Monday, September 5, 2005

   Monday
Konnichuwa!!
Does anyone wanna help me kill whoever created school? I've got enough knifes for everyone!
I REALLY don't want to go back! I cannot wake up at 7:00 a.m. again! My sleep schedule is totally out of whack.

Oh well... at least I got easy classes this year (I've decided to slack in my senior year)and I guess it'll be alright since my brother and Kelley will be there this year... maybe...
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Thursday, September 1, 2005

   Thursday... I think?
Ohayou! (Good Morning!)
Just woke up to Timmy's stereo bass... I plan to break that thing if he doesn't keep his door shut when he plays it -_-'
I kinda now know why in most animes and mangas, someone always wants to kill thier sibling, a.k.a. TRIGUN, Inu Yasha, etc.
Because siblings are annoying!!

God I need my sugar fix. I hope mom will go shopping for groceries soon, all we got is frozen stuff that I can't cook without the fire alarm going off...

Oh! I almost forgot! I had a really nice dream of just walking through a beautiful forest at night with the moon high above and fireflys dancing all around. I was walking with Sesshoumaru just talking about stuff and we stopped by a pretty lake with a small waterfall. The water was so clear you could see the smooth rocks in the bottom along with gold and black koi fish. The full moon reflected in the water and the fireflys did pretty patterns above it making more magical than it is. Me and Sesshoumaru sat on the grass near the water and I have my feet in the water watching the fish try to nibble at them. I rested my head on his shoulder at which he didn't seem to mind and fell asleep. Then I woke up for real -_-' *sigh* It was good while it lasted...

See ya later!
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Saturday, August 13, 2005

   Saturday
EEP!! I haven't done an update since forever!... okay maybe not forever, but who cares! Ack!
Well anyway I am sooo bored! But I am HAPPY!! I get the house all to myself! My mom's been up at the camper since it's closer to her job. My dad just went up there this afternoon and my brother is with Kelly till Monday.
Me wonders what thier doing *shifty eyes*
Ack! Hentai thoughts! GET 'EM OUT, GET 'EM OUT, GET 'EM OUT! *bashes head against desk*
Ah that's better... ^^ hee-hee!
seeya! I gotta stop me from gettin' a concussion now! BYE!!
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Sunday, July 24, 2005

   Sunday
BAD DREAM!!
Nothing pleasant in it! Ok I was standing in a pool of blood and when I went further into my house a.k.a. the kitchen, everyone I loves bodies were there creating a huge puddle of blood. I could hear maniacal laughter coming from my parents bedroom. I grabbed a butcher knife and slowly went to the door, being careful not to step on the bodies. I opened the door slowly and saw a shadowy figure dripping with blood. He/it turned to me and I saw it had bright yellow lamp-like eyes. He/it cackled and I bolted. I tripped over my brother Timmy's corpse and skidded across the blood soaked floor. I scrambled up and locked myself in my room. I grabbed my cellphone thanking whatever merciful God/Goddess is up there and dialed 911. As soon as the lady on the other line answered I screamed into the speaker. The murderer guy was pounding on my door. I pushed my dresser against it and hid underneath my loft bed. An hour in my dream passed and the insane killer guy gave up. I found my dad's hunting knife,pushed the dresser away, and walked out of my room tucking my cellphone in a pajama pocket. I heard the birds chirping softly, but nothing else. I looked in there first and found the madman sleeping on the carpet next to the birds. I gulped and crept over to his body. I couldn't see his face so I just stabbed him in the back making damn sure I punctured something vital. He let out a ear piercing scream/gargle as he choked on his own blood. I twisted the knife making more blood gush from the wound. By now the police have shown up. They wrapped a blanket around me and led me out of the house. I then woke up... mostly to my brother's stereo's bass to Eminem. That thing is too loud it goes through the wall my room and timmy's room share, ugh... and with a headache as well oh man...
Well seeya later fellow space cowboys!
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Saturday, July 23, 2005

   Saturday
Konnichuwa! I'm feeling much better now that my mom and dad left for the camper for the weekend. Now the reason for my recent depression was 2 reasons:
#1 PMS enough said
#2 Everyone was yelling at me for various reasons

Now wouldn't that just piss you the fuck off?
On a lighter note. I got the new Harry Potter book and am on ch.14 and I had another good dream.
Me, Vegeta, and Goku were walking down the street eating ice cream. I was trying to stop their bickering before they blow up the city. My brothers Timmy and Joe-Joe (my nickname 4 him) and Timmy's GF Kelly came running up in anime form and started shouting that Baby was back (those who've seen DBZ GT know who I'm talking about). Vegeta and Goku went super saiyan I think 4, you know when they get thier tails back and Goku has pink fur or whatever while Vegeta has red I think, and sped off handing me and Kelly thier ice cream cones. We waited for them to come back in a park. Me and Kelly ate thier ice cream before they melted, me and Kelly because the guys complained that saliva still on it from another male is pretty close to french kissing them according to Joe-Joe. We shrugged and ate the ice cream anyway. By now Vegeta and Goku were done fighting Baby and ran up to us with battle scars and missing shirts... hold on... sorry just remembering shirtless Vegeta *drool*. ANYWAY! Timmy gave em some sensu beans and thier wounds healed. Vegeta turned to me and said "Where's my ice cream?" in the demanding I'm-your-Prince-and-will-throttle-you-if-you-don't-answer-me-now! voice. Just to be the smart-ass I am I said I dunno and he started chasing me. Somehow we got to a forest don't ask how I guess I was a half saiyan in my dream, again I dunno. He tackled me and we tumbled into a compromising position with him on top of me. He kissed me forcing tongue (not that I'm complaining ^.^) and when he came up for air said "You taste like my ice cream...". I gave him a cute who-me? look, he smirked and leaned in for another kiss. Then... I woke up. *sigh* It was good while it lasted...
Hehe... seeya later!
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Thursday, July 21, 2005

   Still Thursday
*sigh* Sorry about my last post... It's just I feel so depressed and that just put me over the edge... I still don't know why my mom feels it right to treat me like dirt like that...
I took a breather and daydreamed and that calmed me down...
I daydreamed of sitting next to Al and Ed Elric from FullMetal Alchemist and they smiled and told me It'll be alright...
I thought of them probably because I was reading the mangas earlier today...
Ed gave me a kiss on the cheek and dissapeared as I woke from the daydream...
*Just a piece of useless info is that I'm as short as Ed so I know why he flips out like that at the runt or short comments ^-^
I still feel bad though...comfort anyone? or do I have to daydream again? lol
seeya!
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   Thursday
I-I f-fucking hate my life!! I absolutely hate my mom!! It's all because of her fucking birds! I was supposed to give them water every day and I did! But I forget sometimes... *hic* Now my mom despises me for the death of six of thoses god damn birds *sob* I hate birds I'm afraid of them and yet I was put in charge of them! How fucking unfair is that?! I mean thier her damn pets! I take care of my two cats because thier my responsibility and I love them. But why should I take care of her pets when I'm afraid of them and hate them! She just threatened to throw me out of the house at 17 a few minutes ago!!!! *sobbing uncontrollably* I mean I'm fucking sorry that I killed tham and I tried really hard to remember every day. but I just couldn't and than one after the other just died!! I am her fucking DAUGHTER!! Thier just birds!! I have loved her no matter what for my entire life even if I was a daddy's girl. Those birds have only been with us for I dunno a year maybe two?!! How could she just say that?!?! It was barely my fault! Right now shes got me crying so hard my entire body feels numb... Dads doing shit about it and Timmys too busy with his girlfriend Kelly to acually comfort me!! Just after this morning I told him to watch out and he knocked over all my colored pencils and sketchbook and I yelled at him and of course he brought up the birds to piss me off. No ones on my side... I wanna end it but I can't... someone please help! I can't feel my soul anymore my body hurts from the numbness... I can't end my life... I feel sick..................



all over some fucking birds........

seeya........ maybe........
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Sunday, July 17, 2005

   Sunday
I've been having the most wierd ass dreams ever!!!
I think it's because of this cool chinese good luck charm my mom bought me. It's really neat looking and has a jade bird on it! I've seen 'em at Suncoast before...
Well anyway last night's dream was that I was on Gunsmoke(ya know the planet Vash-kun lives on) and met Vash, without that annoying Meryl following him (sorry to Meryl fans but I just can't stand that woman! Millie's cool though). He took me to that one geo-plant place where him and Knives fought and introduced me to Knives and Wolfwood who had Millie on his lap. We had pleasant conversation and had cookie dough ice cream. Then everyone got a sugar rush and turned into chibi-form and we started singing Greenday's American Idiot (I believe by now your thinking WTF!?). Then Wolfwood, Millie and Knives fell asleep changing back to normal. Me and Vash turned normal and just stargazed till I fell asleep on Vash's lap (kawaii no? ^.^). Then I woke up... reality sucks!
Honest to God I think it's that good luck charm! Before I barely ever dreamed and when I did it's usually a nightmare or just plain bizzare! I'm so never gonna lose this charm! Sayonara my freaky darlings!!
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Friday, July 15, 2005

   Friday
Today is not a good day for me... I did have a good dream before this BS started.
It was of me as a neko demon and Hiei from YYH. Me and him were at a sort of fair dressed in kimonos, Hiei was in a blackish-gray one with a black dragon printed on it and a dark red obi (those belt thingys), I was in a white one with blue and orange flowers printed on it and a dark blue obi. Hiei won me a black stuffed dragon while I bought ice cream. It was one of my less psychotic dreams. I was happy because we actually got to kiss on the ferris wheel at the top before I woke up. It was so sweet!!
And now onto depression... My f**king mom keeps screeching at me to lose wieght. I want to tell her to shove it and leave me the hell alone!! But she just won't f**king drop it! I hate her!
*sigh* I wish I lived in anime where everything is either exciting and dangerous or sweet and romantic... but then again I bet all you psychos like me wish that lol! seeya later space cowboys!
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Thursday, July 7, 2005

   Thrursday
OMG! you can not believe what my mom just did! I was right in the middle of dreaming about being in One Piece on Luffy's ship ,okay. It was a starry night and everyone else was asleep except for me and Zoro (pronounced Zolo). We were talking about swordsmanship and his dream of becoming the greatest swordsman ever, when he leaned forward and was about to kiss me. He was like one inch away, with the full moon in the background, when my mom ear piercing voice interrupted and brought me back to stupid reality! DAMMIT!! *snif* I hope I have that dream again...

Well I gotta babysit my nephew now... but I still wish I coulda kissed Zoro.
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