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Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Isn't this picture I made off meoravatar.com kawaii?
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Lent
I don't know what to do. These are my proposals:
1. Volunteer
2. Speak up when truly dissatisfied
3. Stop the self-blame
Can't think of anything else
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A random question
If someone told you you would be in the situation in your life and the way you are as a 10 year-old, would you believe them?
I would, as I had massive hopes and aspirations as a 10 year-old to make myself better, and better my situation. :)
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Amaris unleashed her legs to the world!
Yes. I was wearing my blue skirt, above the knee, with my blue tights on. To say, unfortunately, I looked pretty good. I had to go the sewing shop (to get some buttons for my waistcoat), which is near me, but I had to go on the high road, and there was this man from across the road, and he was staring at me! *shivers*
It was warm, and that was wearing I was so nicely dressed. I got up this morn, and it was so nice and bright! Like my favourite month July! There was this guy who was walking infront of me when I was clip-clopping along, and he was wearing, hat, scarf, gloves, two pairs of trousers like a regular gangsta! I was walking along with my top and blazer on, and was boiling! How peculiar! It was oh-so warm!
Not much has happened today. I have done no homework. Bad me! Nothing else to report. I spend most of my day creaming myself and reapplying moisture to my skin. I also had a nightmare thing, where we got broken into, which is rather hard as we live on the first floor...
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
I am sporting a black and white striped top, shorts and knee high white socks, and loving it!
So how am I?
My mum made me a waistcoat, but I haven't worn it yet, as it has no buttons or buttonholes.
Watched 'heroes' yesterday. IT was alright. It was weird with the Japanese guy and I don't understand the power of the single mother.
Didn't help at the Tate taster day. I did work instead. Woke up at 8 am, and just got up. Nothing else has happened. My life is so dry! Now I'm off to visit your sites people! *grins*
Wow, it's Shove Tuesday today. I don't know if I'm going to mass. Also, I don't know what to give up, or do extra. I think volunteering and being more focused.
Oh, and I forgot, if you read this CosmicSailor, they are creamy, but they're covered in rice paper...
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Monday, February 19, 2007
Wellies and boots!
Yes, unfortunately, I have joined the world, and resigned, and now I have a pair of boots. My shoe collection is expanding Now I have: school shoes, sandels, high heels, tennis shoes, wellies and boots. The boots are kind of fluffy, but they'll last me a good while, so they can be used next year EVEN if they aren't in fashion. Fashion is irritating because at present, there are only ballet shoes  in the shops, and they are alright for shinny girls, not that I'm not slender, but they aren't good on me because I have flat feet, and they aren't flattering, and I'm too near to the lovely polluted streets of London!
Anyway, a nice song I like:
(about the colours. That's why I'm not fashion conscious!)
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Family therapy good! But Amaris went all shy and nervous like she used to be,
Gosh! I've lost all my confidence as I was tired today. The lady thearpist, Gillian seemed nice. She was Scottish, so I spent most of my time trying to get used to the prnounciation of her words.
I got all nervous and shy! I lost my posh accent completely. My eye contact remained good. WE had to wait for a while, and it was a council thing, and it looked like it was made in the 60s, and had hardly changed since then. We just talked about how the process would be, and what could be done to go further and stuff. I just said very lightly about my fucked up relationship with my dad, and me wanting this to be resolved, as this has been going on as long as I lived, and 11 years before that; it's all very complicated.
I ate the left-over Chinese this morn- lots to keep up my energy, and I've opened the 'White  Rabbit' sweets. My mum ate them as a child. I like them, but not the rice paper.
My brother was going mad about ramen, and we were screaming it down the road and all the way home. We've got some Chinese noodles; we eat instant noodles ALL the time- we've had them since we were ickle.
Also, when we were going, we were on the Piccadily line, and there was this tall man, and his head was sticking out of the train. My brother pointed it out, and we were all sniggering, and then the doors closed, and it smacked him in the head, and he yelped as it knocked him in the head, and we were all practically wetting ourselves in sadistic delight!
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Sunday, February 18, 2007
So tired!
If glares could kill, you'd be dead, let me just say.
Went uptown to Leicester Square/ Trafalgar square and it was packed. Watched the events standing, and then we went to China town, and it was closed until the police let us in, we walked around in a circle; more walking. Luckily, the whole place was cordened off for vehicles, so we could walk in the roads. We finally got into China town, went into a shop with Chinese food, and then wandered around for the next 40 minutes trying to find a restaurant WITHOUT any queues! We ended up going home, and going to the local Chinese. Now, I don't like people/ crowds, and what was there? CROWDS! People rubbing up against me, a man nudging my left breast as he kept hugging and kissing his partner, someone on my bottom etc. Utterly terrible, and I was tired and my feet hurt, and then I got grumpy. I am horrible grumpy. Utter unbearable I am! That's the side which I hate- my self-proclaimed job in the world is to complain. I moan and I groan and I mutter and complain. What a darling life!
I've got family therapy tomorrow, so wish me luck! 6797 visits! W00t! Thank you all!
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
Yes. That was the wonderful thing a gril was saying to her friend on the train, next to me, and over the roar of the Nothern line, I could hear her. If you sat on the norhern line, you can't hear your music. That is all I have to say.
Ah yes! Something I forgot!
I was in Visual dislogues standing around in the Duveen halls wasting time in the group, and I was next to Ryan and Samar, and we were being silly, and then we were talking about how our feet hurt, and then discussing the atrocity of the fact that we all have flat feet. Samar said she could tell with my feet in my heels. She says how she's practically not got an instep, mine is practically non-existent. I can't join the army says my mum. XD
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 How was by day?! Lots of standing...
Yes. Standing, standing, standing!!!
Yes. I dolled up for Saturday as I always do. I went to Visual Dislogues today, so I had to wake up at darnwell 8am! 7:52 to be exact. I've missed 'See Hear'! They don't repeat the show for the deaf!
So, they three dreaded girls, who are the fucking worst of ALL the group were there! All of them haven't been there for a while, so when we went through the paintings at the Tate... boy was it hell! I had my pretty high heels, but I have flat feet, so they kill me, and it's fucking stone- the floor of the Tate Britain! I spent most of the time bored, and there was no one to talk to, and I was/ am tired and pissed off. The artist we work with, is too laid-back and she allows all of the absences to be fine! So we play 'catch-up' most of the fecking session. The session is 10:30- 13:30, but I didn't leave until 2:20! It was alright, but I was wondering if my mum was wondering where the hell I was! Gosh! I'm touch-typing so well! Not have I looked at the keyboard once!
So, it was a boring session which those three idiots saying the most idiotic things, which are painfully obvious! These are 18 yr olds, and I'm far more mature than them. Hadeena, the worst of all the girls was there. She's ONE of the most ignorant black girls I've ever come across! She doesn't even know my name which is annoying!
Moving on from the pain of wearing those high heels and getting the heel caught in the grate and my arms flailing about like a weird fish...
So, I've gone through some of my mum's material, and I want an assortment of pinafores, shorts and dresses! I also still need to get those fecking wellies. I would also like to go to the Gilbert and George exhibition at the Tate Modern. 1. Because it's free for me because I'm a member 2. Because I've never seen their stuff not out of a book. My mum says "Their stuff's alright until they start undressing." My mum's so funny. Here's a pic: 
There was a thing on it'The culture show'. They were basically discussing whether it's just for the sake of scaring people. This man who made their suits- he worked in a tailor's said "Art people like shit. Art is shit. We provide them shit in a style, and it's good if we make money from it." How funny. I do very much agree. They do all their art together, and they say how they contribute to the art equally. It was a very bizzarely arranged show. As my mum said, it was very music based this week. Regina Spektor was on and she played a song. I like her. Her singing's funny.
OO OO OO! I GOT TO PLAY ON MY BROTHER'S GAMEBOY ADVANCED SP WHICH MY BRO GOT OFF eBAY FOR £30. PLAYING 'SUPER MARIO' WAS FUNNY, BUT OO IS DONKEY KONG ANNOYING! BANGING INTO ME! THE 'ORRIBLE BUGGER!
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