Thursday, December 2, 2004

Happy Birthday to me!
Well another year has passed.
Today I was thinking about all that’s happened over the passed year and I decided to recap it here.
December 2003 was just like every other year- had the birthday (nothing happened as usual), went to the coast, however this time around I was totally ecstatic when I found out that I had passed matric (but just barely- I almost failed because of 1 subject). Well as usual I spent the rest of the holiday doing pretty much nothing but came February it was time to begin what would surely decide my future- animation college!
My whole year has been for this college:
1st semester- Photoshop and premiere, pixelation and intro to conceptual art;
2nd semester- 3Ds MAX (modelling), Claymation and advanced art 101;
3rd semester- 3Ds MAX (animation 101- story telling), advanced Conceptual art 2 (creativity and conceptualising);
4th semester- 3Ds MAX (advanced animation- biped character animation), final conceptual work- graphic novel (sum up of the years art)
college was hard to put it mildly bearing with hours that ranged from 9am- 6pm but eventually went to 7am to 10pm…then it went on to nights where I never even went home.

the year has been filled with toil, hard work, sleepless nights, heartbreak, extremely strict deadlines…over all a very tough year- harder then any of my school years.

But this year was also a very good year:
I made a few very good friends on myO which is very important because everyone back home hates me for some reason…well I am a freak but that’s besides the point, I never had any friends before- well now I do even though theyre so far away. I also met my first real love…we were together for about 3 months but then we broke up, it was sad but it was for the best. My art skills increased exponentially (especially my inking and perspective) even so far that I was offered to work inking a local comic book- well there were other people submitting CVs but because of college I regretfully had to give up the job to a very talented artist and im sure he is enjoying his work very much. After all that I also start to use myO quite a lot since I hadn’t used it for about 4 or 5 months (I still need to start uploading more art).
At the strange turn of events…about a month ago I met the love of my life, I cant explain much because what she means to me are more then what words have to offer but on this special day I have written her a poem…it may not be much and very often it doesn’t seem to make much sense but for once I let my heart do all of the writing and for my heart there are no mistakes. So my angel I give to you this poem on my birthday.

Seasons of the heart

How could I love you?
Beauty nestled among the spring blossoms,
Mysterious girl of my heart,
Which comes to my arms amidst a peaceful dream.

How can you be so sweet?
Radiance emanating from your heart,
Your rich, warm summer glow,
You put my heart at ease.

How could I love you?
Soul gracefully flowing through the autumn breeze,
The one I hold so dear to my heart,
Never leave my safe embrace,

How could you be subjected to hurt?
Harsh intents of those that seek to give you pain shall stop,
No longer will your heart be shattered,
The shards left to be blown away by the winter wind.

How could I love you?
The one I care for most,
Take my heart and hold it safe,
And I shall hold yours forever more…

-J-

my angel, I love you more then anything in the world, know that I will always be there for you even if the day comes when you no longer need me…
I want to make you happy, I just hope that I am.
I give you my heart, mind, soul and spirit take them as a token of my undying love for you…

Now for a letter of apology,
I am sincerely sorry to those few of you that gave me photo’s to draw as gifts for you…I didn’t want to put them on because the others who said they would give me photos never actually did and since I have dedicated this month as a birthday month I would still like absolutely anyone who considers me a good friend or at least a friend (im sure you know who you are) to please give me photo’s of yourself- preferably a mug shot or some photo where I can at least see your face relatively clearly… you see I used to do caricatures at corporate functions and weddings and I just want to give instead of receive.
Which reminds me once again ive reached the age where my parents feel that a gift is not necessary for a birthday and im sure that I will only get a present from my grandmother (if she can remember that is) I haven’t even had any phone calls from family to wish me happy birthday…
But im getting a present from my angel and that’s all that matters to me…I don’t even need a present but knowing shes there for me and im there for her…well that’s all I ever need.

So I may update a little later because seeing that the time difference between here and the US is so great it will be a little strange when I say ive just gone out for supper and you’re all still having lunch lol.

So until then, all of you just celebrate this day as if it were your birthday and don’t forget that its AIDS month so go out and get yourself and AIDS ribbon and give charity to a worthy AIDS cause (or any other cause).

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