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Thursday, March 15, 2007
Trip!
Hello there. The trip was good. Listened to the 'Shaman King' theme tune from my friend's iPod.
Today's mood: depressed at the mo. I nearly broke-down yesterday, but I pulled up my socks, and carried on like it never got near. I have been letting the seams break a little on my 'emotion box'. People have been asking if I'm alright. I've been going through the normal motions of being depressed: self-hatred and self-blame, suicidal thoughts, thoughts of self-harm. Just the norm. *Cackles*
Last night's spring concert was short and enjoyable. The trip today was fun, but there was an earthquake thing, and I remember going when I was 8, and it shook me like mad, but I was on it, and it hardly moved me! I didn't even lose my balance!
The little kids were *shivers* annoying. I would be sitting on the floor, drawing something, and the children would stare at me.
Also, I really am putting into place my target of being more affectionate towards people, as my heart is made of stone. My mum is encouraging me.
Thanks for all the visits. Tomorrow is the day where I visit peoples' sites, and I SHOULD be on 8pm my time tomorrow, so if you want to talk.... :O
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