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Saturday, June 17, 2006
I'm alright! I am just mad.
I don't know why I did that. Just felt like it. Well, how's my week been over all? Hmmm.... a bit damper than usual. Things!
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I'm bored. I'll be around. I can't think of anything to download, so if you like a band, and you think that I'd like 'em, just go and say! Also, always feel free to pm me!
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Friday, June 16, 2006
I'm on!
Yeah. Yesterday I had the thing with the doctor. She was saying how I was very confident, self-assured, and generally a teenager who nows what they were doing! I found it annoying that she was soft-spken, which gave me the creeps, because I am very aware, and always felt undermined as a child being talked to like that. I don't understand when teachers claim that they are talking to you like an adult. To tell you the truth, I can't tell the difference!
I didn't go to school afterwards, so I spent my day wasting time, and I missed the art lesson, and to take in my shoe, which is awkward, and the Japanese classes during lunch.
Today, I woke up pissed off, and feeling like shit. Maybe it's my sleep deprivation, and now I feel depressed. I find it so hard to breath and keep back the tears. My heart is beating fast as ever, and I'm generally in a bad mood, but feel free to pm me to make me happy! :I)
Ahh. I'm bored. P.E. as ever was REALLY annoying. I also kicked the ball out, shouted, and hit someone with it. Sorry! Anyway, I was hot and bothered, but I went to the library, and got alot of art-based books, and the TASCHEN one is really good. My mum says they're good reference books.
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
 My shoulder hurts. A Year 9 ran into me with her chin!
That really upset me. I was gong to this room, and I see this girl, which I see alot walking. her friend goes, and runs in my direction, missing me. She looks around, and to scare her, and to save myself, I was going to shout 'Look where you're going!' or 'Don't bang into me!', but I thought that it was alright, but then she turned, and walked into me, right in my left shoulder with her chin, she was taller than me, but her chin whacked me. I shouted 'Idiot!', and her 'Bitch!', and we did this, and then I was holding my shoulder, because it REALLY hurt!
It still does! Idiots!
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It's an alright day. Lent The Dresden Dolls' album
It's alright today. Kind of cold, and the poem we're reading in English is funny.
Not much else I have to say for once!
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Tuesday, June 13, 2006
It has rained! It has rained! It's cold, and do I have my jumper?
WEll, another night of not sleeping. I don't mind. At least it was raining. I heard it at 6:40. Nothing else really.
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Monday, June 12, 2006
Who is swaeting? I am sweating! Who can't sleep? I can't sleep!
I have serious bags under my eyes, and it feels that every single time that I move, I get covered in sweat, and have to sit down for a while to cool down!
Well, hope all July and August rains! Come one coolness!
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The heat is immense!
London temperature is NOT suppose to be like this!
It's just so hot!
Over the weekend, it was all hot and stuffy, but especially today. It was terrible!
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I'm alright, par from the fact that I'm sleepy, it's hot, and I can't really see the text on the monitor.
Hmmm... life in London is just grand at the moment. It's about 8o degrees plus in farenheit, and about 26-30 degrees Celcius.
On Thursday, I have to have an interview with a doctor for me to decide if my family is to have 'family therapy'. I'm in two minds, because I'm not really in the mood to bring up all the shit and low self-esteem I had when I was younger because of my father, but I want my dad to know the hurt he put me through as a child, and my mum'll understand why I was the way I was!
My dad'll probably shake it off though, and go back to his old scummy ways.
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Friday, June 9, 2006
It's getting cold now!
Well, lately, it's been REALLY hot, and now it's cooling down, and I'm sooo happy!
I'm glad that tomorrow I won't have to go out when it's hot, and get sweat all down my back!
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 My idea for the play got axed!
I came up with an idea, which I thought was very good in drama, but two people weren't in because they had a test, and then one came in, and eventually, my idea got axed! *cries in a dark corner*
Well, my idea is: there are these people in a psychiatric ward/ insane asylum, and one of them is me, I'm the main character; and I want a person, who I want to be my friend, and they shoot me down, and I sulk.
Then, there's a bible teaching: the ten commandments. I accidently here that in the bible, it says 'THOU SHALL KILL', being all stroppy, I get the idea to kill the person I want as my friend because they dont' want my, so why should they live?!
So, I kill them. They come back and haunt me, and I think that it's God. They tell me to go and kill others, so I do. Three people infact. Then I kill myself in the faith of God. The ghost also makes it, so that they accuse a nurse.
She then gets driven mad, and she enters the insane asylum in my room. I haunt her.
And that's the end. I think that it's a marvellous story, to be made into a play, and if I can get my arse in gear, I may go and do a playscript, or just do it as a story!
Do you like it?
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