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Birthday
• 1985-12-02
Gender
• Male
Location
• Johannesburg, South Africa
Member Since
• 2003-08-09
Occupation
• Commissioned artist, amateur writer
Real Name
• i have many names.....people who know me know what to call me but you can call me whatever you want- makes no difference to me (but people usually call me J)

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Achievements
• I succeed in failing and fail in succeeding
Anime Fan Since
• whenever it was that i first watched it...but I am not a fan
Favorite Anime
• I do enjoy all of sunrise and hajime yatate productions...especially escaflowne, bebop, and scryed. also a fan of old school anime
Goals
• none of my goals are ever achieved. i have many...and that is the same as having none, i will only succeed at dying
Hobbies
• ...existing in an existential quandary full of loathing and self doubt
Talents
• I dont believe in talent- everything that i am good at i have worked hard to achieve that skill




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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Happiness is sadness...love is loneliness
*sigh* hey there ballerinas...
im a little down since yesterday. have ever had one of those feelings where you are both happy as well as sad simultaneously? its odd- i know why im having it but i'd prefer to keep it personal...its heart issues and its very confusing...some of you may recognise my attitude either because you remember from last time or you have experienced it yourself. im sorry that this post is a little more morbid then the usual cheery funny (supposedly) one but you know you cant deny your own feelings. i havent been able to draw and my g/n is due in on wednesday next week...you know what that means right? it means that i thought it had to be in on friday and therefore ive lost 2 crucial days. so all i have to say is argh (it would be in capitals with an ! but im just too down to do it) my mother inists that i go to therapy- none of you could know why though because the way i am in person is somewhat different to here (as im sure is the case with most of you).
life sure has a strange way of hurting me though- but its not just me, its everyone. as soon as i become so happy...well the happiness gets taken away and replaced with depression, oh well im not going to mope around in front of you...i dont even have the net anymore- im posting this from college.
*sigh* alas, i feel that this temperament is going to last for another 2 weeks to 3 weeks...sorry but im sure all of you have your off days right? -_- i wont bore you anymore.
i just hope that you all have yourselves wonderful days because happiness is a true gift that not many have.

until next time...

p.s i have some interesting posts lined up for the holidays and you might even get to see an actual photo of me (its a rare occurence so yeah now youll have a meaningless event where you can tell your grandkids "i knew that guy when he was 19")
anyway
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