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• 2003-10-10
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• Sixth Form student, fan girl, writer and struggling artist/ creator
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• Amaris Hope you like the name because it is really so!

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• Not killing the people in my school YET, or the world; being able to push people away; being socially isolated; let my grades go down because I'm lazy and an idiot; read all the books in my library, get my english teacher to think I self-harm (DSH)
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• I was 7, Yr 3, 1998 or so. The first anime was the infamous 'Sailor Moon'! XD
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• Most of them except Ultimate Muscle because it is soo ruubiishh-o! I Love 'Neon Genesis Evangelion'! Shinji is such a passive-aggressive boy, and he hates himself so! I can relate, because I hate myself. I hate everyone else in the world!Human condition!
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• to actually finish a story!;To not die before 40, to get a good job which I enjoy- IMPOSSIBLE!; To find someone I love; to not end up killing myself because I suffer from depression.
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• reading, writing (all-sorts) and watching tv, getting annoyed, typing, blaming myself; being TOO perceptive; seeing all the faults of the world; telling people off if they are wrong; trying to decipher the world
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• daydreaming, singing, irritating the hell out of people, scarcasm, coldness, singing out of tune, being horrible, making skwibblies, procrastinating, staring into space, drawing, forgetting things and other stuff




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Saturday, March 17, 2007

Anather poem! :O
'God, are you testing me?'

If so, you have some sick humour.
Numerous times have I been 'tested'
and my 'resilience' has seen to it that I survive.
The pride inside is too much.
Or shall I call it stubborness?
The willingness to go on and suffer
in sadistic pleasure overpowers that to escape hardship.

If you are testing me, I have not revised.
You never taught me in the first place.
Or is the Bible the textbook,
which I study when I please.

The test isn't becoming a surprise anymore.
I can see the the clues
and I am learning to work out the answers:
The onset of despair, fatigue and irritability-
more so than normal
Howdo you like that?
I am starting to study the past tests,
ignorant people are losing their effect.
I have learnt to accept what I cannot control;
I am releasing myself from the shackles causing
myself to be unable to touch others emotionally or physically.

A few years and it will not become a problem for me to decipher.
The answer will be clear, until you have something harder for me;
Like love.
-Amaris
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