Tuesday, April 3, 2007

MAn I'm so much deep into trouble with school, here'S a resume: I begin this semester by getting sick and missing two days of school which made me miss a DAMN lot of stuff in maths, because I had the badluck of getting a teacher who always is in a huge haste of getting everything done. I don't understand a thing and I somehow don'T want to come into repuperations for help. I don't understand a thing therefore can't do my homeworks which I am in the obligation of doing to pass this test which I did not pass sinc ethey refused me which make an "AB" ark on my report card which means I automaticaly FAIL this year if I don't get it off by the end of the semester. And I didn'T do a single page of my homeworks and my teacher has this horrible habit of giving us TONS of pages with SUPER LONG exercices which means it's at least one hour per page, I mean, Page 128 # 1 to 10 and each # has question a) to like j) and all these qestions are long problems to solve. MAN GIVE ME A DAMN BREAK!!!!! SLOW DOWN A LITTLE!!!!!! I know everyone else is able to do it, I know I absolutely have no reason to complain because it's life and in life we have to do stuff but it's just unfair how much school makes it hard for me, Why don't they just give me the right to go study in the things I want to do without doing useless things that I hate, don't want to do and won't be of any use to me later, I don't know but I guess I did enough at school now, why won't they leave me alone? why can't I work just because I don't have 4th secondary maths and 4th secondary science? I mean, take this as an example, I'm the best craftman in the world, I studied 4 years in craftmanship and I proved myself to be the best, but now becaus eI didn't FREAKING got an highschool diploma they won't hire me because "I'm not serious enough" F**** YOU! look...The stuff I make is awesome, everyone likes it and it sells like little buns, WHO CARES IF I DID OR DID NOT DO MY FREAKING HIGHSCHOOL?!!!! And half the semester is already over. I'm kind of in a point of no return, I can hardly get out of all this trouble, I don't understand a thing, I have tons of late homework I'm obligated to do. I can't hanfg out with my good friends because of that, I must live with this incredible pressure everyone is putting on me, my parents with: "School is important, school must be done, we'll cut you from any kind of fun possible so we can make sure you'll pass your school" My friends: "YOu know, you're eightneen, you should find work , you have no money, it's important to have money" and school " You know, you're in deep shit right now, there's little chance that you get out of it unless you sacrifice anything that's fun in order to complete your work" I'M STRESSED' I just want to yell to anyone to just LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE DAMNIT! why must everyone feel like giving me pressure in doing 100000 stuff I don't wnat or don't have time to do? I could work at weekend, sure but... at week I am at school, my parents basically tells me to forget having fun and be depressed by doing my homeworks, at weekend I must forget about taking a break and should have yet even more stress by working. sur eI would get monye that's so fun, but WHICH TIME would I have to actually spend it? Everything of this is so...annoying I just want it to end, nobody sees that school is totally ruining my everyday's life? instead on focusing in being a competent worker in the job I am dying to do and actually be more competent in my studies, they force me to study in useless things that forbid me to see my friends I almost never see, to have time to relax enough to release all that stress. And sinc eI know my parents, and especially my father , my father of whom's worst fear is that I become a criminal becaus eI couldn't make a living, is pushing me around so I do my stuff and assure myself a future. I tell you, My dad is paranoid about this, I know he only wants my good, but that doens't make me any good to be pushed all around and be pressurized by all of this. I try my hardest not to fail but yet I still fail. All I can think about is school, I hate school, I want this nightmare to end!!!!!

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