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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
My eyes are blurry! *laughs maniacally*
I can't spell, I can't speack, and I can't sleep (all of 'em start with 's'! *nose drips*) I feel so like crap. I've got 6669 visits. Hope you don't hate me for that.
I pretty much only like the riff of this song. Enjoy
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I sold my soul to get on the internet! (No, actually, I typed-up my 11 year old bro's project *shudders*)
Well, it's day two that I@m sick. Had 4 or five cups of tea so far, and it's only 13:45!
The feeling of shards in the throat has not arrived YET, but I'm waiting for that later today and tomorrow morning. I phoned a friend about homework, and she said I have the french orals today, but as I mused to my mum 'what's the point in me going when I can't even speak English?' I really can't speak English. I'm all breathless and wheezy because I have PHLEGM IN MY CHEST AND AIRWAYS! HUZZAHH! I can deal with it fine because my asthma always hits me in winter, but the retching I do when I cough is most undelightful!
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Monday, January 29, 2007
I'm rank 100 bitch!
I just wanted to tell everyone that. You aren't bitches by the way. It's just a term of expression to illustrate I am happy!
I'm happy! Not many people are visiting my site but I'm still doing well! I remember the days where I USED to get 24 comments a pop! *sighs*
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 Sore throat. :(
My back my back my back! God it hurts! *whimpers* I'm off from school today because I've got a sore throat. My back hurts, and I've got olbas oil on me neck and I'm wearing my scarf. :( I feel sorry for myself. I spent most of the time before I got on here, playing spider solitaire and free sell, listening to the radio with my mum who was kintting.
I woke up at 6:30, told my mum I wasn't well (I got my cough late Saturday night) and went back to bed. I've got a terible backache.
I've done nothing and am quite proud of that! :D
Had a cup of tea and that was nice. My mum said I must have an aspestos mouth because her tea was hot, and she made it at the same time.
Sunday was alright. I spent the whole day belly-aching about my throat. Church was full of the lovable middle-class white people who didn't know what they were doing because it was a presentation mass by the little year 3s (7-8 yr olds) doing their first Holy Communion in June. It was alright. I got abandoned because I was taking so long to get ready yesterday morn. I was freaking out about the hour fast (you shouldn't have Communion if you've eaten less than an hour ago), but the mass took so darn long, that I could go up. Nothing else really. Good thing I'm ill becuase I did no homework *looks guilty* I spent my time watching episodes of 'Naruto' from 216 up to 219. I know I'm bad, but blame my bro! I told him the risks, but as an 11 yr old, he doesn't understand the possible ramifications. Ah well. I've nothing REALLY to do this evening *smiles* no visual dialogues because I'm sick. :D God I hate the people in it! A bunch of older idiots who are ignorant!
Well, read and comment my post!
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Saturday, January 27, 2007
I'm hap-hap-happy!
Well, today's been good, my sister and I pranced about this morning/ afternoon. It was fun.
Wearing my eye make-up, I look like I played with charcoal, even though I look like that naturally. I'm also just wearing a v-neck top and shorts today. It's January. I'm terribly smart, aren't I?
Also finished 'Howl's Moving castle' this morn. It's simple and there's a happy ending, which you knew from the beginning, but you some of that sometimes rather than the dark stuff that I usually make or read. Nothing else to report really. My bro was watching Naruto AMVs on youtube, and we watched the 216th episode of Naruto, subbed, and it's weird seeing them older! I said to my bro it was illegal though.
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Friday, January 26, 2007
I@m so awful!
There's this girl that I don't like since I stopped sitting next to her last school year. She's a two-faced bitch basically. I saw her this morn, and yesterday morn, she called me out, just infront of the school in the morn, I was out of it thinking, and I talked to her, using all the wonderful social capabilities I hate, I mean have! lol I saw her this morn, and I walk fast, but I walked extra slow, I was early for once, because I bought rather than made breakfast because there was nothing. I know it's low, but I don't want to talk to her, and I don't want to appear even more rude than she knows I am! XD People are so compicated!
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I didn't have to do my French oral! Yessss!
My teacher wasn't in, so I now more or less have the weekend.
I'm so glad that it's the end of the week! The whole palaver of this week has ended, and meddling people, but this week, I've been happy. Very happy weirdly enough. I feel like the cloud over my body has gone, and I feel more confident, and joyful, despite the fact that it's now colder and it snowed earlier this week. Nothing more to add really. I've done well in the other English test and in Maths I got a B even though my target's an A, but I should get it in the REAL test in June *shivers*.
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 Darn internet being blocked at school! Assessment of yesterday.
Currently sleepy. Watched the 'Vicar of Dibley' episode where they were talking about Live 8. I was falling asleep. I didn't mean to be mean about people dying, but like with the Mark Wallinger piece, I've seen it so much before, and I'm aware of the world, I don't feel a way.
Now, the post I typed up at school :P
Well, yesterday, as with this week, I was all nice and energised. That was until I went to Tate Forum. This girl, of which hasn’t come since August, popped up, and imposed herself into the meeting, talking about how OUR art should be in the Tate, and she went on talking about how we should burn the old paintings because they have spent so long in there. Corinne went on saying how it was sacrilege in the building, of which I agreed, but she went on for like 10 minutes talking about this, and how we should have 3 canvases each, and I thought ‘Canvas costs A LOT of money! Does she expect the TATE TO PAY?!’ but I didn’t say anything. I spent the whole time bored, drawing a narrow-minded person, with a literal narrow mind. I wore my animé badges, and one of the guys, of whom I can’t remember his name again, likes animé too, and I had Kaworu Nagisa and Asuka Langley Sohryu. He’s watched it too, and owns all the episodes, and movies. I hope he’s telling the truth anyway. Many people seemed uninterested basically, and I’m the only person from my school and still in the secondary school system :( so it was very boring. I wasn’t even sitting next to my friendy-thing because I got there late, and sat on the other side. The stupid girl, Rebecca reminded me of Hadeena, which was funny, because that’s another black girl I don’t like. As I said to my mum “all these black girls I don’t like! They’re supposed to be my kind!” my mum just sniggered back. Also, Mark, who’s in-charge, has this lovely way of guilting people! Since the New Year, people have been coming back. I’ve gone to all the sessions except two since June *laughs* . He said, “Ah, Rebecca! I haven’t seen you since the end of August at the meal! Where were you?” she gave a guilty smile, and went quiet! I very much had an evil and malicious grin on my face. Also, she wanted to talk on the Wallinger piece. The darn thing is about dying and anti-war for fuck’s sake! She said she wanted to dress up for the presentation for the event in Feb half-term. I told her, and she astonished. She hasn’t seen the fucking thing, and she’s assuming! Arsehole!
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
 Friends. (Back in summer holidays, my goal was to be more social)
People in my year always talk about how I have no friends. I personally do not see it as a problem, but others do.
I don't go out much because I don't have friends, and therefore I get no friends. There's nowhere to go in my neighbourhood, and I don't travel much anyway.
Here's my choice of school friends: (I go to a majority black 'Catholic' girls' school)
The popular non-black people in the class
The gangster girls
The r'n'b girls
the quiet girls
That's all there is, and I do not fit in, yet society always wants me to. It's just so hard. Ugh. People are so fucking narrow-minded.
I'm rank 101! Yay for me! At last!
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Shouldn’t be on now. Should be doing my science homework!
Well, today was this year’s first day of snow. I can’t remember if it snowed last year. The beginning of the year, I spent most of my time tired, depressed and suicidal. Oh joy! It melted by like 12 pm though! *cries* It was bitterly cold though. I wore tights and me socks! I even wore a coat to school, which I never do! I had a maths test this morn, and loads of people weren’t in because of the snow. I know the people who live far away got it like an hour late. They didn’t even have any extra time!
In Drama, some girls in my class were laughing at two girls because their accents hindered them slightly. One is Columbian, and the other Polish. I think they did well, considering they came to England- the Columbian year 9 and the Polish one year 10. They can speak better English than the lovely black people who were born and raised here!
I think the maths test went well, even though I missed out two pages. XD Oh well! *pouts* Hope that doesn’t hinder my result!
I wasn't on because I had choir today, but I'll be on at lunch tomo's.
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