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• 1991-07-11
Gender
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• somewhere where you don't know, actually London in England
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• 2003-10-10
Occupation
• Sixth Form student, fan girl, writer and struggling artist/ creator
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• Amaris Hope you like the name because it is really so!

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Achievements
• Not killing the people in my school YET, or the world; being able to push people away; being socially isolated; let my grades go down because I'm lazy and an idiot; read all the books in my library, get my english teacher to think I self-harm (DSH)
Anime Fan Since
• I was 7, Yr 3, 1998 or so. The first anime was the infamous 'Sailor Moon'! XD
Favorite Anime
• Most of them except Ultimate Muscle because it is soo ruubiishh-o! I Love 'Neon Genesis Evangelion'! Shinji is such a passive-aggressive boy, and he hates himself so! I can relate, because I hate myself. I hate everyone else in the world!Human condition!
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• to actually finish a story!;To not die before 40, to get a good job which I enjoy- IMPOSSIBLE!; To find someone I love; to not end up killing myself because I suffer from depression.
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• reading, writing (all-sorts) and watching tv, getting annoyed, typing, blaming myself; being TOO perceptive; seeing all the faults of the world; telling people off if they are wrong; trying to decipher the world
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• daydreaming, singing, irritating the hell out of people, scarcasm, coldness, singing out of tune, being horrible, making skwibblies, procrastinating, staring into space, drawing, forgetting things and other stuff




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myOtaku.com: Outlaw Melfina


Wednesday, March 14, 2007

My wish was answered! Thank you God!
Yes. Family therapy was a hit. I also only woke up once this morn instead of 3 or 4.
The lady there was amazed at my vocab and my Dad congratulated me on that. If I said something that was more than 5 letters, she would make me explain what I meant by it! It's funny because I'm the posh one out of the family, even though all three of us go/ went to the same primary school! I'm a stubborn lout and I haven't given in to speaking badly! Grammar rules! :P My Dad looks rough, with his several layers, where I'm wearing one, and he sweat-stained baseball cap.
It was weird being in a room with a one-way mirror, knowing people are watching you. When I said how my Dad usually "flies off the handles," he scoffed in fake disbelief. He was all defensive, trying to get people to be on his side. How pathetic.
So, he did not drink himself into a stupor and have "a discussion" for several hours with raised voices. I felt content, even though I felt like weeping and I am really low and the shadow of dark thoughts lingers behind me.
Do I need to talk to anyone? I don't know. If you want to help me out of all this, you may.
I need to write some poems and not let the knife touch the arm...
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