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• 1991-07-11
Gender
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• somewhere where you don't know, actually London in England
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• 2003-10-10
Occupation
• Sixth Form student, fan girl, writer and struggling artist/ creator
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• Amaris Hope you like the name because it is really so!

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Achievements
• Not killing the people in my school YET, or the world; being able to push people away; being socially isolated; let my grades go down because I'm lazy and an idiot; read all the books in my library, get my english teacher to think I self-harm (DSH)
Anime Fan Since
• I was 7, Yr 3, 1998 or so. The first anime was the infamous 'Sailor Moon'! XD
Favorite Anime
• Most of them except Ultimate Muscle because it is soo ruubiishh-o! I Love 'Neon Genesis Evangelion'! Shinji is such a passive-aggressive boy, and he hates himself so! I can relate, because I hate myself. I hate everyone else in the world!Human condition!
Goals
• to actually finish a story!;To not die before 40, to get a good job which I enjoy- IMPOSSIBLE!; To find someone I love; to not end up killing myself because I suffer from depression.
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• reading, writing (all-sorts) and watching tv, getting annoyed, typing, blaming myself; being TOO perceptive; seeing all the faults of the world; telling people off if they are wrong; trying to decipher the world
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• daydreaming, singing, irritating the hell out of people, scarcasm, coldness, singing out of tune, being horrible, making skwibblies, procrastinating, staring into space, drawing, forgetting things and other stuff




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myOtaku.com: Outlaw Melfina


Monday, November 17, 2008

Nooooooooooo! The frightful fist of fatigue and depression is grabbing hold of me!
I am dreadfully sorry for the coarse language in my comments, but I'm not a happy bunny at the mo; I think the word gremlin, or troll- definition: A supernatural being, now especially a grotesque humanoid creature living in caves or hills or under bridges; an ugly person; well, my manner isn't exactly pretty. XD
It's not as bad as year 11, with my eczema, where I can happily say I turned utterly suicidally depressed from the lack of sleep I got! :D Always lovely!
I've been discussing it with my mum, and she says that I may be wielding a knife with the barrage of words I give out! My patience is thin, and I am rather cold! Yippee for being moody sensitive girl! I've been crying, and I don't cry; eating badly and being a general pain in the arse really.
I just wish that there was a magic wand whereby I could just instantly be able to all refreshed when I finally get to sleep to be frank. I hate depression because that means that I get behind in work, and that stress becomes soul-destroying because I have to will things not to fall apart really.

That's the end of my rant. Happy commenting! ^^
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