Birthday • 1991-07-11 Gender •
Female Location • somewhere where you don't know, actually London in England Member Since • 2003-10-10 Occupation • Sixth Form student, fan girl, writer and struggling artist/ creator Real Name • Amaris Hope you like the name because it is really so!
Personal
Achievements • Not killing the people in my school YET, or the world; being able to push people away; being socially isolated; let my grades go down because I'm lazy and an idiot; read all the books in my library, get my english teacher to think I self-harm (DSH) Anime Fan Since • I was 7, Yr 3, 1998 or so. The first anime was the infamous 'Sailor Moon'! XD Favorite Anime • Most of them except Ultimate Muscle because it is soo ruubiishh-o! I Love 'Neon Genesis Evangelion'! Shinji is such a passive-aggressive boy, and he hates himself so! I can relate, because I hate myself. I hate everyone else in the world!Human condition! Goals • to actually finish a story!;To not die before 40, to get a good job which I enjoy- IMPOSSIBLE!; To find someone I love; to not end up killing myself because I suffer from depression. Hobbies • reading, writing (all-sorts) and watching tv, getting annoyed, typing, blaming myself; being TOO perceptive; seeing all the faults of the world; telling people off if they are wrong; trying to decipher the world Talents •
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The wind and cold is here!!!
This morn, I was freezing! Sometimes I really wish that I had gloves! I don't though! I have a glove! :( *sobs* I don't even know where it is though...
I don't really have anything after lunch. Drama is the lesson and we're watching plays of the kiddies! My one last Weds was good. Everyone loved it. I liked being evil. It comes naturally though!
In art, we're supposed to do our final thing, but I haven't a clue to what I@m going to do fuck it! Jeez! My art teacher being away doesn't help. I managed to waffle about a bit, and then I did a self-portrait, in which I said I lloked like a witch. And then I looked miserable, and then thinking. It was weird. I hate drawing lips. Especially my lips, as they are funny. They are pink and brown. Ugh. The eyebrows were also evil. Darn nonbrows!
I can't think of any other things to report. Comments (2) |
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WEll, nothing much happened last night.
I did nothing in the afternoon and evening. This morn, there was s fight between myself and my bro because he threw my pencilcase, which was in my room, at Mairin who was in the dining room and missed, and I couldn't find it. Then Jared EVENTUALLY found it, after huffing and puffing. He purposely didn't go into the dining room while I was in there, for he knew he would have gottn an earful out of me!
He also threw my tubey thing for my arm away, and I can only find one. I had it around my neck last night, and then I plaited my hair in two, and looked like a mad French girl. It was fun.
My arms are burning- itchy like mad. Luckily I cut my nails again this week because otherwise I would scratch myself and bleed. I think it's because I didn't cream myself with the strong stuff to bleach it off, or something like that. Comments (0) |
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Monday, January 22, 2007
DArn you admin at school!
WEll the admin at school in the ICT department did it so I couldn't get on here. No, they didn't block it, it's only a temporary measure, but that's pissed me off, so I'm in the library after-school doing all of this.
How am I? Alright. My bro and sis were just CONSTANTLY being mean to me, and making me feel bad, and getting me depressed, like that's the last thing I need!
For my result in English, I got an A+! Oh yeah! A girl got an A*, but I don't care.
Didn't really do anything yesterday. Didn't do my homework. Today a girl in my class was annoying me, but we were being playful, so that's alright.
I watched this show on BBC three, and it was about a bunch of chavs, and how their lives are. They were in my year last year, and it was just so hard to watch because they were so ignorant and took pride in their ignorance!
In the end, the three teenagers kind of parted, and then in the end, there was this silly girl talking about how she had parted from her friend, and she said that she didn't want to talk Science with her. She didn't care about Tony Blair. She had her own little world she lived in, and it didn't matter to her. She said all this. How pathetically ignorant.
The guy, who was Indian, I think, was talking about how gangster he was, and about how he wants respect and all that shit.
The girlk when they finished secondary school said how she doesn't have the burden of pretending to be someone wshe's not anymore. I'm glad I don't do that! I'm Amaris, who likes anime and will stand up for herself whether you like it or not! Comments (5) |
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
He He! A past thing I did!
And another!
This is the website if you want to make your own. :)
http://www.mybannermaker.com/ Comments (1) |
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The Culture show! :D
It's finally on! They took it off in November. I love my little taste of all the sorts of things, plus they talk about Indie music too, so that's always good. I hate the presenter though, Lairen Laverne with her Geordie accent.
I'm just so glad!
I see nothing wrong with a black girl trying to find out more about the world! Comments (0) |
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The two people who I so very much dislike were at Visual dialogues
Well, both black girls were there harassing me! Their names are Hadeena and Tarasai, and they're both 18 and thick as two short planks!
Hadeena only wants to work with clay, and Tarasai is ignorant in the fact that everything is new for her. Her accent, which is American, gets on my wick. It's not her fault, but it just does.
We were looking at the reproduction of Brain Haw's placards against the Iraq war. Here's the official URL from the Tate website. I can't remember the HTML for linking, so here's the URL http://www.tate.org.uk/britain/exhibitions/wallinger/
I was really impressed, and it truly shows the horrors of war. When I was being interviewed by Tarasai for the project, she was suprised when I told her that I was already aware of all this, she was suprised, like she was saying 'How dare a 15 year-old girl know more than myself on war?!'. So utterly funny! *grins*
I feel that the war is desensitised because we see it everyday, and then get on with our everyday lives. Also, Brian Haw gave up his family to be on the roundabout to oppose the war. He has now been kicked out of his sport where he lived for 5 years.
He was there before the legislation about not protesting without permission was in place. Anyone who accompanies him for too long it arrested.
Under the Serious Organised Crime and Police Act, no one can protest within 1 km of the houses of Parliament. The line bisects the Tate Britain. When I was telling the people at Visual Dialogues, they all looked flabbergasted, and didn't know any of this! XD
It was a good session, and the breakfast was good. I had to get there for 10am!
At the end, I was walking with this guy Ryan. He's black, got a small afro, and wears quite stylish clothes. He's 18 like all of the guys at Visual Dialogues. I'm the youngest. I'm the only person still at school! He seems fine enough- right up until he went a lit a cigarette. I didn't say anything because it was a nice day, and I could breathe (I have asthma). He was careful where he blew the smoke, so that was good. He asked the funniest question! He asked: "Where's the river Thames?"! Come on! We were walking on one road, and it was parallel to the Thames! XD I casually answered "there." indicating it with my left arm, as we were drossing the road. Then he answered, "Oh. Because I thought I'd go sightseeing" to which I smiled and shook my head.
Being around ignorant people was hell! I don't suffer fools gladly!
READ THE BLASTED THING! AND COMMENT! Comments (4) |
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I felt like a bit of a prat in drama during lunch
I was the only person out of the four in the group to meet the teacher, so I did some stuff with her. She was sad that I didn't give in my essay. For the love of me I forgot! Honest to God! :(
It was not fun when she was sad about it, and I felt demoralised, and then I had to go and act. Was very hard to say the least.
I didn't even have lunch because it was crap, but because my mum doesn't work, I didn't have to pay. Comments (0) |
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Art test today.
Doing art today. It's on self-portrait, so I'm doing it about what I want to convey as. Comments (1) |
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The wind and cold is here!!! 
The two people who I so very much dislike were at Visual dialogues 
A pretty cheap song, but good nonetheless!