Thursday, October 19, 2006

  

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

Well i haven't gone to school for awhile because my cheek is still swollen...that sucks...but then again i'm guessing i'll be alright in the long run eh?

OOOoo I can't wait til halloween!! I even sew my my own costume..it looks so cool...i'm so proud of myself...yay!!

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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

   I'm Angry, Crazy, Mad, Stress, Depress, and Most of all I Feel Like Crying And Dying

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

Gosh Yesterday I spent my entire free day from school where? At the freaken dentist...I went through a 3 hour Rootcanal and guess what? It was a failure...the doctor messed up my teeth and I was sent to a Specialist so they can correct my rootcanal that the other doctor messed up. Yeah I went to the specialist and instead of correcting the mistake he redid the rootcanal so I went through another set of pain... but this time it's worse...because half of my face is now swollen and i look like a real monster now...I felt like dying when i came back from the doctor...I was so sleepy and hungry that when i came home i couldn't even eat not even my pills...I went straight to sleep hoping that my face will not be swollen when i wake up tomorrow for school...since i got 2 essay's due...and i haven't had the willpower to do them.

I only got bad news...I woke up this morning and guess what?!
My swollen face from yesterday is STILL swollen...i'm so mad i'm gonna start crying like a mental person...***cry and scream***

I got another dentist appointment today again at 3....I have to go back so they can finish fixing what they had started...LIKE HELL DO THEY FUCKEN THINK THAT I WANT TO GO BACK AFTER THEY FUCKED UP MY TEETH...I FUCKEN DON'T WANNA GO...SO WHAT? SO THEY CAN SEE MY SWOLLEN FACE? HOW EMBARRASSING... **SIGH** THE ONLY PLACE I WANT TO GO RIGHT NOW IS TO HEAVEN...SHIT DON'T BE SURPRISE IF I COMMIT SUICIDE ONE OF THESE FREAKEN DAYS...I DON'T KNOW IF I EVER WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL AGAIN...IF I CONTINUE TO LOOK LIKE THIS...FORGET IT I'M COMMITTING SUICIDE....SO NO ONE COULD SEE MY MONSTEROUS FACE... ARGH!!I'M SO MAD AND THERE ISN'T A DAMN THING I COULD DO ABOUT IT...

THE FREAKEN PILLS ISN'T WORKING...GOSH IMMA EAT THE ENTIRE BOTTLE IF THIS FUCKEN SWOLLEN FACE DOESN'T CALM ITSELF DOWN...

I'M SO ANGRY...I SPENT DAY AND NIGHT JUST AT THE FUCKEN DENTIST...AND THEY FUCKED UP EVERYTHING...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO...I DON'T WANT TO SEE ANYBODY NOT EVEN THE MIRROR...I'M HUNGRY I DIDN'T EVEN EAT ANYTHING YESTERDAY ALL DAY...EVEN NOW AS I'M TYPING THIS SHIT...I'M HUNGRY BUT MY TEETH HELLA HURTS AND MY SWOLLEN FACE HURTS TOO...I FEEL SO LOST IN A VOID...

IF THIS SWOLLEN FACE THING IS PERMANENT...I'M COMMITTING SUICIDE...

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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

I'm In Pain

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

Omg!! i want to die right now...i went to the dentist today in the morning and i didn't even get out until 12:30pm..hella long...i thought i was going to die in the process but i didn't and now i really wish i had.. i got 2 rootcanal..and i got bad news...the doctor fucked up my tooth and part of it broke off now he's sending me to a specialist and i got to leave later at 3 to go see the specialist...i dunno what's going to happen but i hope it'll be okay...then tomorrow i got to go back and see the doctor who messed up my teeth...oh please i don't want to lose my teeth yes it's more than one..remember i got two rootcanal? the doctor says there's a 80% chance i may lose those teeth and now i'm scared half to death and i don't know what to do...and my teeth are starting to hurt although right now my upper lip is totally numbed...i can still feel the pain maybe because the numbness is fading...SHIT I'M HELLA MAD RIGHT NOW I CAN'T EVEN TYPE RIGHT...I WANNA DIE..AND I GOT HELLA HOMEWORK TONIGHT THAT I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH...PLUS MY TEETH ARE WORRYING ME TO DEATH AND I JUST FEEL LIKE I'M STUCK IN THIS NEVER ENDING VOID THAT I HAVE CREATED OUT OF STRESS AND PAIN...SHIT MY TEETH HELLA HURTS...OKAY I'M GOING CUZ I DON'T THINK I CAN HANDLE IT MUCH LONGER I'LL PROBABLY GO TO SLEEP AND SLEEP AWAY THE PAIN...

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**ROOTCANAL=PAIN**

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

**sigh**
I don't want to go to the dentist tomorrow...I think imma die if i go...I'm gonna get a [ROOTCANAL] and you know how scary that is...i never had it before but unfortunately my stupid good for nothing tooth needs a freaken rootcanal...actually i have 2 rootcanal...and i'm scared...if you guys don't hear from me tomorrow then i must mean i died in the process...*starts cry like crazy* i don't wanna i don't wanna go through with it tomorrow...no!! no!! no!! I had a dream that my teeth fell out due to decay and it scared me so much that i woke up with depression that morning and now i got a freaken appointment tomorrow too...imma die for sure...i feel like jumping off a building or a rollercoaster ride...

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

This morning I woke up with the most depression. I had a very distrubing dream and it really ruin my day and along with my problems...i really felt like dying this morning...I mean I really didn't care if I suddenly just died...

Gosh I felt so bad this morning that I needed something something to get me away...like something to scare the hell out of me...so my friend we went and watched THE GRUDGE 2 and yeah that pretty much scared me...although I was expecting it to be more scarier...My friend jump a few times throughout the movie and covered her eyes...but it was her idea to watch grudge in the first place..A few people were rude at the beginning of the movie...they were like bitching at eachother telling each other to shut up or they are going to get the security...and they did...which was like hella stupid...cause these dumb girls were laughing hella stupid in the back of the theater which was hella annoying...so yeah...but the movie was good though...
Anyway...I started out with a horrible day...and it's gotten better after the movie cause it's keeping my mind off my main issue right now...but as i'm typing this i'm starting to worry about my issue again...(sigh) now i feel like dying...help me...no don't help me..it's no use...my issue is just so i dunno...*go hang myself*

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Thursday, October 12, 2006

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

**(sigh)**
Man...so much to do so little time...

1.I got this really EVIL Exam tomorrow and i'm totally not ready considering i haven't even finished the practice exam which is due tomorrow so i gotta stay up all night studying and finish the practice exam...(Dude like what's the point in even collecting the practicing exam when it's an exam, the real exam is what counts most not the practice..)

2.Second, I got 2 essay that are2 page each and it's also due tomorrow(**ME: it's a pain in the ass**)

3.Third, I have to start reading my novel because i'm suppose to be on chapter 7 or 8 and here comes the good part... I'M ONLY ON THE BEGINNING OF CHAPTER 2, WHICH MEAN I'M HELLA BEHIND...BIG TIME..

4.And most of all I still wanna stay on the net...but obviously this damn homework thing is preventing me from staying on the net...well...not really...BUT I GOTTA PULL MYSELF AWAY OR ELSE I'LL NEVER I MEAN NEVER GET STARTED ON MY HOMEWORK...So to say the least i'm doom....

Gosh the list could go on but i'm stopping there...

Man! It's so tempting to get on the net, especially when I know what will happen if I get on...I get side-tracked and then I forget about my homework and then i regret it like crazy later....Okay better go I'm already getting side-tracked...Okay Later Then...

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

I FOUND SOMETHING SO FUNNY TODAY...MY FRIEND THOUGHT THAT I REALLY NEED HELP BECAUSE I KEPT SAYING I WANTED TO DIE...TRUE I DO BUT NOT ANYTIME SOON...SHE SAID THAT IF I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO I COULD TALK TO HER...AND I WAS LIKE "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT...AM I REALLY THAT HELPLESS..." IT WAS FUNNY...YOU MIGHT NOT THINK SO BUT I FOUND IT WAS...HAHA AND IT WAS HEKA FUNNY TOO BECAUSE I WAS CHOPPING ONIONS EARLIER AND I PURPOSELY MADE MY 3YEAR OLD NEPHEW COME STAND NEXT TO ME SO THAT HE COULD START CRYING FROM THE STING OF THE ONIONS...MUAHAHA EVIL ME...YEAH AND EVENTUALLY HIS EYE'S STARTING GETTING WATERY AND I COULD TELL HE WAS SUFFERING FROM THE STING SO I TOOK HIM OUTSIDE...HAHA STUPID ME...

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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

   MY TEARFUL COOKING

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

I was crying earlier....haha not really...my tears were forced out...i didn't feel sad...i was simply cooking and what made me cried while cooking was a ONION?! yes that powerful onion that was ready to be eaten had a last request and before it died or got chopped into my stir fry it wanted me to cry...so i cried...but for the onion but because it made me cried unintensionally...yes and while crying i curse that damn tasty onion for making me cry...so as i chopped the onion to it's very last breath i cried and wiped my tears away because they burned and sting...haha...DAMN THAT ONION!! MADE ME CRIED FOR NO GOOD REASON...MADE MY COOKING SEEM SO TEARFUL....*TEARS*

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Sunday, October 8, 2006

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

Guess what i'm eating??? I'm eating these salt taffy...they're good but it gets stuck in my teeth cause they're so sticky...i'm having a hard time taking it out of my teeth right now...anyways...nothing to do...i mean i got tons of thing to do... i just do ever do it...um...like see what else...well more candies for me then...bye

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Thursday, October 5, 2006

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HELLO & GOODBYE - JULY 6, 2008

Hello all of my lovely friends...oh gosh i sound so lame -_- anyways...i'm hella bored...i keep telling myself that i'm gonna keep watching naruto,but i can never find the time to, man how much worser can my life get..hmmm...is "worser" a word? cause everytime i type the word out my microsoft word keep telling me the spelling is wrong..but what the heck, i don't care what microsoft word says...cuz i think it sounds okay and correct...so i'm going to go ahead and use it anyways..

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