepbrother was a little rowdy, but he was ok. My pappy was supposed to have surgery today, but when I woke up around 10 or 11, he was sitting in a chair in our room (he's been sleeping in my room at my mom's house). The doctors didn't want to take the chance. He has a 3 in 1 chance of having a stroke. He could have died or ended up like a vegetable, so the surgery didn't happen. I think this means he'll have six months to a year. I think he'd rather have that than be a vegetable. Other than that, nothing has really happened. Thanks for your support and for liking my poem. That's just something I made up in probably just half an hour. Well, type to you later. Bye.

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Wednesday, June 2, 2004

Another Poem

The fustration I got from that arguement with my dad gave me the push I needed to finally write my next poem. Also, I changed the quiz results that I picked to show. My Ticket My ticket to the future is blank. I must choose my destination, But it gets harder and harder When you’re causing my hesitation. You think you can push me further, But you only push me away. You think you know my right path While I don’t even know my way. You can’t base my life off yours. The same rules don’t apply to me. I try to show you that I’m not you, And you just can’t look to see. The things you want for me Are not necessarily what I need. I must find my fate on my own. This I say, and you don’t heed. This is my life, my own future. It is not your own to mold. I will do what I think is right, And on this I will not fold. Money, power, greed, or success Are nor forces that drive me. All I want is to look back at my life, Long and fulfilled, so I can die happily. You have your ticket to your future. Now, for mine, I am finally in line. Everyone’s ticket is blank. The choice of my destination is only mine.

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I Heard Wrong

I thought my dad said yes (see previous post). I guess not. I went over to my mom's home. My mom's husband told me my stepmom called and was angry. I called, and my dad answered. He said that he said no. I was positive he said yes. Well, then we had this long arguement over the phone. I was saying that I'm old enough to make this decision and that it's just babysitting for about a week. He said that I should be getting a job and that this is not my responsibility. I said that I want to choose my responsibilities, and he said that it's not my choice. We got into this long talk. I was talking about hating how decisions have to revolve around money and that his yelling and gripes over the past year obviously haven't been working. I was quite proud, especially that if it was face-to-face, I wouldn't have said pretty much any of that. He said that I have to work if I want him to help out with college. I can't move over to my mom's either if I want him to help. That sucks. He told me to go back there then, but I'm still over at my mom's. I got him to let me stay over until Sunday...I think. He said that when I come back, my attitude had better change and I'd better be ready to look for a job. I've been ready, until he gripes and rants about it, which turns me off of getting a job. I told him that too. Also, who does he think he's fooling? My attitude won't change. I'm a lot like my mom. He tries to push me one way, and I go another. It's how they got divorced. I get my stubberness from him though. I got my parents best parts. Well, I'm not sure what will happen when I return on Sunday. I highly suspect that my tv will be gone. If so, oh well. I'll have my portable dvd player. If that's gone, then I have my comics. If those are gone, oh boy will there be trouble. I bought pretty much all of mine. I can count on two hands, maybe on, the number of comics he bought me. The tv is not really mine, and they did get me the dvd player, but those comics are mine. Make no mistake. I will fight for them, physically if necessary. Ok. Comment. Have fun. Bye.

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Monday, May 31, 2004

I'm Full

I had a big dinner. I would say what it was, but thinking about it makes my stomach hurt. I was really full. It was good though. My power went out. It was sunny today, then it started to rain. Suddenly, the power went out. I guess it stayed out for about 20-30 minutes. I could have stayed on my laptop, but I didn't want to use up the battery. I told my dad that my mom asked me to babysit my stepbrother while she's with my grandfather in the hospital. I think he said yes. He said yes, but then he went into this long rant on how I should be getting a job and not babysitting and that I need to get my priorities straight and that my mom shouldn't use me to babysit and that it's her fault she got married to a guy who had a kid. I really wanted to go off on him. I was thinking, "Get my priorities straight?! Are you nuts?" I think helping out with taking care of a 4-year-old while my mom helps my grandpa in the hospital and my stepfather works to make money that they really need to be much more important than getting a job for the social experience. I don't know if he changed his mind or not during the rant, so I'm going with that "yes" he gave me. I'm going tomorrow before he gets home from work. I'll be there for the week. I'll have my laptop, so I'll still be here to talk. If he did change his mind, I don't care. The only thing he can really take away is my tv, and I don't care. I have my comics and my portable dvd player. If he even tries to take away my laptop, I will go off on him. Not only does this not belong to him, but also he had nothing to do with me getting it. My mom got me my laptop, and it's all mine. Well, I guess I've ranted enough. It has helped digestion of the food I've eaten. Fell free to comment. I enjoy reading them. Bye for now.

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N Nice I Innocent K Kind O Organic R Respectable A Altruistic S Slippery U Unforgettable Name / Username: Name Acronym Generator From Go-Quiz.com Slippery? I wonder how I got that one.

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It's Been Storming

It's been hectic here in Tennessee. A rather large thunderstorm has been moving through. I was talking to chainedangel about it on aim since the storm hit her area first. It seems like the rough part has passed, so that's good. Well, I guess it's Memorial Day. Happy Memorial Day. Sunday, I stayed in my room most of the time. I also went swimming for a bit, but the sun wasn't out much. I guess I'll post later. I don't have much to say now other than I have new greetings up. I submitted four, and all four have been approved. They're Trigun. Go look at them and use them. Bye.

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Sunday, May 30, 2004

Another Night of Toonami and Adult Swim

I saw that Justice League movie that was on Toonami. It was good. They fixed the part I griped about the most, which was where were the secret identities? We've only seen Bruce and Clark only a few times, but now, we saw all of them in civilian clothes with their identities exposed to one another. It had a good ending too. Inuyasha was cool too, and Wolf's Rain too. Trigun is on now. Of course I love Trigun. I recently bought the manga Trigun Maximum vol 1. It's good. I actually like the differences between the manga and the anime. It keeps me even more interested. Other than watch TV, I've done basically nothing but be online and chat with people. Basically a calm day. It was great. My dad often wonders how I can do nothing all day. I guess I'm easily entertained. Well, I hope to have more to say later. Bye.

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Friday, May 28, 2004

I'm Back

My roommate brought an alarm clock, but I woke up before it. It was pretty cool. I picked my classes. My earliest class is college algebra on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 8 AM. Not too bad. It's an 18-hour schedule for now. I have a communication class, a US history class, a philosophy class, a psych class, the college algebra class, and a university semenar class. I also had my ID made. I found out they have a fencing club there. The dorms weren't too bad. The food was good. A lot of walking though. I'm taking my bike. I start at the end of August. I don't really have much else to say right now. I guess I'll have to update later. Bye for now.

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Thursday, May 27, 2004

Well, It's Today

It 6:30 this morning, I will be leaving to go to Middle Tennessee State University, the place where I'm supposed to go to college. I think I sign up for classes and all. I still have no idea what I'm going to be doing. I saw some ok classes, but I don't know anything about signing up for classes. My dad will take me there and I guess leave me there for some time. I don't know what I'll be doing. I'm not sure if I even care. I don't really want to mess up signing up for classes. Oh well. I have a checklist for it, and the last thing asks if I have a positive attitude about it. I wonder if they will actually ask that there. They won't like my answer. Also, I'm supposed to bring an alarm clock. If you have read my recent posts, you will know how funny that is. Well, hopefully I'll post back when I get back Friday. Bye.

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Tuesday, May 25, 2004

My Dad Made Me Mad

Here I was, sanding the back of a bench. My dad was checking on my progress. Then, some lady from a charity came up and asked if we could donate money for this walk that they were having. My dad said that he was broke. Before she left, I gave her $20. Then, some fellow charity workers walked up and they talked about how I helped them. One gave me a cup. One commented on how nice our garage is, and my dad showed them the deck and pool. I kept sanding. He appearantly told them about me being valedictorian since they congratulated me before leaving. The thanks did get annoying, but it would be rude to tell them to stop, so I kept sanding. They left. My dad told me that I shouldn't have done that. I nearly dropped my jaw. I had well over $300 in my wallet, and he still was annoyed by me giving the money. He said that I'll need that money for things like books for college. He said that I should be more responsible. That ticked me off. For one, hello? Spider-Man fan here. I read about responsibility all the time. It's the reason that one of my favorite heroes is a hero. For two, I gave to a charity! I had money. I knew it was a real charity. I knew that if I didn't give even though I had my wallet with me, my conscience would never let me live that down. I felt it was my responsibility to give money. He was worried about the finances of college. I'm still worried about the motivation. He just ticked me off. Plus, he's been trying to lecture me on responsibility all day. I've been doing all that I can not to tell him off, especially after the charity people incident. He is just annoying. EDIT: I have a new greeting up. Go see it.

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