myOtaku.com: Nikorasu

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1986-04-15
Gender
• Male
Location
• Tennessee
Member Since
• 2004-01-11
Occupation
• college student / anime club pres / MTAC staff / sentai member
Real Name
• Nicholas

Personal

Achievements
• Surviving my valedictorian speech, joining the MTSU Anime Club
Anime Fan Since
• 1998
Favorite Anime
• Genshiken, Trigun, Please Teacher!, Yakitate!! Japan, Gurren Lagann, most Gundam I've seen that don't have SEED in the title
Hobbies
• anime, comics, internets, games, giant robots, sleep

myOtaku.com: Nikorasu

Saturday, March 6, 2004

Another Rant

I got a letter today saying that I got a scholarship of over $8,000 from Lincoln Memorial University. Ever hear of it. I don't know who has. The only reason I filled out the application is because it was short and that the university is surrounded by a lot os state parks, forrested areas and more like that. I don't even know much about it. I know that the tuition is over $16,000 a year, which is a lot. My dad asked me why can't I choose a college. I told him the reason: too many choices and not enough differences between them. My dad said that there are. I then said not enough for them to differ enough to allow me to make a choice. I hate all of this. I have to basically choose an important part of my life that I know I'm not ready to do. Everytime someone asked me if I want to go to college, I said yes because I thought that it was the natural progression of things and that everyone wanted me to go. Now, I'm not so certain if I even want to go. I mean, I'm sick of school as it is. I just don't know anything anymore. I just wish people would leave me alone on this issue.

I just want to sleep late, read comics, watch anime, try to at least get one issue of mine done, be able to get online, and have the necesities to live. Most of all, I want to do something with my life that I like and will enjoy. I don't want some stupid job that I come home complaining about. I know I'll complain (it's what I'm doing now), but I want something that the complains would be small and petty compared to the work that I enjoy doing. I want the time to find this career. All I need now is time, space, and no one counting on me. With everyone expecting me to do something great and people like my mom saying I'm one of the most important thinks in their lives. All this pressure. It's not going to give me an ego. It's going to give me a mental break down.

If anyone has any suggestions on colleges, life, or anything else pertaining to this or any of my many rants, please comment. I'll be back tomorrow to read them.

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