Sunday, July 31, 2005

   SO... whoo hoo!
WOW... today has been real real eventful!! Both good and bad!!

So, my mom woke me up this morning after I had only been able to get four hours of sleep. Well, then she helped me feed the kittens, while I called Judy at RCR to ask her what we should do because the runt of the litter is having diarrhea which is real bad for kittens their age because it will dehidrate them real quick which could be life threatning. Anyway so I called her and got that squared away, and if he doesn't get better in a few days, then we have to take him in. But you guys didn't want to know that.

So anyway, after we were done with that, we went shoping. I got four cammis, four thongs, and a bra! YAY! I love getting lingerie! I do, call me strange, but I love it!! And you probably didn't want to know that either... well though, you are reading this, it is your fault! Just kidding!

So when we got home, there was a call from my grandma, so I called her back. We talked for a little bit, and then there was someone on my other line. I clicked over and heard who it was, and then had to call my grandma back.

Well, the person on the other line turned out to be Officer Stevens (aka hot cop to some of you)!! Anyway, I had decided to contact him because I wasn't getting a response from the Denver PD. So he being the great, caring, nice, and hot cop that he is... HE contacted me!! Go him. Alright, for all of you guys who are wondering out there what the deal is, with me and HOT COP... well here is a flash back for you...

~flashback~ **you are now entering a time and place where you have no control of what you see, what you think, and what you read!** Sorry, I am a little hyper thinking back about this!! ((can't stop smiling)). Anyway here is what happened. Around the end of the year, I had a guy try coming through my window while I was asleep. Well,it turned out that he had broken in a few other times and stole things from not only my house, but others too. Well, when Officer Stevens had come over so I could file the report, I had to show him where the guy lived. Well, we got into the car, and well drove over to the guys house. Well, when I got back to my house, he left, and so (giggling like a little girl) I told my mom that he didn't wear his seat belt and he was a cop!! Well, she asked why I didn't tell him, and at that moment, there was someone at the door. Well, since Officer Stevens had already left and my stepdad was waiting for his friend Sandy to come over, I opened the door but I had my back to it while opening it. In response to my moms question, this is what I said, "Yeah right mom, like I am going to tell that very hot cop to put his seat belt on"... then I turn around, and GUESS WHAT It wasn't Sandy, yep, you guessed it... it was Officer Stevens... he came back to give me a buisiness card!

So that is why everyone calls him "hot cop" and everyone makes fun of me for that! But meh. Anyway, so he called me and then he came over. I was giggling, smiling, and had butterflies. He was coming over to talk about the rape... and what would happen if I was to file a charge. Well, we talked about it... it was real odd to actually say what happened... it sorrta made it all that more real in a way, and a little more scary too. Anyway, after talking to him and letting him read the e-mails that I got from 'him' we went to his car to see if 'ben' had any warants or crimanal records. So then he wrote back to the PD to get the address and phone number of the PD where I will have to report it. Well, we were talking and he has been through a lot too, so he said that he is talking it out and everything and if I need to talk and get anything out, then I could talk with him, and I told him the same... although I highly doubt he will wanna talk to me!! Ha, I am only 17 and he is... well I don't really know and plus, he is like super hott!! So why would a hottie like him wanna talk with me!! Ha, plus he probably like thinks I am crazy or whatever!! Crushes.. they are soo bitter sweet! Ga, this is soo hard!

And Oh My God, he has that whole sexy accent too! WOW... that is just soo sexy, sexy sexy s-e-x-y!!! Fantasize... that is all I can do! HAHA. And his eyes!! They are soo georgeous! Meh, I can still talk to him about how the case is going. Wait, wait... I just realized that this could look real bad... I am trying to persue a rape charge, but I really like this guy who I don't even know how old he is. Wow, that could look so bad. Damn emotions. But I have liked him since the first time I met him, so it isn't like it is bad or whatever. But ignorant people will think about it that way. Gaaaa... why is everything soo painful and hard?

Well after that and everything, I can't really remember what I did... once I think about Stevens, I can't remember anything else, gosh, am I really THAT pathetic? Oh well, it is fun.

Well, I know that I took a nap because I had only had four hours of sleep, so I got thirty more minutes, so NO where near what I need, but at least a little more.

Then my mom woke me up so I could watch one of my favorite shows that I have missed the new season beginnings of. Anyway, it was sad, but funny at the same time!

After that, my night got sorta scary. I was talking with Brian on the phone and everything. My mom and stepdad had to go to her friends house, so I was left alone, but they just went around the block and came back because she saw someone across the street at the School, just waiting there, so she came back and locked the door. Anyway maybe forty five minutes later, maybe thrity I walked outside in the back yard to walk around. When I headed back to the house, the back door started to open. IT SCARED ME SOO BAD because of what else has been going on, and the sheer fact that I MADE an effort to securly close that door so the dog wouldn't get out. Anyway, it freaked me out... and when I walked around the house to see if everything was still closed up and everything... well, it wasn't. One of the windows in the den was all the way open, when my parents left it only maybe five inches. They said that they are home, so I have nothing to worry about, but I still don't know if I will be able to sleep tonight because of that!

Anyway, so yeah... that is pretty much everything I can remeber about today... and I think you can all guess what is sticking with me... Yep, you are all right... Hot cop!

Gosh, he is soo hott!!

I like him, I really do, but why should I? Tell me, is that wrong? I mean, I haven't really talked... like REALLY talked with him. So why do I feel this way? I can't help it, but I need to face it, it is never going to happen! And he is like with someone the way my luck goes... or married. Haha... how sad.

Anyway, I think I will end here, before I say something that will make me feel so emarassed, although I probably have, I can't really remember what all I have written!

I LIKE HOT COP!

~muah~ -=huggles=- and much love!! Deffinatly to my secret crush, although I am guessing he alreay knows... WOW, I am pathetic, but hey, it is what makes the world go round!!



"Now That I Found You"
HOW CAN I BELIEVE
THAT MY HEART WOULD FIND SOMEONE LIKE YOU
YOU SEE ME, THE REAL ME
NO IN BETWEENS, I HAD NOWHERE TO HIDE
YOU TOOK AWAY THE WALLS AROUND ME
MADE ME FEEL SAFE TO SHARE MY TRUTH
((that is all of the song I am going to put up, because the rest really doesn't have the meaning))

Again... good night all...




...I love you! And you guys know who you are! ;)
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