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• 1991-07-11
Gender
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• somewhere where you don't know, actually London in England
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• 2003-10-10
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• Sixth Form student, fan girl, writer and struggling artist/ creator
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• Amaris Hope you like the name because it is really so!

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Achievements
• Not killing the people in my school YET, or the world; being able to push people away; being socially isolated; let my grades go down because I'm lazy and an idiot; read all the books in my library, get my english teacher to think I self-harm (DSH)
Anime Fan Since
• I was 7, Yr 3, 1998 or so. The first anime was the infamous 'Sailor Moon'! XD
Favorite Anime
• Most of them except Ultimate Muscle because it is soo ruubiishh-o! I Love 'Neon Genesis Evangelion'! Shinji is such a passive-aggressive boy, and he hates himself so! I can relate, because I hate myself. I hate everyone else in the world!Human condition!
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• to actually finish a story!;To not die before 40, to get a good job which I enjoy- IMPOSSIBLE!; To find someone I love; to not end up killing myself because I suffer from depression.
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• reading, writing (all-sorts) and watching tv, getting annoyed, typing, blaming myself; being TOO perceptive; seeing all the faults of the world; telling people off if they are wrong; trying to decipher the world
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• daydreaming, singing, irritating the hell out of people, scarcasm, coldness, singing out of tune, being horrible, making skwibblies, procrastinating, staring into space, drawing, forgetting things and other stuff




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Saturday, April 7, 2007

   Glorious breakdown!
Yes, last night I had a good old cry! Exhaustion is always fun! (That's what I'll have you believe anyway.) The good old self-hatred came to bite my arse and I couldn't get on the computer because my brother was 'on' it whilst watching 'Ugly Betty'. How thoroughly annoying to say the least. I didn't create any poems though, so I have nothing to add on that front, but I don't think the whole 'oh no, Jesus died for our sins' thought-process helped; probably precipitated the whole bloody thing. Honest to God I so wanted to cut myself, but as usual, I told myself not to, as I always do, and I didn't. Good on me! *firmly nods head* Sometimes I really do hate having to keep a firm lid on the pain, and having to have SOO much self-discipline, but I know it'll 'lead me to being a better person in the end' and all that shit. I feel like I'm going into another tunnel of pain, when I just got out of one. *pouts* Ah well. I'm a trooper/ fighter!
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