Saturday, January 17, 2004

Bitter Happiness
My life just gets deeper and deeper, and I find more things to write about.

Well, first off, I woke up at 10. Yeah, that's right. Right when I was supposed to be at the mall with my friends and Monica.

At about 10:10 my friends called by means of cell phone, and I believe their exact words were "NICK, WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!". Eventually I got to the mall at 11, and met them at the arcade. Mr. Frankie and Mr. Ethan, my two best friends, were playing Time Crisis two, with another friend (Elizabeth), who was watching. I found them, played a couple games of DanceDance Revolution (*sobs* I failed Sobakusu Freckles.. Damn 16th notes), and we decided to go look for Monica, her sister Leana, and their associates. We had not walked 20 feet when we bumped into them.. They wanted to go to the arcade, but we first stopped in Suncoast. There I found the precious item I was questing for-- Neon Genesis Evangelion: Resurrection. It's the 7th Eva DVD with tons of extra footage, as well as a huge amount of info on the upcoming live action movie. Unfortunately, I hadn't brought the manga I was going to exchange for the disc, and we just browsed for a while.

Ethan, probably my best best friend at the moment, decided to distract everyone so that Monica and I would be alone. And, I suppose, it worked; but it's not like she and I went to have lunch or something. We just walked to the arcade together, talking a bit. All of the arcade's change machines were broken, which resulted in.. o.o; Me getting distracted by nothing in particular while Monica and her sister played DDR.

When they ran out of quarters, we all decided to hit the movies. I wanted to see Big Fish, but we ended up seeing Along Came Polly. All day long I was kind of keeping everyone together- I was running around the mall finding people and playing arcade games inbetween. So I bought my ticket, found Monica, she disappeared and came back a while later, and we eventually got into the movie. The previews had started already. I like previews. That made me sad.

Fortunately, however, I got Monica to sit next to me. Of course, though, Frankie (Who used to, and maybe still does, have a thing for Monica) sat next to me, to "Keep us all in order."

The movie was okay- It had nice setup and good acting.. But I was barely focusing on it. I was trying.. I don't know what I was trying to do, really. I suppose I was trying to come into physical contact with her in any shape or form. Nothing that physical, though. I had three friends near me and Monica's sister watching us fromt he row in front of me. I just.. Well, I held her hand once last year. I loved that feeling. I wanted to feel that sensation again.

But before I knew it, the movie was over, and everyone left. I didn't even say goodbye to her. She, all of a sudden, disappeared.

On the bright side, I have talked to her more in the past 3 days than I have in the rest of my life. But, sadly, words are not as expressive as actions.
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