Wednesday, September 19, 2007

FUKEN SCRUBLOL!!!!!111

Recently, I dunno why, I can't seem to get my mind on other type of art than vampires and monsters. I draw these quite too much. TOO MUCH F******* CASTLEVANIA!!!!!! problem is, I still have a huge block on inspiration, usually in a summer I'd have made enough drawings to decimate a forest. In this whole summer I only did enough drawings I can count them on both of my hands. Damn I don't want to lose my drawing!!!!! I made a pic of Dracula a while ago, inked and all, but looking at it today he semed too much...cartoon, like in these very classic anime styles where someone can't really look serious, old or evil. So I redid the pic and noticed another problem. Usually I would be able to draw a good pic, but now it seems that no matter what I draw I ALWAYS find thousands of things I despise on it, so many flaws in the end I don't like it, but once I show it to other people, artists and fans, they all think it's pretty good except maybe this or that, but no matter what I can't seem to stop seeing so many wrong things. I know it's okay for an artist to have a blockus...but 3 months? I'm deffinetly worried! Going on on my very little problems but still enough annoying to make a minor rant about it. MSN won't fucking let me log in, last week it wouldn't let me for the entire week, then I fix it and log on for 2-3 days without problems, then BAM, since 3 days it won't let me do anything. I really wonder what's the damn problem! Positive note: I'm on the way of healing, I catched a virus and got sick for the whole week, but now I seem to feel better. I still wonder how I was able to train yesterday. I was feeling pretty bad. Ohh and I don'T visit anyone on otaku except my firends and that's rarely, it seems I've lost anyone who once commented on my site excpet my friends-___ laziness is such a bad thing! well to tell the truth I still go comment on some people's site who signed my GB, but they NEVER return the favor, so I don't know, maybe I should really keep writing for the only two persons still interested in reading my livejournal, who I thanks a lot for this. I try to return the favor as much as possible. Today I still wonder what the hell I do on otaku -only two persons still comment on my livejournal where I say shit that pretty much nobody cares about -I hate this place filled with the worst kind of fangirls adicted to fanservice -I RARELY make critics on popular artists or it will totally backfire at me and I'll have tons of otaku on my ass -I post fanarts which only a very few people look at -Fanrats that I post at a rythm of one per 10000000 years. In all and all I could say I really really hate this place and want to GTFO, but for a reason I really don't want to leave and post things. thanks to those willing to watch. I still wonder what is so good here for me to stay? meh too much questions! I'll stay anyway since I got no reason to go, plus I like the way my themes come out and put quite some work into them, except maybe for the Phoenix wright one because finding good images was impossible. Yeah I talk too much, this weekend I'll spend it with my friends, and maybe update a bit sinc eInternet has finally gotten at my ancient home. so yeah for those who still kept up with me until this point, farewell and good weekend.

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