Monday, September 24, 2007

   Drawing problems ftw

Yes, I definetly lost my touch at drawing. Everytime I start something I got bored in the middle of it, I just wonder what the hell happened. Is it that sport took the first place as a passion, then again not really, I get bored very easily once I start sparring or training lately, However I don't get bored to play good games, but since I don't buy new games lately I don't paly often. I feel like I want to express something through drawing, a very intense emotion that I try to express through a project, but each time it doesn't work and I scrap it up. I really wish I could find this emotion I try to express! Plus, with the wuality of my art I fear they won'T accept me in art college in a few years, I really like to draw something with a pencil, but I'm not much of a inker nor a colorer, Even though I try to prefect my skills at both inking and coloring, both bore me pretty easily, I really like to draw with wooden pencils and charcoal. But I don't think this will bring me very far into the illustration industry. I'd really like to work into this industry, but if it just doesn't work I really don't know what else could I study at. Drawing is really what I'd like to do as a job. Yeah it's a bit of Angst, but because of this mega blocus I get since summer, I wonder if I can do anything at it do just freely draw again. Every drawings I try to make since summer doens't passion me enough, I do them without any real will to do it and it gets boring after a while or if I indeed get to the end, the drawing just doesn't live, it's plain, repetitive and I still can't fix my damn anatomy problems even though I try to do how my art books tell me to, then my own techniques doesn't work either, still the same damn problem, unable to draw a proportionate upper body and not able to make good enough lower body, it always end un with the upper body being all fucked up with disproportioned muscles and a loooooong lower body. but if I shorten the legs it's still disproportioned, but the other way around. the lower body and upper body are good enough, but there seems to have some problem with the knees not being right or the arms too long. I don't know really. However, surpisingly, after looking at my art from beggining of summer and now, I noticed an overall improvment into the body drawing I have so many problems with. Still good to see that at least I improve even though I seem to never get pass this problem. Well if anyone have some nice trick to recover inspiration, or good music or art to show me, you're welcome, I'd really like to regain my passion.

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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

FUKEN SCRUBLOL!!!!!111

Recently, I dunno why, I can't seem to get my mind on other type of art than vampires and monsters. I draw these quite too much. TOO MUCH F******* CASTLEVANIA!!!!!! problem is, I still have a huge block on inspiration, usually in a summer I'd have made enough drawings to decimate a forest. In this whole summer I only did enough drawings I can count them on both of my hands. Damn I don't want to lose my drawing!!!!! I made a pic of Dracula a while ago, inked and all, but looking at it today he semed too much...cartoon, like in these very classic anime styles where someone can't really look serious, old or evil. So I redid the pic and noticed another problem. Usually I would be able to draw a good pic, but now it seems that no matter what I draw I ALWAYS find thousands of things I despise on it, so many flaws in the end I don't like it, but once I show it to other people, artists and fans, they all think it's pretty good except maybe this or that, but no matter what I can't seem to stop seeing so many wrong things. I know it's okay for an artist to have a blockus...but 3 months? I'm deffinetly worried! Going on on my very little problems but still enough annoying to make a minor rant about it. MSN won't fucking let me log in, last week it wouldn't let me for the entire week, then I fix it and log on for 2-3 days without problems, then BAM, since 3 days it won't let me do anything. I really wonder what's the damn problem! Positive note: I'm on the way of healing, I catched a virus and got sick for the whole week, but now I seem to feel better. I still wonder how I was able to train yesterday. I was feeling pretty bad. Ohh and I don'T visit anyone on otaku except my firends and that's rarely, it seems I've lost anyone who once commented on my site excpet my friends-___ laziness is such a bad thing! well to tell the truth I still go comment on some people's site who signed my GB, but they NEVER return the favor, so I don't know, maybe I should really keep writing for the only two persons still interested in reading my livejournal, who I thanks a lot for this. I try to return the favor as much as possible. Today I still wonder what the hell I do on otaku -only two persons still comment on my livejournal where I say shit that pretty much nobody cares about -I hate this place filled with the worst kind of fangirls adicted to fanservice -I RARELY make critics on popular artists or it will totally backfire at me and I'll have tons of otaku on my ass -I post fanarts which only a very few people look at -Fanrats that I post at a rythm of one per 10000000 years. In all and all I could say I really really hate this place and want to GTFO, but for a reason I really don't want to leave and post things. thanks to those willing to watch. I still wonder what is so good here for me to stay? meh too much questions! I'll stay anyway since I got no reason to go, plus I like the way my themes come out and put quite some work into them, except maybe for the Phoenix wright one because finding good images was impossible. Yeah I talk too much, this weekend I'll spend it with my friends, and maybe update a bit sinc eInternet has finally gotten at my ancient home. so yeah for those who still kept up with me until this point, farewell and good weekend.

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Nice work mister Bond! You've drop Martini all over my gorgeous Satin Couch!

I started training again in a new "dojo" But this time it's a whole change. My instructor is a TKO champion and he trains us into MMA. To those not knowing what MMA is, it's a training method for people wanting to go on ultimate combat. Now I'm pretty scared of that really, but since they aim for amateur I'll see what happens. It's a whole different fighting style and I guess I like it better than what I was doing before. what I was doing before was good too and still is, I don't plan on letting go this quick on Karate, but for now MMA is something that I think is great. I discovered some new abilities that gives far more impact to my strikes. For now my first lesson was great and I expect it to be as good in the future. My only fear is that they really expect me to go into TKO, I know, and they said themselves, I'll need quite some time training before even thinking of trying, but I don't know if I'll ever be ready. We'll see. in the future. This weekend I go spend it at Laval! which is great because I'll see my friends again! and that's all folks, until next time.

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Monday, September 17, 2007

Told you I'd finish my new themes someday or another, I changed the wallpaper, still the same but photoshop-ized with an image of Richter from Chi no Rondo Plastered on the top. Also new music, should not be too hard on the hears for peoples who are not expecting it, pretty smooth, it's bloody Tears, one of the three most classic and awesome Castlevania musics ever. Bloody Tears was there in the very first game and they still put it in the most recent games of te Serie, pure gold! NEw avi also, not so good but I don't know why Castlevania stuff is so hard to find! I could make my own out of official illustrations, but I lack the photoshop and installing it on this computer would mean murdering it. So yeah new theme, had a nice weekend off as usual, work tommorow until friday, was sick all weekend long, hurt myself pretty badly at parkour by falling from a good meter and a half on an iron bar on the abs, it still friggin hurt even after 3 days. This is maybe my fourth huge injury at parkour, I once fell from a fence at 3 meters of altitude face first on the ground, of course it was grass and my foot got stuck on the fences which removed lots of impact, but I twisted the said leg that was stuck on the fence, had a pretty bad nosebleed as well as a nasty enfled eye. Anyway. I'm really careful but things like that happens. won't stop me from doing a sport I like. I'll just be more careful next time.

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Monday, September 10, 2007

I SHOULD be finishing my new theme soon...maybe. Well I got a new job, as winter approaches I cannot work in renovations anymore. So I gave my Resume to a place where they recycle computer parts and they calles me 2 days later. I worked there for the first day last Friday and worked today, I basically dismantle computers all day and put the parts in their respective containers, we only sell the Iron and Aluminium parts of the computers to Iron factories, The other parts and circuits are kept and recycled by the company to make new computers. So yeah, I should really finish my new theme, this new wallpaper look even more n00bish than the last one since it's separated into 4 segments. While maing some falling exercices in apark and guy came to me and gave me advices, foud out he was an instructor at a Jujutsu and Kick Boxing dojo at Lachute, he also did TKO( or ultimate combat, MMA, BJJ) SO he's pretty much of a scary guy, but very nice and polite, His teacher is none other than the man who taught me Shotokan when I was 8...so I asked to be informed as soon as the classes begin and maybe will I have the chance at training under my old master again. it's 10$ per lessons, two days a week, in the end of the line it will cost me pretty much a lot per years, but I can easily afford 10$ a week for jujutsu and kick-boxing. So I can't wait to have a call. speaking of martial arts, I got one little fable about a Cat and a Fox which doesn'T have abything to do with martial arts, but describe pretty much what's its about: A Fox was boasting to a Cat of its clever devices for escaping its enemies. "I have a whole bag of tricks," he said, "which contains a hundred ways of escaping my enemies." "I have only one," said the Cat; "but I can generally manage with that." Just at that moment they heard the cry of a pack of hounds coming towards them, and the Cat immediately scampered up a tree and hid herself in the boughs. "This is my plan," said the Cat. "What are you going to do?" The Fox thought first of one way, then of another, and while he was debating the hounds came nearer and nearer, and at last the Fox in his confusion was caught up by the hounds and soon killed by the huntsmen. Miss Puss, who had been looking on, said: "Better one safe way than a hundred on which you cannot reckon." And on that I bid you farewell gentlemens.

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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

I had the opportunity to go see my friends last weekend, it was nice, I got to see a movie...a pretty...ordinary movie, with so much cliché that you already saw the very same kind of thing hundreds of time. So there's absolutely nothing new therefor it gets boring very quickly. I could spar with Fury but he pwned me in the end. Then I went to China town with them and almost bought a very realistic Rock Lee costume. I didn't spend a lot of money on anything but this weekend managed to cost me over 250 dollars. I plan on going back next weekend but I doubt I'll have money, I don't want to touch my savings and I didn't work for the entire week. and tommorow its supposed to rain which means I won't work either, and Friday I don't work anyway.. But it doesn'T really matter....maybe anyway...good day to you

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Thursday, August 23, 2007

I discussed with my Boss and he gave me the weekend! So I can go back to Laval for the weekend to see my friends! I'm very very happy I Finally fought my laziness and watched The Second Tales of Symphonia OVA and it was just plain awesome. The opening from the OVA gave me an Idea for a project, in the opening the show a sliding artwork of every protagonists of the episode with the name of the character on his or her side. So I decided I would do the same fashion with my own characters from my Legend of Valhalla storyline. I'm drawing every protagonists in an unique pose as well as few important characters such and few antagonists or allies. All in colors taking the whole page. so yeah my mood is getting back to normal. As well as inspiration for new drawings... Finally! This weekend I also plan on having a Spar match with my best Friend Gabe ("Fury" on Myotaku). It been a very long time that we didn't practice Martial Arts together. It'll also be a good opportunity to scan new artworks! So yeah it's pretty much everything...have a nice day *beam out*

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Monday, August 20, 2007

yeah

Working, money, working, money...but no friends, I'm getting f**** sick of it, now I won't have many chances to see them in a while and finally I wasn't able to arrange anything that fits my schedule, so I spent the whole summer without any visit to my fathe rnor my friends nor my dojo. I miss everyone and I don't feel so well about it lately, its nice to get some money and all but even though I meet other peoples, my true friends are at Laval! and I fear that at longterm it'll separate me from them maybe for many years. especially that since they pretty much all have professional schools soon they won't have a bit of free time, not like I have much myself. I work all the friggin week and I can't foresee when I'll have enough time to go see my friends. and ayway, I've been at my old home yestersay, my father is lodging in my old room, its a total mess. I don't know if I'll be able to bring my cat either. for reasons I don't really feel like talking about. So I'll have to let my ex- step mother take care of him for me. all of this separation stuff sucks, its the goddamn second time that a break up have messed up important aspects of my life, each time I get enough time to settle myself at a place with my father BANG break up and I'm forced to leave elsewhere and lose contact with the friends I have made there, and this time I've made very good friends I didn't want to lose contact with just yet. I'll have to wait some year to get back there but I don't know what might happen in the meantime, they might move to another city, they might not have access to internet, maybe I shouldn't worry that much about all of this but I still have an hard time recovering from this situation. I wish there was only ONE single year in my life whitout something horribly wrong that would mess me up for some time. Its not comparable to what happened last year but its still freaking ASS! So as I said I had 10 minutes to visit my father sunday, because we were busy I couldn't stay long enough to pay a visit to everyone or even call anyone, Just the time to see how much my father seems...changed and how much my old room, which I spent lots of time decorating, became something horrible. Ohhh and don't forget that my Cat was gone somewhere as well as my Sister. I don't have anybody to blame for all of this but goddamnit I'd feel better if I could put the blame on something. Like this rock over there, if it was involved it could be alright...you rock, you got lucky this time!!!! So yeah, its a rant on my dead livejournal I never updates On a happier note I bought 50$ of artist stuff on the China town, brushes, China ink, pens, pencils of different textures, Aquarelle pencils and a sketch pad. I had some experiment with everything and I came with two very satisfying artworks...which I cannot scan! Yeah even though all this life experience helped me grow strong, I'd wish for a lucky year with less events blowing right into my face.

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Z-O-M-G!!!! OBJECTION!!!!!!1111

Man I'm killing myself with that job, it's so intense! Last week I did a 6 days, 8 to 9 hours a day, then this week I work in an Iron Factory 9 hours, tommorow and thursday I got off but man all the time I've worked since last week's monday is intense, I wake up at 5h to 6h each morning and work until 4 in the afternoon. I like this job but its really physique and I need to be in excellent shape. It been 3 months now that I didn't draw a single satisfying piece of artwork, Inspiration deserted me. All the things I've drawn since now is not as I was portraying it in my head or is just plain lifeless. I hate it! I want to draw!!! And I donT' have much else to say, since the begginig of summer I got an interesting ammount of videogames and I'm glad about it. Anyway. good day to you all. *beam out*

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Sunday, August 5, 2007

Damnit

ahhh man! Since Noon I've been practicing parkour and in a second I'm leaving again to practice more. Since noon I've been running around the city searching for good training areas, I've been doing that for a while. finding a good place, training an hour there and then searching for somewhere else. I came back to eat and I'm off again! Can't get enough of this amazing sport. *beam out*

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