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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
feelings and a song...that i wrote
well, i cried again. but this time it wasnt about moving to another state. this time it was about my stepdad. lets start from the beginning. this morning i was REALLY sick. i woke up with cramps and i knew that i had to eat something before i took any medicine to get rid of them. well i ate some cereal and then i wasnt feeling to good. i was sitting on the bathroom floor, breathing hard when i called for my mom. she came in and i told her i wasnt feeling to good and she said i looked pale. then i threw up. i was still sitting on the floor shaking but then i got up, looked in the mirror and saw that i really was pale. my lips were soo much lighter than before. there were the color of my skin, before i became pale. then i went to the couch. i had my mom go to the store to pick me up some sprite...it helps. and some of those pain reliever patches to get rid of the cramps. she came back and i put the patch on and fell asleep. she left for work before i fell asleep. when i woke up the cramps were gone and i was feeling MUCH better. i still didnt wanna get up off the couch. well thats what i did today. i didnt do the dishes before my stepdad got home like im supposed to. then dinner came around and i ate it. then after:
steve (stepdad): well, you have to do the dishes tonight. you put them off when you know you're supposed to do them.
me: cant i just rinse them?
steve: no, you have to do it all. why couldnt you just have done it earlier?
me: well, im sorry that i got really sick today.
steve: [gives me a weird look]
me: i could barely get up off the bathroom floor!!
steve: so, that shouldnt have stopped you.
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thats when i thought: well maybe you shouldve came to my show last night instead of being tired and just sitting watching tv when i came home!! you always do that! everyday! when i wanna spend some time with you after you come home from work you just say 'im too tired. i dont wanna.' maybe you should spend time with your stepdaughter instead of wasting it away watching damn tv!!
then i started crying at the table. i left before they saw and wiped my tears away. i came back and did the dishes and didnt say anything the rest of the night. while i was talking to my friend about it...i cried again but it was more serious. these past two days have been hell. it doesnt seem like much but not much has happened in my life. i had one of the happiest lives someone could have and when something even average bad i get sad. its not normal for me and im not used to it. im sorry. well here's the song i wrote about it:
"What I've Got" by Kari McClung
[Verse 1]
Leaving the tears in the tissues
And throwing them in the trash
Lately, I feel so alone
I know there are people out there
People who love me
I know you do too
But these past days
You've been the worst for me
[pre-chorus]
I shouldnt worry
About the things in my life
The things in others are way worse
Than what I've got
[chorus]
I've got neglection
But others have deaths
I've got a broken heart
But others have pain
I've got a life
But others have nothing
[Verse 2]
I need to get away from you
I'm afraid to tell someone about you
Because they might try
Try to reasure me
Telling me its all in my head
I know its not
I know what I feel
And its not a lie
[pre-chorus and chorus 2x]
I hope I can recover from this loss
I hope I can recover from this loss
sorry its so long again. by they way, i wanna thank everyone who had something encouraging to say. thank you so much.
Chuck Norris joke of the day
Chuck Norris has the greatest poker face of all time. He won the 1983 World Series of Poker, despite holding only a Joker, a Get Out of Jail Free Monopoly Card, a 2 of clubs, a 7 of spades, and a green #4 card from the game UNO.
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¢¨ú Oceania xoxoxoxoxox
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