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Birthday
• 1985-12-02
Gender
• Male
Location
• Johannesburg, South Africa
Member Since
• 2003-08-09
Occupation
• Commissioned artist, amateur writer
Real Name
• i have many names.....people who know me know what to call me but you can call me whatever you want- makes no difference to me (but people usually call me J)

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Achievements
• I succeed in failing and fail in succeeding
Anime Fan Since
• whenever it was that i first watched it...but I am not a fan
Favorite Anime
• I do enjoy all of sunrise and hajime yatate productions...especially escaflowne, bebop, and scryed. also a fan of old school anime
Goals
• none of my goals are ever achieved. i have many...and that is the same as having none, i will only succeed at dying
Hobbies
• ...existing in an existential quandary full of loathing and self doubt
Talents
• I dont believe in talent- everything that i am good at i have worked hard to achieve that skill




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myOtaku.com: original J


Sunday, June 12, 2005

...alone and lonely...
I'm so alone…
I feel so alone these days…I just cant connect with anybody and besides for not being able to go on the net anymore (or for at least a little while), I have lost almost total contact with any of the people I care for- no emails, no PM’s…nothing. Its not that I feel abandoned, its just that I cant be with you and its driving me crazy. Being in love teaches you a few things…like how to care, but it also teaches one how to be lonely. I never felt lonely until I fell in love. My classmates are all I have and even they aren’t people I can truly connect with- Emilia once said that I should stop trying to be different…I'm just misunderstood and different, I never chose to be that way- its just the way I am destined to be. I spend over 14 hours at college everyday…the least anyone can do is show that they care a little, I'm also a human with feelings and they can get hurt just like everybody else.

I care…

An extract from my journal- 11/06/2005

I hope you all are well, take care while I cant…
And don’t count every second…make every second count.

-J-
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